Specially dedicated

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

This post is specially dedicated to those who missed me so much and dun dare to tell me or add comments.. muahahaa...esp those who are on study leave huh... wahaha... k lar.. maybe there's sme wishful thinking on the "miss me" part lar.. But hey... feel your heart... deep down and tell me you dont.. If you dont, you wont be here right.. lolx.. BUSTED!! opps...ahaha... dun worry, i wont go whooha abt it.. muahahaa.... yeah right...

Finally resting down after the tonnes of work's been cleared. Same old shit everyday.. clients' request.. users' queries.. program enhancements... kaoz!! I'm really lookin forward to the end of this. Cant stand going to the office everyday knowing that I'm not going to stay long lor... "Wo de xin yi jing bu zai le... Ni liu xia wo de ren ye mei you yong!!" muahahaha machiam.. Direct translation for potatoes.. "My heart is already not here liao.. You keep my man also no use!!"... Sigh...me and my powderful england.. saddening lor. heehee...

Just after lunch, one of my colleague.. or shld i just say "i dun really know you woman" came approaching me.. standing in front of my cubicle... showing off her specs.. didn want to bother abt her de lor... (not because she's no chio bu lar....lolx...opps) But... geez.. k la.. just entertain and byebye lor.. So our conversation started :
Me : "wah new specs ar??"
BritneyAndHerEvilSpecs :"Gucci one wor!! Actually i wanted to buy Dior or Chanel one but the shop dun sell..so disappointing"
moment of silence of 4secs.... .... ....
Me : ".. ..... Oh si meh... aiyo.." acting like i actually care.
BritneyAndHerEvilSpecs turns her head to show me the Big Gucci brand..
Me : "Wah ur Gucci the word so big i can see one.. u no need to purposely turn ur head de..."
Hoping she gets my idea..
BritneyAndHerEvilSpecs : "Big meh... alright mah... i find dat it's not big enough lor... *let out a terrible laugh*"
Me nods head.. feeling terrible after "suaning" failed... and the stupid conversation carries on..

The conversation shortly ended after I tried freaking hard to focus my eyes on my monitor and chanting... hoping that the Britney will be gone... .."be gone!! BE GONE!! You evil spirit!!..." lolx... and she continues to haunt everyone else... muahaha.... Siao za bor. I pity her husband... sigh. Carries on with my work..

soowei noted at 1:47 PM  | 

Blabbering...

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Yes. Another post here. Although I've nothing on my mind to blog about, I still very much enjoyed the feeling of blabbering my thoughts out. Esp to my blog, who can listen well and not argue/comment all the things that I've said.

Guess I'll be skipping lunch today. Feeding on Subway's chocolate chips cookies..!! Highly recommended by miss Os. So of course I'm damn free now lar since the office left only a few cats.. Went thru most of my past posts... It's obviously noticeable that my posts had changed a lot. From the happy go lucky posts to the dull, self-pity and self-demoralising posts. *Gawd* what e hell happened?? Keeps me pondering for a moment.. ... ... *After a moment*... Ah har! I think i know why. (okay lar i know this is pretty lame.. but trying very hard to make the post lively-er lei... so u better give me some face lor!!) Okay back to the topic. Over these years, thru army and all the blardy unhappy incidents, only yesterday I found out that the person i thought I've matured into is actually sme pussy. Yeah I dun mind admitting that.. not that i've a pussy lar and P.S: dun ever call me that in the public. Haha.. I dun wan any butches or faggots to come screwing my arse!! Of all words, why a pussy?? Err.. coz i'm a guy? and naturally a guy's mind is fulled of pussys... muahahaa... *meow*... talk cork lar. The word just came to me. I followed too strictly to sme of my so called "principles" which i always think is right. Now shut the crap and hear me out.

1. Sharing - frm my point of view, sharing is fine. But overly baring yourself to anyone else is terribly wrong. If i were to bare myself too much to someone, i would require the same baring cause i bared so much and i fear betrayal and i would be defensive and overly sensitive. That's what i believed in the past. The libra's trying to live up to his zodiac to be fair/just.. haha you know what? that's BULLSHIT!! Now, i'll put down my defense shield and bare it all out. What's there to lose? Nothing! So why fear?

2. Honesty - I dunno if i'm right about this. In the past, i'm too honest and true to everyone. *bleahz* thick skin. Yeah i know. That's what my friends liked abt me. At least that's what i think. hehe. I'm being so true that when anyone tries to pull sme stunt on me or i sense untruthfulness, i'll shirk off and get sad in my own corner like a hermit crab wondering and losing sleep over "why he so like dat? why he so like dat? I ask you why he so like dat and u tell me coz he's so like dat..(this is a sing along session)".. smetimes it might even go into the extremes dat my trust for anyone can be lost in a snap! so pussy right. Gawd... Now i know being truthful doesnt necessarily pays off. Blardy hell trust what i've said! You can never be too truthful..however Yes, I'll still be truthful but only on the right things and right people. It's fine to put on a mask once a while.

3. Trust - Dun think i can define this. Cause i cant figure out what it is too. It comes and go easily. I would say that my trust to someone can gradually fade off due to time. I need assurance to keep it "fresh/renew". Simple, if i dun trust smeone, i wont ask him to do anything or request help from him. Trust is sth that works both way bah.. err.. how to say lei.. like it's pointless if you have trust for the person and the person doesnt have trust for you. I reckon that it's a damn extreme thing lar. Either you can trust or you cant. there's no middle class shit.


Would stop at 3 for now. Dun wan to go on and on abt it.. it bores me too. dunno what i'm getting at also. Haha... totally lost. how can life be so complicated? haha.. fuck. Not going into it again.. i'm going out of the moment!!

soowei noted at 12:36 PM  | 

:)

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Striked off e previous post. It's time to fight back.. Post added at Thoughts of life.

soowei noted at 8:24 AM  | 

!@#!@$!

Monday, May 01, 2006

I'm speechless... I really have no idea what's going on in my flooded brain. Lots of questions and scenarios are playing and floating around in my brain. So many that I just would rather choose not to answer it. With the fear of knowing the truth - Escaping. I'm sick and jaded of always running from my troubles and always making my troubles someone's. Even if i made my troubles someone's, i believe that though i've deep buried it in me, the trouble will still come back to haunt me. I dun used to be like this. What happened?!?! Why all the self pity and self doubts??? Why?? Why shld i bother?? Why issit that when i try to be bo chup or nonchalent, i still feel unhappy?? Stupid brain. When i wake up tml, just let me die off and be brain dead. I would be better off so.

soowei noted at 11:31 PM  |