Lalala~

Sunday, September 26, 2004

Geez.. long long time nvr update my blog liao hor.. Actually wanted to update it during the weekdays in the spec mess. Coz "mua" CPL liao wor. HAHaha.. Can enter spec mess liao wor. Haha but it also means I will kana more arrows and duties lar. Suck big time!! This whole week been really busy for me. Duties and duties. Frm last Sat, guard duty that last 24hrs!! Although quite slack for me lar coz "mua" CPL mah!! Hehe so only need to do guard 3 lor. Then came Sunday when I finally got to book out. Went home straight and met up with my friends for a KTV session~ WooHoo~ But the sad thing is, I gotta book in back camp by 11. Sian arbo can sing until midnight sia. Haha dat day happy sia.. happy lik siao.. coz my friends say my singing improving sia.. hahaha.. happy happy~

Monday, got to do COS. Some shit duty lor. Like PA like dat everything people need help ask from you. But I dun mind lah, it's acutally much better than slacking in the signal office where arrows can come unexpectedly. But lucky for me lah the whole day nth much to do. Except those regimental stuff. When it comes to nite, it really sucks lar.. All the sudden I start to miss my bunk and my bunkmates. Not that they are fantastic lar.. but really a boredom to stay in the office the whole nite esp when you are alone. Lucky hui, came down to acc me sia. Even bought french fries and drinks. Haha touch sia.. Thanks wor! Tuesday came fast, and so does my duty. Believe it or not, it's my duty again but now not as COS but as a duty signaller. Which is equivalent to being a PA to our BSO. Talking abt BSO, hmm... recently he's starting gained a lot of respect from me. Lots have happen lar... he showed lots of forgiveness to everything we did. Not forgiveness lar.. sth else just cant think of the word rite now. Just so "kuan rong" lor. Like a big man. Anyways, back to myself, came wednesday, my duty again. Now as a RP. Haha.. Starting to feel i'am a robot then. 3 days in a row duties plus the guard duty. Really seh ar.. Lucky I have friend over doing RP. Hehe.. Got strings ar.. Then he help me arrange my slots so I can leave early. That's all for the week I guess. Hmm.. oh ya watched The White Chicks.. hahaha damn damn funny. Hhahaha laugh until my stomach pain sia. Esp the farting scene. Really is pengz lor. Then today go AHM lar.. some stupid marathon lor. where all the army and some public who can sleep late dun wan.. go for e run dunno for wat fuck. Real crowded lor.. No diff w/ walking n running. Coz ppl will be blocking ur way anyways. Seeing the scene really make me sian lor. Ppl behaving like morons.. haha.. Irritate me sia. Although sometimes I also behave like one lar.. haha. Tick tock tick tock... next wk my bdae coming sia.. hahaha... sian getting older n fatter. Nobody want me liao lar.. Haiz.. haha.. Dunno wat friends will get for me wor.. hahaha... hor hor... but hope is wat i wan lar hor... U all know lar.. haha.. if u all dunno hor..always feel free to ask me lar.. sms me lor if u shy.. wahahahah~ I welcome u all with big big open arms.~ Updated my wishing list. Take a look

soowei noted at 7:18 PM  | 

Friends no more?

Sunday, September 12, 2004

This week, everything's so different. Friends are no longer friends but strangers. This cold feeling just makes me feel so awkward and make me so "no mood"?? Dunno how to put it into words. It just sucks lar. Things are different for my family too. Every second I spend with them can make a big difference and is just so important. They just do. One second they may be my parents, e next, no longer. To sum up, just hope time heals everything. Amen. Ambithaba.

Been on standby for the charlie battery. Every week, one of the signallers from HQ will be attached to the battery line for standby. So who's the unlucky no.1?Me lor. The usual 'lucky' me. Actually it's nothing really. Except that I have to wake up slightly earlier to draw arms and to act fast when there's an activation. Other than that, everything's just the same. Starting to like the life in battery line. Relationships between the signallers, gunners and the storemans and GAs are so much closer compared to HQ. In HQ, most of the people are just to themselves. Selfish lots. Wait, I won't say I'm not selfish too. But I'll give help to those who need my help or to those who once helped me. Enough of the army stuff.

Went out w/ my friend this friday. Went driving around in my dad's van. Just wanted to get things off my mind, even for a second. Haha. Drove so fast..100km/hr. Marc got his shock of his life. It's afterall the 1st time he see me, the safety driver drove that fast. Just not feeling good. Haha, so he took over the wheel for the rest of the night. Keep hanging on to it, not allowing me to drive anymore. Stopped at some kopitiam at dover for some beer. Talk cork and drank till I drop dead. Then anything after that, I cant remember. Only vaguely that he sent me home. <- He told me that lar. Just dun remember anything. But lucky I woke up with my clothes intact. Hahaa.. Woke up the following day at around 1plus with huge hangover. I'm supposed to meet my friends at 2. Haha. Late again. Sorry guys, haha but I treat u guys for drinks alreadi k? Forgive me. Haha yeah went drinking again. Over at CHIMES. This time smoke a stick or two. Just not in the goodey mood I'm in. Felt so LOSER this period of my life. LOW's the word for me. Then took a cab home w/ my friends. And went seating at the void deck. Start pouring out our feelings about everything, NS, relationships, family, dogs, gals. Haha just everything under the sun(although it's night then lar.. only got moon). Then today went out w/ my SI buddy. It's his bdae today. So went out with him for movies and dinner. Acc him lar. Still the same old him, but seems like I've grown taller? Hehe.. or was it just me comforting myself again. Let's pray the opposite. Geez gotta go. Booking in with e charlie ppl. keep my fingers crossed. And pray for the best for everything.

soowei noted at 9:19 AM  | 

just not my day

Sunday, September 05, 2004

An add on to this week. 5:21am. Feeling vexed and mad at myself over my friends and family. Just went speed driving in e van for quite a long time. Seperated with my friends at around 12plus. Then went to Samuel's place. Wanted to pay him an apology but failed. Yes, I made him angry again. But never did that on purpose. Stayed there for quite a while thinking he might change his mind. Felt really guilty. This is what happen when I made my friends angry. I would feel really guilty esp when it happen to my close friends. Feel so guilty that I would keep saying sorry and pay apology. Although I know that this will furthur irritate them and what done is done and there's nothing much I can do (esp when they are at the top of their anger), but everything's worth a try and that's what I believe in. I believe that it's the only way to show my sincerity and how much this friendship means. Geez. If it was for just a normal friend, all I'll do is just say sorry and couldn't care less. What a loser I am.

My family. What I'm going through now I know is nothing compared to what my parents are going through now. Won't disclose anything. It's just private. So all that I can say is just that I feel so lost all the sudden and that I can't see where I'm leading to in my future. That answers to why I'm always not at home. Escaping? I guess much. Deep inside me just tells me that if I'm not around, they(my parents) wouldn't have time to tell me whatever they want to tell me and I wouldn't have to face it. LOSER.

soowei noted at 5:39 PM  | 

Helooo~ Singapore!!

Friday, September 03, 2004

Yeah yeah!! I finally landed my feet on mainland Singapore this Monday morning at around 1plus2. Quickly hailed a cab back home the very moment I've touched down. Despite the fatigue from the jet-lag, really can't help enjoying the scenery of Singapore. Never once felt so happy being a Singaporean!! :) Buttt, this feeling aren't gonna stay for long, soon enough I'll once again find Singapore a sucky place(guess what I'm already feeling so now). Back home, everyone's asleep except my dog, Bobby awaiting for my arrival. Really miss this guy. Then dumped all my dirty clothings and stinky underwears into a pail and leave it soak for the night, bathed for an hour and "BOM" into my dreamland. Sleeping so soundly when Angie interrupted by calling my cellphone. So we were supposed to meet up, hehe guessed I totally forgotten about this date. Haha so met up with her, did lots of catching up and passed her some soveneirs I got in Thailand, just some cheap skate key chains with her name on it and some food from Thailand. Caught a movie and head back home straight. Feeling real sleepy.

Then another day, Tuesday morn, woke up and went online. Saw samuel who's just back from his run. This guy is really a keep fit guy and sometimes really a freaking siao on guy. This I really admire him. He's very serious and determined in what he believes and what he does. Although sometimes he really get on my nerves by being the COOLman. Haha but guess that's the reason why I like to irritate him which in turn get him on his nerves too. Heh. So went out again, this time with my van along. Hate travelling esp on public transport. I don't have the patience for that especially after entering NS. Everything's to efficiency. A waste of a sec could accumulate to a half day off from camp. Geez really miss my friends. Haha although all I got them was those cheap skate key chains, but they like it. That's why I count them as my friends. They know me well enough. It's the thought that counts. Marc even told me that I shouldn't have wasted the money. Haha to be honest, that came across my mind too. Hehe but I'm obliged to at least get something small. Then all the way talk cork sing song until late night. Don't wanna get back home so early. Samuel told me he finished meeting his friends. Then asked him if he wants to drive around. The usual no. Guess he's too tired or don't wanna mahuan me?

Then came Wednesday, where half the signal platoon meets up for a dim sum buffet I organise. Hhaha. Luckily everything goes smoothly. The buffet's cheap and nice. Only cost $15 nett/pax. Only bad thing about it, will be the variety of the dim sums are just the little. Still everyone were filled to their brim. Haha.. So full, incl me. Then went to catch a movie - AVP. Then a CS game. Geez I really suck in this. Luckily Samuel's there to guide me. Haha still I became the laughing stock. Well learnt a lot. Let's pray hard for the nxt time. Haha so paisay promised to play billard with Hui and he ended up watching us play CS.

Came Thursday, where that's my unlucky day. Our BSO(BUO - battalion useless officer) the one who asked my back for assistance for standby for Charlie FSO. He told me earlier on that I'm only needed to attend a briefing and may leave in the aft. Then GOTCHA, I was told to stay for the night instead. Plus I didn't bring any personal stuff, forgot the key combination for our bunk, forgot to bring my key for my locker. Geez nothing can be worst. Guess I'll just leave it before I finally erupt.

Then today. Hmm.. waiting for someone to call me for a cycling trip.

soowei noted at 11:17 PM  |