Mindless blog..

Monday, February 27, 2006

Thinking of getting away from my work for a while. Letting sme logic flows thru.. Really sick of handling sme difficult ppl.. Esp e ladies.. wow u will be surprised how lor sor dey can get.. damn irritating. actually the guys are as well... Esp when they think that dey are right and just couldn stop for a sec to listen to what you have for them.. So i finally thought of a way to handle these ppl, either you hang up on them and call back to say that the line got cut or you simply yell to their ears... "Farking BITCH!!".. .. BUT tat is of coz if you don't want to keep your job. But me, i still need this pathetic rice bowl.. so.. i take it down my pride... yeah like a MAN!!.. haha.

So my week just goes as per usual, spent my wkdays mourning. Maybe coz i just enjoy doing so. So was gorging and stuffing myself chocolates/ice cream/CNY goodies.. Fills great.. Then came Sat. Went to my colleague's place.. to see her new born baby!! Met w my colleagues and went to meisan's. woo... condo.. haha so i was "wahhh.. look at me... i'm a frog in the well".. been to quite a few condos b4.. but nvr really had e chance to explore and use the facilities.. coz was working... except for a couple of my friends who lives in condo.. *winks* hurhur.. haha.. anyways.. was only eating @ their function room.. until i asked my colleague..

Me : "eh, u guys been to meisan's hse b4?"
Colleague: "yup.. u wan to go ar? haha"
Me : "err.. i dun mind lar"


So somehow i became e person who suggested to go to her house.. wah la.. so i showed myself ard e house since meisan say.. "make it like your own house"... haha.. so i just helped myself lor.. liked their decor.. so Zen.. so was exploring.. n exploring until i cant help but to notice this dark blue ball in the corner of the ceiling.. for those morons who still has no idea wat e hell it is,.... let me tell u.. it's a camera.. and i just sort of blurted out.. "huh how cme u all need a camera here??"... guess it's unappropriate.. haha. well too bad.. wat happened had happened. live with it or forget it.

Sunday.. went for e gathering. Honestly didn enjoy e whole evening e bit. wasnt in e mood to do the "fake smile". But still went ahead. Coz if i dun, i would be expecting stuff like "ask u out, u dun wan to come out..."..crap... but honestly wat can u expect.. so lets not make any expectations ya? life is so much better...! went early to make prayers and get hui's watch re-batt. then met up e rest later on @ PS. all didn change much e bit.. except sme got more hair.. n one got a stupid haircut.. ahahaa... in case u hav no idea, it's samuel.. dunno where he got his haircut.. sheez... then e grp went smoking. in fact only ql's smokes coz samuel quitted.. ahah err.. lets see.. but smehow hui couldn reject e stick n lit it up.. wat a disappointing loser. wanted to blah abt it.. but sheez.. just kept it. i guessed what would happen.. hui would most probably be crapping "he noes what he's doing... and he didn need ppl to tell him wat to do n wat not to... n he's just a social smoker plus ql gave him e stick so "ying chou"...." n all e yeah yeah crap.. in e end, things would probably still remain, like i just farted.. so..... by all means... carry on sucking it.. it's not my life to care. lets not be bothered too..

soowei noted at 1:55 PM  | 

Freaking me..! (It's true)

Sunday, February 26, 2006

wahla..~




the Romantic
Test finished!
you chose BY - your Enneagram type is FOUR.


"I am unique"


Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.

How to Get Along with Me

  • Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.
  • Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.
  • Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.
  • Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.
  • Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!


What I Like About Being a Four

  • my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level
  • my ability to establish warm connections with people
  • admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life
  • my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor
  • being unique and being seen as unique by others
  • having aesthetic sensibilities
  • being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me

What's Hard About Being a Four

  • experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair
  • feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved
  • feeling guilty when I disappoint people
  • feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me
  • expecting too much from myself and life
  • fearing being abandoned
  • obsessing over resentments
  • longing for what I don't have


Fours as Children Often

  • have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original game s
  • are very sensitive
  • feel that they don't fit in
  • believe they are missing something that other people have
  • attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.
  • become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood
  • feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)


Fours as Parents

  • help their children become who they really are
  • support their children's creativity and originality
  • are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings
  • are sometimes overly critical or overly protective
  • are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed
    Link: The Quick and Painless ENNEAGRAM Test

soowei noted at 2:51 AM  | 

My Lost...

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

http://kevan.org/johari?name=scanzel << do this

http://kevan.org/nohari?name=scanzel << tis too. Thanks!

I wouldnt say that I've been through a lot in my life as I believe there are many other much unfortunates. Now that's sth I really have to keep in mind. Mayb as a consolation?

These few weeks been really tough for me. Having losing 1 of my dearest friends. He passed away. Edwin left the world with his illness but he brought a smile with him.. Although God gave up on him, his will to carry on keeps him going.. It's really a sad moment. Having him gone and leaving his frail aged single mother who stood by him all these years... "How could you....??" I tried asking Edwin.. he simply couldn reply. I held on my tears through the nite. As I gave my word to him that no tears would be shed. No fancy burial/ceremony was given as the family's poor after all the treatments. No relatives came to sent him off even after inviting them. They shun and started to "disown" this relationship they have after the family met crisis. Leaving only his mum and myself to send him off. Started to believe in how pathetic human beings can be.... You may once live as an "angel" with a kind soul or you might be famous but when misfortune falls on you, will there be anyone standing beside you? or even pity you? You might end up pitying yourself..for being silly to carry hopes for the world. Pity..

I took a walk down the beach.. and sat down. Many things went thru my mind... I looked thru my hp... in search for anyone i could talk to... Doubt overcame me. For a moment i lost the trust I have for everyone and didnt think anyone would be free enough to listen. They might be busy with their own stuff.. So gave up e idea. Then, I need a moment to myself.. My mind went blank. For a sec, I believed that my brain is(would) subconciously deleting(delete) all the bad/sad/unwanted memories. That explains why I'm so forgetful....

No longer would have expectations. I wouldn expect anyone to be nice, good or whatever shit. Cause, if i have expectations, i will bound to have disappointment and unhappiness. So why torture myself?

No longer would compromise myself for others.. Why bother to change what I wanted beforehand.. to compromise others... when i know i wouldn like it...is there a need?? Dun think dey would appreciate either...

Why e silliness.... .....

soowei noted at 1:19 PM  | 

I'm back!!

Monday, February 20, 2006

Heys ppl, Surprised!!! I'm BaaaccccKKK!!!~. Haha.. Times were hard for me for e past few wks.. it seems like it been years.. Sme private matters.. But smehow, i thought it straight. The world's arent going to stop rotating w/o me.. , everyone's just moving on.. and if i were to just stayed on n dwell on stuff, It's just myself suffering.. What's e point eh...? Just gotta learn to hold on. haha so i'm back.. Well coz this is the place where i can relieve my stress and unhappiness... and i'm glad my friends were dere to support. Thanks ppl!

soowei noted at 12:04 AM  | 

My last.

Monday, February 06, 2006

This is my last post. This blog will end here. Take care ppl. thanks for e support.

soowei noted at 2:22 PM  |