Craps n craps..

Monday, July 25, 2005

Drenched... i'm totally drenched today.. all thanks to ARMY. God noes i might fell sick e very next moment.. like NOW?!? And who's going to pay for my bills?? myself!! who's going to suffer?? myself!! n who's going to take care of me?? definately not ARMY!! Kaoz.. so this furthur prove myself one point dat i always believe in.. hahaha... CAN HIDE JUST HIDE.. DUN BE GARANG.. hahaa... Zun bo!! Haha anyways.. was pretty tired.. Coz of the laying of taupoline.. Thinking dat it cant be worse, Bravo BSM was actually e one coordinating it!!! FUCK.. dat fat ass just cant get any blood flowing thru his brain.. dat's y he's thinking w his arse.. ahaha.. He kaoz.. merely had nth but yelling.. Good for nth BUM.. Cant imagine if he's gonna take over Staff Yeo as a HQ BSM.. Liew.. made us do extra work.. smemore in e rain.. kaoz.. heavy lei.. i weakling lai de.. u let me work in e rain.. i SUE u den u NOE. KNNBCCB.. Then was another fat ass.. Harris.. stands for hairy shit ass... fuck i hate it lor.. esp when he thinks he knows wat he's doing n big fuck order ppl ard.. den he was yelling at me, beng n hui.. to move.. when he could simply move his ass to get the work done.. so i simply yell him back.. haha.. so shiok.. n see him stunned.. yeah dunno why but my heart has been telling me.. i've been waiting for that moment. OH YEAH...

One more thing.. hahaha hit hui w/ the director.. oh yeah.. STRIKE!!! *Kong*... hehe.. aiyah wasnt on purpose lar.. but his head just came for the director i'm carrying mah.. so bo bian.. too bad lor.. hehee... Then also dere was a bunch of babe(bar-be) imitating Xunwei.. hahah... well at first was a bit irritaing lar.. coz xunwei's no matter what still is our side one mah.. but.. well sorry lor.. it's just too funny dat i fell on my knees.. hahahaa.... fuck.. hahaha still can laugh abt it when i think abt it now.. hahahha

HAha... went to a place i nvr tot i would step in.. yesterday nite w hui.. hahaha.. shall not tell yet.. read on.. hehe.. yesterday... hmm.. oh was Sunday. Was fucking free on dat day.. so was the van.. n had totally no idea what to do with it.. Coz was always no idea where to go even w/ e van... So lost.. n i dun really like e feeling.. n didn really like asking ppl out to acc me.. But still went on to ask hui out lar.. haha.. so we went to Sim Lim to get my stuff.. den to jurong for dinner... sme stupid dinner dat i get so full.. hahahaha.. becoz of errr... nvm lar.. it's me lar.. i deserve it... i deserve it.. can only accept it wholeheartedly.. coz i jian ming mah.. ask hui to make e decision on e dishes.. haha.. bo bian lor.. Lan lan suck thumb. hahaha..

anyways.. had a filing dinner.. den we went to sme place... A hint.. : it has many indians.. haha n is e only shopping centre dat's open 24 hr in spore!! cool isnt it... but sure it ha a smell.. haha e moment i stepped into e building.. i got weak on my knees.. hahah had dizzy spells.. thanks to e "aroma therapy" hahaha... but it sure has lots of stuff... so many things dat i wanted to buy... but was just too stingy to spent on... but sth for sure.. if i'm working now, it's a definate dat i'll spend.. coz i did always have a limit to watever i still remain in my bank.. hehe of coz i wont tell lar.. hahahaa neli neli bu bu... hehe.. but of coz if anyone wants to give any of wat i want for my bdae is a definate welcome lar... i did welcome it w a big big hug.. n both hands... want kiss also can.. hahahahahaa.... hahahaha.. but of coz i hope i can choose watever lar... haha k lar i think dat's all folks.. haha

Almost..

Saturday, July 23, 2005

For once.. i almost made it.. now i'm back. For those who dun understand wat i'm talking abt.. just ignore this post.. fuck.. e hell w what's going thru my mind now.. just need a place to settle n speak things out.. to get things..complete..?? I think i need serious revamp on my brain haha.. '

Anyways, things are better now. I hope it just remains....

Merlions...

Thursday, July 21, 2005

haha... now e time's 4.28am. dated 21/07. Just reached home after sending every drunkard home.. yeah DRUNKARD i meant. Currently i guess everyone of dem will be snoring their way to their dreamland except me.. ME e only standing one.. hehe.. now typing my blog n laughing at e losers in my evil mind hehe... it's e 1st time i see so many MERLIONS in singapore!! cm on lar.. one merlion in spore is enough u noe..? hehe...

Well we were at Dbl O's.. as expected wat else can we do dere.. but chiong.. yeah a stupid thing i agree... but well i wont deny dat i had fun earlier on.. hahaha... mayb cause was glad dat everyone's enjoying themselves bah.. or i too enjoyed myself.hahahaha... dancing like idiots on e dancefloor.. but hell i've to say this.. since this issue comes to my mind... ATTENTION: i dun wish to say this but i just have to voice it out.. e ladies dat chiong.. kaoz.. are really loose.. dun wish to use e word horny bitches but dey are just behaving like one or worst still sluts... which gave e guys easy on them... kaoz.. i can tell u this.. if i happened to see any of my friends in dere behaving like HB, i'm gonna go upfront give dem a tight slap n drag her out of e club... before any mishaps happen.. haha.. hmm this is irony.. if e gals wont dere.. hmm.. dere wont be much fun either.. hhahaa.. LAME isnt it.. just guys.. LAME.. hha

anyways.. back to e story.. hmm.. was initially dun want to dance.. just hoped to smoke thru by just standing or sitting at one corner.. hhaa but e guys keep pulling me into e pool.. so bo bian lor.. just gotta show dem my stuff... hehee... sme of e music sucks though.. haha.. den after a while say 2plus(was dere at 11plus) sme ppl lar.. i wont say who(to protect e person)... cannot take it.. ahahaha.. den.. blah blah.. hahah wont say much ar... MERLION lor.. wahh.. merlion is such a nice structure.. it's located at singapore river.. n smetimes mhd sultan.. hiak hiak... ahh shall not talk abt it lar..

So how did we go abt getting dere... hmm... lets say we met at city hall control at 7. Me was e organiser... but was supposed to be supporting the PA at 6.30 at padang.. den was thinking lan lan.. worst cme to worst.. dun go.. dey happy can liao.. hahha... but lucky lar.. when i reached dere at 5plus.. on my way go buy cake.. staff sit called n said my help's not needed.. hehe.. yeahh!! SAVED frm xunwei. Lalala.. so went buy e cake frm prima deli.. fruit plan.. haha remember dat ass saying he liked e cake.. so buy lor n put it at qlong's place(coz having dinner dere).. den go arcade while waiting for e rest to be at city hall at 7. den cool enough n surprisingly no one's late.. hahahaa.. so we carried on w e plan.. to qlong's place had sme not really can fill stomach dishes.. haha but luckily got e cake lar.. hahaaa... haha.. so after e dinner waited for qlong to finish his work n join us for later events.. sigh was initially ktv ones... den stupid samuel n beng.. just cant sing.. hahhaa.... AS IF i can.. hahaa.. so bo bian got to go along w dem.. so went chiong lor.. n it's ladies night!! n one good thing i forgot to mention earlier.. dey didn check my IC!! hahahaa...

Was out w/ hui e nite before 20th.. haha.. pretty honoured. Well... went back camp to get sme stuff.. saw sam e poor COS.. haha.. n e stupid DOO dat's super garang.. den was supposed to get sme drink at e upp seletar dere... but was LOST... e wheel holder lost his way.. hahaa.. so bo bian sat down at another store for our kopi.. haha.. NEW SPOT.. haha.. e place's prata was very crispy n was full of ppl.. plus my drink teh tarik was nice.. haha not bad. After drinks, passed him e present dat i've scrimp n saved just to get a better model n design dat he did like, den went bukit timah nature reserve hahaa.. go dere let mosquito bite.. hehe.. haha.. den down to pasir ris... lucky i got e van pumped.. haha

Hahaa.. all in all had lotsa fun on both e days.. hope e fart face did e same.. hahah.. ciaoz.. gtg.. tired shit

TMD

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

TMD, guess what, the very 1st thing i got back hme, i was questioned by my arse bro "Are you e one dat put a scratch on e van?" Fuck.. for what i noe, e scratch has been dere even before e very 1st time i laid my hands on e van.. Really annoyed. I almost yelled at him.. but luckily i caught my cool fast.. LUCKY him.. This isnt the 1st time he's pointing fingers at wat i didn do.. esp abt e van.. fuck - eversince e accident tat i didn caused. but fair enough, he had no idea dat i wasnt e one dat caused e accident.. so it's only understandable of where his accusations came frm. So for now.. watever he says DEAF EARS..lalala.. hhaa.. dat's e only way i can do..

Hmm.. now wat?? so.. life's been e same.. Everything's e same.. same routine - padang n padang .. boring army life.. damn sian didn got any marksman for e 2nd yr shoot again.. dere goes my $200 bucks.. duhz.. What to do? I'm just plain lousy.. haha n so is my detail.. although felt sad in e beginning, but.. well it isnt dat bad afterall no one in our unit acheived any marksman.. N it's counted as my last ORD shoot!! YEAH!!.. n i guess it's e last time i'm going to shoot any range except for IMT for my reservist? other den this shit, everything's e same.. except.. except... hehe.. i've changed!! yeah! got to become a better person!! yeah yeah really happy... although e change's only known to myself, damn i'm just FUCKING PROUD to be the way it is.. yeah n it makes me.. so happy..

Spent a hell lots of money this wkend... Gone ktv, LAN, buffets..movies...arcades.. duhz.. man i'm spending a lot lately.. Cannot lar.. i must start saving le.. Or else all e money i've saved my lifetime turning into dust if i'm leaving as it's state now.. duhz.. SEE what has NS done? shit lar.. expecting us to survive w/ e little $500 plus dey squeezing out for us... shit lor... Pathetic losers... treating us like Bangalahs... tmd..

Haha.. well anyways catched.. Fantastic 4.. was.. alright lar.. worth only for a $7 show... n caught CRASH... quite nice.. i liked this show.. quite meaningful.. WATCH IT.. it simply explains how ppl see things... like racism.. gave me a thought dat.. things will be much better if u took a step back to see things.. P.S: if u guys wan to watch e show.. pls skip these spoilers..

Character 1: A black..Didnt wish to save his brother frm e dark.. hehe.. probably thinking dat he's beyond hope, he left him to die despite his mother wishing him to look n help his brother.. n looks down on his own race too..?? which in turn his brother was actually a good guy..

Character 2: A white.. Appears to be someone who doesnt support e idea of racism.. but in turn he did. He judged a black(A) by his torn dressing.. n deduced dat A is trying to grab for a gun when A reached his hands into his pocket.. n killed A.. sadly..

Character 3: Hmm.. a poor arabian or wat shit race man.. who thinks dat everyone's out to harm him.. n was always on his defensive. Had a gun for defense? shot a innocent little gal when he tried to killed her father.. thinking dat his father rob n smashed his store.. luckily e gal survived.. Miracle..?! No.. dere was more den tat..

Character 4: A white lady.. despise blacks.. n only came to notice dat all her friends are fake when she most needed help.. only e black helped her..

Character 5: black. steals n robs frm whites.. thinks dat he's right to do dat.. esp when he has a gun w him.. One day he stole frm e same race.. n only came to realise dat he's wrong to think dat of a white..

Character 6: white. Despise blacks. Hate dem.. n uses athourity against dem. molested a black woman. but turned well when he rescue e same black woman frm a car accident..



Aiyah.. just watch dat show.. if u trust my taste..

Sunday, July 10, 2005

Today's a long long day. Spent most of my time at home. 1st half of the day packing n cleaning my stuff... 2nd half.. went out dinner w/ a friend dat just came back frm overseas. Wouldn say i'm close to her or wat.. seldom contact her but just had e spiritual closeness feel w/ her. hhahah.. After e dinner went back hme.. n sat in front of e tv staring n munching.. geez... thinking of driving out later... hahaha... N that simply concludes my life.. Simply simple n bore.. NO LIFE sia!!

Tml still gotta report back to camp. Sian.. was supposed to be a off-day but got to attend sme range shit.. For wat?? Yeah.. for wat.... nobody noes.. it's just e army shit dey come out w/.. It's not as if during war ur enemy's going to sit down dere n let u shoot n u are not going to get sme hole or sandbag for u to support n shoot him either.. Stupid..

Sick of things

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Did a mood analysis test using the colorgenics. Wow.. really quite accurate for me. Give it a try.

Life for some time now has been somewhat depressing and you feel 'under the weather'. You are looking for a means by which you can escape from all the pressures of everyday life. But you must remember that the 'Past does not equal 'Tomorrow'. You are seeking a way to escape from all the trials and tribulations that oppress you at this time, but at least you haven't given up - if one pattern of behavior doesn't seem to work then you'll change it for another.
You are in need of rest, some peace and quiet. You feel the need to be close to that someone special, that someone who can give you that special consideration and unquestioning affection that you seek. If you don't find that 'special someone' and resolve your problems very soon, you are liable to become extremely introverted and cut yourself off from society.
You give the impression that you are a self-sufficient individual, pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure. But this is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional person, one that may make hasty decisions and perhaps repent at leisure. It is time now perhaps to break the bond of detachment and become the real 'you' - the you that you would like to be.
You are feeling helpless. The fact that you are unable to control events that are going on around you is subjecting you to considerable stress. This can, if not relieved, cause muscle spasms or hypertension. It would seem that you are, for whatever the reason, being subjected to intolerable pressures. The complete environment would appear to be hostile. It would also seem that you are being driven against your will. You feel - and perhaps quite rightly so - that unreasonable demands are made of you but more to the point you feel as if you are powerless to control the situation or protect yourself in any way. At this time you feel utterly helpless.
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions are really beyond your capabilities. This has resulted in experiencing considerable anxiety and stress. You are looking for confirmation from your nearest and dearest that you have the ability and strength to fulfill all of your needs and to be completely self-sufficient. When matters don't go right for you - you tend to become inhibited and blame others for your inadequacy. You feel that there must be a way out from all the trials and tribulations that you have been experiencing of late and you are right - there is a solution - so don't give in, keep searching.


The past few days been really tired. Tired of entertaining, tired of smiling, tired of NDPs n all. How i wish i could really take a relaxing break n sit or lie down in a corner w/o having to worry what's going to happen or what i should do the next second.. Friends been asking me out.. but i'm either too tired, or i'm just too busy. Too tired of entertaining ppl n interacting.. dun like e idea of getting myself into troubles or any form of unhappiness.

Anyways.. recently e only pastime or e only thing i enjoyed were the time i went swimming n went on a night photo taking session. Swimming, one of e sport i enjoy most. But i only enjoy a relax swim. Wont wish to torture myself by swimming to the extend tat i have to suffer frm muscle ache or pant like a dog after e swim.. prefer doing things on my own pace. Swimming also gave me a clear mind.. Nice.... ohhh... yeahh...

went e photo taking w hui. haha took photos of e scenery... lights n ppl.. to an amt of more den 140 photos.. but only 6 were our photos.. hahaha stupid.. went to many places sia.. err.. kranji.. pierce... aiya a lot lar.. lazy to type.. dunno how to spell also.. hehe.. but a pity.. wanted to visit e railway again.. but.. hmmm.. it's a cursed place.. everytime go dere ar... confirm hor.. nth good.. always sth happen.. shit lor.. gives e creeps...

Hahaha... so much for a memo to remind myself.. e one i wrote in Thoughts of life.. haha.. anyways.. shall take a peep at it now.. haha.. ciaoz

Padang padang n padang..

Monday, July 04, 2005

This padang shit is starting to make me feel crappy man.. Esp when i was informed to go down tml(my only off day) this morning.. while i was still lying on my bed.. enjoyin e moments of peacefulness.. staring at e ceiling.. n relaxing my fatigue body like i have control of the time in my hands.. It's a long time since i had this feeling.. after going into army, life's been such routine n bore.. every morn wake up for breakfast, report to work, sleep, n break for lunch blah blah.. BAhhh!!! Enough of dreaming.. anyways.. back to works in Padang.. i've been to padang basically almost every wkdays n sats lei.. can you imagine dat?!?! Den always have to stay in e heaty sauna underneath e stage doing stuff ppl dun see.. haiz.. if only others noe dat we dun have such good time too.. :P

Yesterday was a major corked up man... for every rehearsals.. everything we done for e screen was almost near to perfect... but it just got to cork up when e actual comes.. was at padang as early as 9am. to trial n test out on e engine again to ensure everything's smooth.. so we tried out for a few times.. everything sui sui sia... until e major starts at 7plus.. where all e stars like Kim Ng, Sharon Au, Adrain Pang n Vernetta Lopez 's here.. we just corked up. haha wat e fuck.. n e usual fucker CO's just dere standing at e stage yelling n yelling at what we are doing.. Cant he for a moment use his eyes n see... n just do wat he can do to help den just yelling?!!?! dat's e problem w regulars.. esp officers rank. arghh... couldn care less.. was having more attention to e stars.. haha.. ohh.. chio bus-es.. hahhaha was so close up w/ dem.. All was nice n friendly except Vernetta.. So dao.. kaoz.. as if she's sme super hollywood star.. she cant even be compared to Bollywood man.. so i was waving to her.. trying to catch her attention n she looked at me n looked away.. idiot..!!! i invisible man ar!! kaoz..dun have e courtesy to wave or smile back ar!! So i yelled back at her.. hahah dunno if she heard.. haha.. so unlike Adrain pang.. haha so friendly.. smiled at me.. n gave me e 2 thumbs up action.. hahaha joker lei... After e whole thing's done.. Kim Heng suggested go pub.. haha.. my 1st reaction was.. huh.. not again.. hahhaa.. coz wasnt really into these.. more to kopi tiam lar.. haha.. so dunno whether to go or not.. anyways in e end i didn go lar.. hahaa... only heng, beng n samuel went.. was a bit tired n dun wish to spend so much on these entertainment... just makes me wonder just how rich is kim heng..?!! as to go clubbbing almost every wk like dat.. kaoz..

After going home.. haha..went out w/ hui for a bowling game.. which i scored so badly.. haha long time since i had a game. sigh.. now i'm back to square one again.. loousy.. coz currently suffering
frm muscle sore.. esp my tigh n arm.. hahaha... dunno y.. think i just strained it.. for not doing anything??!?!

Geez.. dun really have much collection on what to write.. Nth much special happened too.. except had sme dispute w/ my family sme days ago over sme car issues.. duhz.. anyways things are much solved now. Haha.. oh yeah.. n my new van's here!! i mean e family van!! yeah yeah.. finally. Hmm.. had my 1st test out on e 1st day e van's here.. which is i dunno when lar.. haha.. anyways.. it's a Toyota Hiace..great horsepower n smooth. E interior's much of a car's. So pretty like it..anyways e 1st try out was short.. only drove ard for sme time.. den asked leen out... to test test too.. haha.. after which had e Parkway Parade western food dere.. haha specially like e western dere.. coz cheap n big serving.. (2.15pm)

(2.58am) e 2nd drive was today.. hehe... i mean yesterday.. aft.. out on 3 plus w/ hui.. to test test. haha.. den vroomm vroom.. wanted to pump in sme diesel.. but after going to e petrol station, den only i found out dat i've no idea where e trap to open e gas was.. hahaa.. stupid.. den only drove off.. to sme quiet nobody place to check it out.. hahahaa. Everything's fine. e whole trip's fine except dat.. sme asshole was just too afraid to drive it.. ahha whicch i later got pretty pissed coz dat's e least i expected.. n e aim for e day was to let him test it out... haha but still he later took over e wheel after much "persuasion". hahaha. Went to e abandoned railway track in Clementi.. man.. it's really a view.. been dere for a few times but nvr really did went up e railway.. was always below it admiring coz it's always dark at night n dat's e only time i can get my vehicle. when everyone's asleep... so was always standing dere so near but yet so far. n today, i finally had e wish done..! yeahh... pretty achieving.. too bad didn have e camera dere.. Missed it sia. After which went to get our dinner.. n went to sme stupid fishing jetty in Kranji.. which i dread not going again.. hgahahah... smelly.. duhz.. so went to e kranji world war 2 park instead. Sat down dere while enjoying e sea breeze n looking at e faraway neighbouring country w/ e city lights.. wow.. wat a sight.. too bad didn have e camera again!!...

Watched Initial D last monday... was a pretty nice show.. Nice stunts n all.. except e male lead.. which sux hell.. his acting really cannot make it lor.. esp e part where he starts e cry.. it looks fucking funny lor.. looks as if he's too happy dat he cried.. dunnno y e fuck e producers chose dat Arse of all ppl.. not good looking nor act well.. he just falls terribly in both of e citeria.. duhz.. anyways.. after e show we went out one night.. for a Initial D run down.. haha.. haha.. at e Neo Tiew rd.. haha.. cool.. nice hairclip turns.. n all.. was for e mood e whole night... it just cant be put to words.. i had e 1st round.. n hui had e 2nd.. though i drove faster at e turns, but hui was still better.. hahaa.. He followed e stunt sia.. in e movies.. haha.. one side of e car tilt to e grass while e other still on e road.. n made e drastic turn.. freaking turned to jelly legs on e co-driver seat.. .. dots...