Memoirs Sanctuary

Depression

2007-08-13T23:30:00.000+08:00

Have you ever thought of committing suicide before? I’m not sure if anyone has ever thought of it and even if they do, they might having some sort of depression. I do give a thought about it every now and then. I’ve always imagine myself jumping from the ledge of a tall building and then hitting the hard concrete. My skull would probably crack, my legs and hands would be twisted in such a way that it’s beyond the limits of anatomical boundaries. To tell truth whenever I give a thought of it, I could actually feel the pain like as if I’m doing it for real. I could come up with many different ways to end my life, like swallowing pills, drinking detergent, burnt myself alive and few other macabre ways. But I know that committing suicide is a sin, well supposedly there is such things as a sin, so I didn’t dare to do it.

So every morning whenever I'm crossing the road, I would hope that an oncoming vehicle would knock me down and hopefully I'll be dead(I'd prefer to die in a quick no hassle death then to choose a slow, torturing and heart wrenching death esp everyone come crying to you when you're already at your deathbed. Pls. dat's the last thing i dun need). Of course for that to happen, I would have to just stand in the middle of the road for about 5secs and wait for the vehicle to knock me down. Still like i said, I wouldn't have the balls to do so. That explains why I'm here. I'm giving my respects to the people who dares to commit suicide and died(ps: trying to bite your tongue isn't considered as commiting suicide. PLEASE hor). I really do. It takes tons of courage to do so. I'm such a loser.

I'm not sure if I'm suffering from depression but it's possible. My angst in me is probably eating me up right now and it's affecting my physical expression too. Strangers who know me for the first time will probably think that I've a don't-bother-me kind of look. Seriously I’m keen to make new friends but because of the way I compose myself, people would think that I’m unfriendly. Which happens a lot anyway.. like i care. I am who I am online or offline and I mean whatever that comes out of my mouth. No hidden agendas. So if you like it, it's good. If you don't, you can jolly well fuck off. Yeah and I don't understand why some people can be so pretentious of their actual thoughts/feelings. It's pathetic.

For those who have no idea of my family tree, here it is. I've 2 elder brothers and 2 parents. Making a family of 5, including yours truly.

My elder brother. He's the kind of brother who would off the fan and close the window while you're still sleeping soundly like a baby. Making you wake up in sweat. And when you tried to screw him, he gave a lousy excuse saying he's trying to save electricity. Because he's currently a freeloader in the family now, he doesnt wake up early for no particular reasons. But he would always make it a point to wake up 5mins after you wake up. and uses the toilet when you are still preparing to get to bathe. TO SHIT!! Making you late for work. I suppose he enjoys torturing my life. That's why whenever he gets me fuming mad that I would imagine at least 5 different ways of killing him.

My second brother. He's currently missing now. Yes MIA. Since 1st August. Making my mother crying everyday. Yes I do console my mum and I do that everyday. So if you can imagine, you're working, your mother calls you and you hear her crying loudly over the phone. Your heart will wrench.. literally. It's unexplainable. Esp when there's nothing you can do. So after work, you would always make a point to rush your way home to accompany your mother. Esp when your eldest brother is uselessly just hiding in his room, being bo chup. Even when your mother tries to commit suicide. He would just BO CHUP. In summary, he's just a block of wood taking up space in the family. You got home and just when you are hoping to get some rest, your mum would come crying to you again. It just never ends. Imagine this cycle repeating for 2wks plus till now. What would you do!??? My patience's running out. How would you feel if your mum tells you that she want's to jump off the building to bring your brother back? Esp when you are the one who would prefer to be the one jumping. Anyway, my point is, no matter how hard i tried to console my mum, a single word from my eldest brother "Shut up", can simply sent my mum to bed. How amazing.. I'm tired. But noone else really understands. Not even the closest friends. Though they gave support, but it doesn't last long enough for me to get through each day.

No updates

2007-07-25T23:10:00.000+08:00

Wah lan eh!!~ Si beh sian.. Skool starts again.. damn sick of studies already.. esp when rushing for assignment deadlines... preparing for exams.. thinking there's nothing worse?! There's no farking any pretty babes in my new semester class!!... How to perk me up during my classes like dat? How how?? You tell me lah.. how? Duhz.

Alright long time since I last blogged. So here are the updates. I'm still kicking alive and i'm the same. Just that. Boring.

Haha.. Well met up w my stewardess friend.. haha.. who actually got e "xim" to buy us(poly friends) fresh donuts from australia and sme food delights.. Buahaha.. BUT HEY!! Don't forget your promise hor... my abercrombie polo~~ I'll be waiting..! Thank you~.. Miss our ol' skool days. Anyways e group of us, met up 2 of the saturdays w events fully packed for the day. Tennis, canoeing, blading, chilling... haha damn shagged but damn shiok!

To xin, congrats!!! I'll be changing my hp number this december. Please do not try to contact me during this period.. cause you might not find me. No reception. Haha... KAOZ!... broke la BROKE!! jkin~

Renewed my contract. With the pathetic salary... Sigh if not for the good colleagues, and good working environment... i would have left.. NOOooo!! No time to be stagnant and too comfortable!! Must get my arse moving!! buck up..! argh... enough of my self discriminating.. life still goes on... with or without me..

Yeah found some tennis kakis.. looking forward to our 1st game. I wan go learn scuba!.. Who's in??

Simpsons here!!! Yeahh.. haha... cant get enough of it!!...... Everybody must support the movie! You wont regret it...!! Dun support simpsons also must support me!! I'm your fucking fellow singaporean!!!

Went to this pub @ Serangoon central. Nice place.. esp when you're seeking a chill out place in the neighbourhood..! Can watch soccer matches even! HAaha.. great place la. Far much better den hanging out w uncles at e kopi tiam rite??? lol... it's a shop house with the ground level as the cafe and 2nd level as the hdb pub.. How cool is tat. With great sofa seats.

Address : Ti Amo @Blk 253 Serangoon Central Dr #01-227 (Just opp e Mac @ serangoon central) ..

Drinks are at net price. Dun worry it's cheap

I'm a INTJ!

2007-05-12T21:35:00.000+08:00

Will be posting up the photos collections I took in my existing life.
Did this free MBTI test before I get stressed over my assignment deadlines again. Damn accurate. Take a peek.

Great careers for INTJs :
Here are just a few popular and often satisfying careers for people whose Personality Type is INTJ.
- Intellectual property attorney
- News analyst
- Design engineer
- Biomedical researcher
- Network integration specialist
- Software developer (accurate!!)
- Psychiatrist
- Cardiologist
- Freelancer writer
- Inventor
- Media planner
- Chief Financial Officer
- Webmaster
- Architect
- Desktop publishing specialist

How to Love an INTJ :
- Be an attentive and respectful listener.
- Appreciate my competency and creativity.
- Give me plenty of privacy and time alone for me to pursue my interests in depth.
- Try not to pressure me to share my feelings before I'm ready.
- Be honest and direct about what you need.
- Above all - respect my independence and need to live my life according to my own standards.

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- cool, formal and independent
- intellectual, logical, and skeptical
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- Appeal to their creativity and innovation
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Bjork Videos

2007-04-15T17:51:00.000+08:00

Check out these videos..
Bizzare to many but it makes some sense to me. Watch it and shall share what i feel at the end of the post.

All is full of love.

Bachelorette

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All is full of love. - Everything has love. Even robots. The main focus is, robots needs different mechanism in order for them to move and react but thier love just comes from within. No input of love is needed.

Bachelorette. - Every person's walk of life is a story and every decision made can affect your life.

Who is it. - You possibly cant think of anything but WTF was she thinking??

Enjoyed!

2007-04-09T20:38:00.000+08:00

Am so buried with my school assignments these few weeks. No time for swimming.. sleeping.. and even shitting!! Phoot..~ wahahaha.. Anyways, finally cleared 2 assignments.. now 1 more to go!!! Yeah.. Cheers!! Time to call for celebration!! Am going to slack until the deadline's nearing.. buahaha. I'm a slacker.. Bite me!

Lets see.. oh yeah look out peeps!! I'm finally a step closer to becoming the next Andre Agassi!!! Now that he's retiring, I'm sure he's waiting for me to replace his throne.. Maria sharapova here i come!! YEAH RITE~ So better come and get my autograph while I still remember you! hahaha. Took up the tennis adult course @ YCK w my 2 bmt buddies. HAha but fyi, we are actually starting from level 1 lah..so pls have some patience with me. Haha..
Damn it's sastifying that I can finally strike off another personal goal i set for myself~.. So happy that I'm actually planning and doing sth to my life then slogging my way to death. Scuba NEXT!!

Had this really nice dinner at Delifrance. Let the photos speak for themselves!

Chicken Lasagna(main dish). <- not bad but nt really fascinating
My dessert @ $2 only!! with any main dish ordered.. nice~ but err i forgot e name.. haha. It's a scoop of vanilla ice cream and a chocolate muffin stuffed with hot chocolate fudge!! and it's oooozing..
OOooo lala~ Mouth watering.......
Sam's $2 dessert! Filled with nata de coco and scoops of ice creams and watever the pink thing is called.

Had merely less than 5 hrs of sleep those last wkdays.. Until Friday(public holiday) finally came, WHAM! I got struck by a bad fever. NBCCB!!!!!! There goes my long wkend!! Feeling sore n sick the whole friday and sat...Fantastic. That's basically how I spent my long wkend.. ARGGHHHH!!! Then came Sun. Had a hangover frm Sat's drinkin session w mr Fuckface(doesnt wish to be named), then spent the rest of the day at Mike's place after i got better. His parents went overseas so he asked me over to chill with him. Yeah we are so GAY... Muacks. It's time for me to feel rich AGAINN!! hahaa.. Went dere, n jumped in for swim for laps... You know why i enjoy swimming in private clubs or condos?? Coz there's no chalky water!! n u never want to know why the public pool's water's so chalky..(mayb sme moronic kids pee-ed or wat's worst, sme sick fark masturbated?!) The condo's pool's so peaceful and still. For a moment, I'm out of the city. After the swim, gaming time... den ordered pizzas and had chunky mushroom soups for our dinner.. Sedap~ then couch budding tv and vcds... ooo so nicely chilled.

2007-03-31T15:36:00.000+08:00

Got this from my friend's.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

To the instructor who's probably peeping this on his laptop

2007-03-29T14:24:00.000+08:00

*BURPPZ*.... greetings to all. Haha. Hope you guys can smell the chicken cutlet probably digesting in my stomach..Yep just had my lunch. Hmm.. haven been updating my blog for a while. No idea what to write also.. hmm... hmm.... Okay, lets start. Am currently on some SAP course and my so called instructor is an indian. P.S. : if you're an indian, pls skip this paragraph. Trust me it's for ur own good. Not that i've some prejudice with these dark color-ed ppl la but words tat come out frm their mouth just sounds so crap dat i cant be bothered to listen. Just like right now.. he's crapping n blabbering sme lame shit that he probably think it's a joke.. but HEY!! it's farking not funny at ALL!!!! and as hard as i might try, i still cant twitch a single cell. Sometimes it's just fascinating how mother earth is capable of tolerating a world filled w such ppl. He's a soso instructor, it's his behaviour i cant tolerate. PRIVACY!! Hello?? You're probably reading this while I'm updating my blog. Please respect my privacy. Many thanks. (saved : 2:24pm 29/03/07)

So cold.. I hope it snows.

2006-12-20T14:55:00.001+08:00

Brrr... weather's so cold now. Downpours everyday the past few days(is there anything wrong with this sentence structure?). Just like waking up this morning, having the cold breeze blowing on my face reminds me of the days in New Zealand. Yeah it's damn cold there. And i luv these kind of weather!! makes me feels so refreshing everyday. though it's toturing to have a tissue stuck to my runny nose 24-hrs, but it's still worth it. Hhahaa.. its so cooling.. nice to cuddle in the bed during these time. It's hibernating season~. That's why my brain's hibernating now.. Hahaha. (i.e in simple english, that's why I'm not working now) Buahahahaa... How to work?! when almost 50% of my colleagues are alrd clearing off?? and hey, my boss's not ard and I've finished my work except documentation... SOooo... w/ all the reasons(or excuses) I provided, I truly deeply think that I well deserved this blogging time of my own. lalalalala~...

Okay, this year's coming to an end soon. Haha time to set my targets and acheivements for the next. lolx. No la I dun usually do that. It's always one step at a time. But now I kinda "predicted" what my next 2years will be. Most probably, if my contract's extended, I'll still stay in Singtel. Nth to complain abt the job, cause it's so damn slow pace. Which is the perfect environment for studies. And also very much I would need the money to pay off my fees. So pretty much stuck-ed. Plus I'm sure my colleagues will miss me if I'm gone.. Buhahahaha.. YEAH RIGHT.. this is the wonder of blogging. You can write abt anything you wish for Ex. "Last saturday I saw Stephanie Sun at Esplanade and she gave me a kiss." See.. it doesn't kill! and it makes me happier lying to myself. So it smehow acts like a theraphy for me. Hhahaaha. To keep me going on, i need more kisses from Steph.. No no. Faye would be better.

Went to Adidas off season sale and Nike warehouse sale. Both at Expo. Blardy lame. Both queued for err.. say 5mins to get into the hall... walked for abt.. 10mins for adidas's and poof! I'm out. The worst has yet to come lor.. Nike's i merely spend 5mins in there.. hahahahaa. tmd.. i'm never going to any expo sale again! NEVER!!! Hahaha. err unless it's sme great deal lar. haha. One of the saturday also went to a Country Club!!! Yeah country club. hahahaa Samuel's.. err to be exact, his mum's. Haha. My 1st visit sia. To those who never gone to 1 b4, : "Want to know what's in a country club?? Curious?? BEG ME LAH..!!" Buahahhaa... Hmmm... actually nth much lah. Hahaha.. just a all facilities club lor. Got gym, pool, tennis, golf.. blah blah blah sports facilities all combine into 1 place. But to be truthful, it's a nice place to relax lor. If i'm rich I'll surely get 1. It's like a mini getaway from the city. Away from the annoying kids. (dun ask me y but i just cant stand kids esp when they are screaming and yelling like nobody's business.. farking irritating)... away from crowds(coz not every tom dick and harry owns a country club membership. like I dont.)..and if you're married, it would be a good place to hide.

Anyways back to me at the country club. Yeah so I went gymming and swimming there. Hahaha. Basically it's like Samuel and I own the pool to ourselves. No one else there except 2 lifeguards. hahha so it's a pretty weird situation. Imagine.. in the pool.. only 2 person.. and 2 lifeguards there looking at the 2 ppl. and it happens so that the 2 ppl are guys?? hahaa... hmmmm.~ I wonder what's going thru the lifeguards mind...(must be thinking farking ccb.. swearing) hahaha esp when we were playing the poolslide. Buahahaha. BUT it's fun.. so dun give a damn. Speaking of which, it's freaky I had a deja vu of the poolslide when i was little. It's exactly how i dreamt of it. a slide w a little landscape and a jacuzzi near the top of the slide.. and I actually have a clear impression of what it. Then the toilet. SOooo NICE! spick and span. then there's osim massage chairs which looks old but damn comfortable, hairdryers.. sauna.. lockers.. free hairwax.. styrilizer(dunno to styrilize wat)... it's just so damn comfy there. Hahaaha.. I wont mind staying there man!

Not long ago finally had our BMT outing. After long long dragging by mr Huiyang and myself. wahahaha so tis time round, kok took the initiative. Nicely done. Everyone turned up. Catch up w each other over kmetres of walks in Vivo and over movie n dinner. Hahhaa surprisingly 2 of e dun look like teacher mates turn out to be primary school teacher. Unpredictable move. hahah. But wah kaoz if u noe dem u will have the same reaction as i do. This kind of face.. i dun think as a parent I'll let him teach my son/daughter lor. hahhaaa..YEah it's just dat bad. Nah I'm not going to state e name. Lets let dem be anonymous A and B. Buahaha.. Other than that, everyone's still as per norm. haha. Ter still e same.. didn get to see his untanned skin.. -_-''.. kok.. as per usual, proud of his $1800 job. hahaha.. ivan, still the malaysian lover.. jun.. hmmm.. same bah.. less flower-y w his gf ard.. and bao.. err didn get to see much hahhaa.. coz he blardy hell fled after e movies. Didn think i missed out anyone bah. Yeah dat's all.

Now for the late-movie critics. Hahaa. I suppose the movie's alrd down when you are reading this. kk.

Deja-vu : hmm.. i like the director's movies. No idea what movies he directed b4 la. but i remembered i like his movies. HAhaa.. nice setting of the stories. Enjoy the way the movie's filmed. If you haven watch the show and you're thinking... it's deja vu... and gonna be sme physchic power.. Nope it's pretty much more than that. What i can say is it keeps me entertained thru out e show. and.. e so called female lead is quite pretty for a black.. =) i give 4 over 5.

flag of our fathers : based on a true story. you will see err... the history of america? Not much of a war show. More like a story telling session. Haha.. hmm.. not bad la. i give 3 over 5.

No brainer post

2006-11-29T16:48:00.000+08:00

The season's changing. Making the weather here even wetter(err can't help but think dat the word "wetter" sounds so porno..issit just me??). Shortly after the assignments, came the exams. Managed to squeeze 1week off my work despite my BUSY schedule for my studies. Though it's really short, and I'm the type who dun revise his work until the exams comes, nevertheless I still have sme tiny whiny confidence to pass 1 of the 2 modules. Buahahaa. Bless me. Amen. Ambithaba.

Oh well, over w the exams. Whistle~ whistle~. It's a busy Nov for me. Really. After the exams, my grandma passed away, dated 14/11 @ 2.43pm(P.S.: go buy 4D if u want. U might just lose ur head). So subsequently, 've to attend the whole wake for 4-5days. Freaking pathetic la. On the day of her death, her daughters chose to attend one of the nephew's wedding over her funeral, leaving only my family for the night. Sme may think dat dey are not at fault. But then who's at fault? My grandma? For choosing the wrong date to die? Or she needs a consent form to do that? What's more ironic is, dey are the ones crying the loudest during the cremation. Absurb huh. Smetimes it's scary how human can be so inhumane compared to beasts though we are considered the most "intelligent" animal. I suppose human lost their humanity and innocence to their greed and self-sastifaction. That's why I always make a point to go overseas at least once a yr, to smewhere peaceful away from this discriminating society. To a place to find back myself before I get to the darker side like Darth Vader.

Yeah..~ received 2 abercrombie polo's from eileen. Hahaa. I will treasure these long travelled polo's! But dunno wat to get for u ar.. So.. maybe.. just my wishes? Afterall it's the thoughts that counts right?? hehe. Err btw, dun think these cheapo oversized polo's are my xmas presents right? hahha. So will be expecting another parcel coming up eh. Buahahaha. 50% kiddin la. take care gal!

I myself did sme ebay shopping for my own reward for this xmas. Hahaha. Got myself a seiko watch @ a mere $40+. But.. dunno if it's authentic anot lei.. Paisay to bring to the watch dealer to check hahahaha..Hmm.. Any watch experts here?? I pay u $1buck.

Watched Intentious-D, hahaha freaking lame n dumb show. I seriously think it suits those rocker wannabe. Possibly Kim Heng? Hahhaaha. HAHaa. dunno y but he just came to the picture e moment i saw e show.. hahaha p.s : KH, if u are reading this, I'm talking abt another Kim Heng la. Another friend of mine at another corner of the world. So ppl, if u are into lame funny jokes, nvr miss this. It's a no brainer show.

Hhaha.. it's finally 5.40pm. Abt time to knock off!! YEAH~ hahaha feels good when my mgr's not ard. I feel so carefree like I'm not wearing anything~ No matter how i turn n flip, I just feel so carefree! hahaha..LAME. Ciaoz.

tis is just an entry.

2006-10-16T00:38:00.000+08:00

alrite, I'm back~ SHHHHH.. quiet down pls. yaya.. stop ur applause n listen to THE MAN speak. WAhahaha.. I'm farking high~ now!.. After wks of restless sleeps, i've finally cleared my course assignments!! HAHAHA... cant be bothered how i'll fair liao, as long as i did my best. YEAH~ *applause* okok. Quiet down PLEASE. Geez.. was rushing to the very last minute of the submission deadline. PHEW! SWEAT man.. wahaha.. but i enjoy the trill n sastifaction though. So no regrets for slacking! Life's SHORT!! So work hard n play hard mah.. haha. Guess what one of my assignments is actually to create a online blog?? so it's naturally understandable dat blogging would be an irritance for me at tat moment?... ahaha so be understanding lor. I"M NOT LAZY!! ahahaa...

Yeah my bdae's over. No biggy. Nth extravagant or wat...ESP e presents!! hahahahaha.. got a watch, bag, 2 tees and handmade breakfast. Nvm guys next yr just give me a air tix to aust can liao.. i dun expect too much. I'm so easily sastified. hehe

watch - simple n nice. Just my taste. Well let's just say I'm not picky. wahaha.. no la.. it's NICE~... though e present came w no surprise, coz i give really really obvious hints. hahahaa but well e gesture to pass me e gift on my bdae eve is nice enough. thanks hui~!
PJB bag - haha. dat's my bdae n farewell gift frm her. wat can i say?? sigh.. all e best gal, leen.!
2 tees - sian.. ahahhhaha. seldom a tee person now dat i've grown up... whahahhahaha MACHIAM~.. but i wan polo la..
special gift - yeah n a special special gift frm mr spaceman~ hehe. SHHHH.....
handmade breakfast - consist of hmebake cookies n tuna bread(my fav)!! but by e time i had them, it had already gone slightly bad. hahaha coz sme stupid idiot just leave it at e door. DUMB. haha. but it's still nice lar.. hahaha. I've to be appreciative! :) .. yeah so touched. u noe who u r~ e bird

so afterall didn celebrate much too. tink i'm too old for these. need smeone special to relight my life.

Sigh.. eileen left for aussie. My best gal buddy. hahaa.. e bitch i would call her. Had known her for.. err.. more den 10yrs?? how could u!!! how could u leave me w/o giving me ur Hi-Fi?? u stupid bitch ahhahahaa... selfish pig.. =p. kidding la. Finally e whole family's migrated to aust. To sme ulu ulu place i didn even remembered. hahahaha... shall ask her again.. but dun tink i will still remember though hahahaha... sigh now i've lesser friends to hang out w/. I'm no life-er couch potato..!! gotta bring sme life to my life~!!

Let's see... shall start with... getting my butt off e cushion, get e remote on my tv desk.... sit back on e cushion n switch on e tv to see if dere's any nice shows.. brb.....hmm.. no shows.. okay back at my pc.. aiya. i'm just plain lazy. and i cant find e right company for dat too. money's e crucial thing.. n also i'm more of a night person.. not dat i lik clubbing n all but i'm just more active during nite.. err n wat activities are dere at nite?? in spore??? nth.. except suppering.. hahahaa tis fully explains y i always get fat easily. ahhahaa

Being e curious me, Finally went to Vivo City today. to take a peep at e widely advert shopping mall for it's entertainment shit. Hahaha.. damn was fucking boring lor. most of e shops are opened alrd.. but just didn like e crowds.. so farking crowded dat i've to queue for abt freaking 5mins just to get out of e mrt station?!?!? den at e mall itself... i'm totally overwhelmed and fascinated by how fertilised singaporeans are.. hahahaha.. so CROWDED!!!... e moment i stepped in e mall, my ears nvr met peace. So all in all, i merely walked for ard 15mins, i finally left dat freaking place. KAOZ.. dunno y sporeans r so kiasu.. suah ku lor.. nvr been to shopping centre meh.. hahahaa.. my next visit shall be few mths later.. when e crowd finally die off. hahaha anyways didn tink anyone would like to travel all e way to harbourfront to shop or catch movie???!

watched Talladega Nights. Nice comedy!! ahahhaa.. so farnie. those lame jokes. good for a laugh if dat's wat u r looking for after a long day of work. Definately recommended. 3.5 stars out of 5. but dun expect too much on it's plot. It's a sweet n short.
also watched Death Note. It's horrible. aahaa. pls do give it a miss. it's horrible if u're a death note anime fan. e story's not complete n err... it's dumb la. to me at least. i give it 2 out of 5.

kk before i end tis entry, let me just say it FEELS GREAT to pee!!! so guys, dun ever hold ur blader.. go PEE to ur max!

It's 2:21am......

2006-08-14T02:02:00.000+08:00

Heyo~.. haha. Miss me right? WAhahaha.. been really tied up with work and studies recently. My work.. lots of assignments has been given. Though the most deadlines are still far ahead... just didn like piling my stress level. I like things done slow n easy.. dun wanna stress myself at the very last moment. Studies also been moving on a fast pace.. assignments are to be handed in by mid aug and i've yet got anytime to even read thru the specifications.. hahahaa.. too busy couch budding. Money... pretty tied up too.. sigh sigh.. no money also 'fan'.. now got money also 'fan'.. 'fan' still not enough money.. geez. Every mth have to give $300 for family allowance n $500 for my studies.. kaoz. i'm still so broke??

Oh happy belated National Day!! Yeah...~ dumb! Cant be bothered abt it at all. Haha the only happy thing to celebrate is i'm given a holiday. Dat's it. Went fireworks watching on the eve.. was splendid.. but not worth me squeezing n ouching in the crowd at all... sigh dunno why so many Singaporeans have so much free time to just squeeze in the crowd just to catch a less den 10mins fireworks??? are the peeps dumb or wat? hahahaha.. P.S: I admit i'm dumb.

Went to e IKEA sales last sat. With all the attracting ad promos on tvs and newspapers, still nth attracted me when i got there. Except for a mouse pad. But I didn get it... coz i have this idea that it's stupid to queue so long just to get a mouse pad. sigh... how stupid am i? Oh yeah we went on Samuel's car. Ahahaha.. e lad finally got approval frm his dad to drive the car. See? it isnt so hard to open ur mouth n ask right? U nvr noe wat the ans would be unless u really tried. That's what i believe. But.. BUT.. i myself smetimes doesnt follow this belief too. Hahahaa... the believer who doesnt believes his belief. After which had our sucky dinner at Clementi n samuel has to return his car. So we head back to get my van. So as expected lar.. e mr materialistic,hui took sam's car instead of joining me in e old van.. sigh. Wo(3) bi(3) shi(4) ni(3) ar!! kns.. CRAP-ass. haha.

Started car washing routine since Johnson got his car. I'll wash my dad's van n he shall wash his car. Though that's pretty far away frm my "each wash our own car" dream.. well the sastifaction of getting ur car go shine n glare is still there. See the glory we have when we look at our washed n looked polished car. DAMN..!! Dun ask me.. It's just an out of the world description. Go try it out! For those who does not have any vehicle, here's a GREAT deal!! feel free to lend frm me. I can let u have a feel of washing for free!!! there's an extra benefit washing cars w ur buddies...time past so much faster.. n u will enjoy the process so much more!! a pity all good times has to come to an end. Sigh.

Just did err..1/4 of one of my module assignments. To be handed up on the 21st Aug. Damn!!.. Must buckup alrd!~ Arghh.. spent my whole Sunday doing tis assignment n i've merely completed 1/4?? and it's alrd 2:19am... work work tml.. stress stress hahahahahaa... *take a deep breathe*..... everything's gonna be fine!

No topics?

2006-07-18T09:43:00.000+08:00

Alrite, I admit. Maybe I'm pretty free now. Haha.. Cause am preparing for the meeting @ 10. 20more mins to go, so lets' hav a break. "Have a Kit-Kat". Am pretty messed up with all the financial terms.. Kaoz. Let's not get into it. Hmm... what shld i write? It's pretty lame when you have nth to write but you just want to write sth? Yeah.. that's the case now. although I've no idea what to write, these words still make up to a paragraph.. Haha.. Hey.. I KNOW!! Lets see how long i can write, without havin any topics.

So the time now is 9.46am and I'm still typing as much as I can. And the more i type, the more I get so egoistic-ly fascinated by how talented I'm in writing. Hmm.. Maybe I can be the next John Grisham(John's Grease Ham). BEHOLD... Peter Steamed Ham... WahahaHA.. K. Shall stop the nonsense. God noes sme headhunter company's reading my blog. Haha.. Dreaming..~

Alrite. So the past few days other den the lame job i'm slowly falling in love with, Johnson finally got his car.. Woohoo~.. And I'm the 1st person to be on his ride. Wahaha.. k la pretty honoured lor.. ... ... .... to put it in the nice way, also becoz we r pathetic singles. Haha. Well.. It's good to be single. IF u hav a bitchy partner. Yeah anyways, we drove ard for a while n I took over the wheel. Haha.. drove only A FEW MINs.. ard 3-4mins. n I returned the wheel.. Haha. wat to do? I hav a bitchy friend... opps. Haha.. So went cruising... smooth ride i would say. Either the car is Good, or the car is good. STRICTLY NO TECHNIQUE's REQUIRED... Hehe.. Bo la.. Johnny's a good driver. Machiam a F1 racer lor.. hehe.. k la. Time's up gtg le. to be continued... ..

Not in any mood.

2006-07-07T01:14:00.000+08:00

Pretty much not in the mood to do anything now. NOT EVEN PORN. Just feel like blurting everything out and seeking the right channel. I'm vexed and jaded. Arghh.. dunno if it's the post overseas feeling or just feeling crappy. Well all i know is it sucks.

Came back frm a 3D2N trip to KL last sunday. In celebration of my new job. So went on a spending spree there in hope to getaway frm the boring city. Bought a Adidas jacket(fake) @ S$17, bum equipment jeans @ S$20+ and a few polos.. Enjoyed high class meals overdere... it's diff lar. When you are overseas, you tend not to bother so much on how much you really spend dere?? You just simply want to empty your pockets by the time you make ur way hme.

Then Monday, my new job. New environment, new colleagues and new job scopes to cover. Been spending 4days now. Getting the stress piled up as tonnes n tonnes of work are introduced to me. Everything's starting frm scratch again. Nth learnt frm poly nor frm my past working experiences. So everyday... ABAP, SAP, ABAP, SAP, ABAP, SAP, arrr...!!! Then just yesterday(thurs) i'm expected to get my CRYSTAL learnt and worked. wow... just when I got started w my ABAP n SAP... , now i have to cease all my focus and concentrate on CRYSTAL... damn. No breath-er Pardon my whining.. but however, I appreciate the learning experience still.. enjoyed it lar.. Haha. Wait till the day cme, when i learnt all the skills, wahahaha... GET PREPARED TO GET MY RESIGNATION LETTER!! Still wanna thanks my ex-manager.. for giving me e chance and for the recommendation. Though you're not reading, thanks yeah FATTY. hehe.

Brought back for reading up. But ended up doing other stuff. Things I thought mayb I shldnt even have initiated..wasted. Afterall, all efforts eventually will come down to zero. I'm wet blanket-ed and disappointed.. Bothered that there's nth i can do to change the situation. Maybe it's better to worry abt my own things done b4 i start bothering abt others. Maybe. Let's just let things be with.

One quote i tot of when I was bathing.. "Talk is free. Action speaks louder". It's not created by me. So of course you would have heard it smewhere but. It just applies to my thoughts. I never trust ppl whom only talk n yet no action seen. Sme ppl may beg to differ. But well, that's my stand. and I'm happy with it.

dunno what title to put

2006-06-27T09:34:00.000+08:00

The time now clocks 9.30am. Britney's not here for work yet(she's supposed to report for work at 8?). Holy crap!! Why am I writing her in my blog..?? Shit. Hey hey.. ppl dun be mistaken okay? She doesn't play a single farking role in my life. And even if she did, she would most probably be the UGLY(must emphasise) pontianak that only has her 5secs of fame. Shit. gotta wash her out of my freaking brain. Crap... lalala..

Yeah finally today's my last day in my dept. Haha not that I hate this job lar. Well I've good colleagues this I wouldnt deny. At least they gave me a farewell lunch yesterday. The only bad point I can think of my current job is only that, I need to handle women as my clients.. and cme on everyone knows that it's not easy handling women? they can be blardy irritating when they want everything to the slightest details and make a big fuss over little stuff(aka colour??). Give me a break.. I've got better things to do. than go thru coloring lessons with you. and the worst thing? They cant be corrected. If you tried, they will think that you are not giving them their respect. .... wth.. you cant ask for respect, you gain them. Anyways, I've a solution to all their crap. PLAY DEAD. that's what my dad do. lolx... Finally, next wk i'm going to learn sth new again.. hahaa.. for updates, will be joinin another team for work haha. w new pay, new benefits and new colleagues.. wahahaha.. this time it's a all chinese grp.. yeahh! no more malays.. or indians(i've nth against indians la.. but just dun understand thier english.. I think they shldn shake their heads too much when talking.. it affects the pronounciation.)

Haha haven been updating for a long time. So bear with it, this is going to be long. hmm.. on the 10th(Sat), went canoeing n blading w my poly click over @ East Coast. Turn out to be pretty fun la though sme idiot(only one) cme with the auntie visit shit. kns.. forever same excuse de lei.. eh miss tan(trying to protect the person's name) next time try to cme up w sth new eh. opps. muahahaha ha.. anyways was a total work out. Releasing all the tension frm work.. oh yeah~.. Had a crappy dinner, talk cork sing song @ one of the pubs and dat sums up the day. Eh no ar... went to find mr hui lor.. who haven had his dinner at 11plus 12??.. haha -_-'' Had a sumptuous supper... bar chor mee, chix wings.. (is dere orh lua? cant remember) @ 85 and satay @ Lua Par Sat. fuck.. no wonder I've been growing inches.. haha..tmd. kana con. lolx.haha kai wan siao

Just last sat went ESCAPE again. haha using the complimentary tix. tis time w hui, his bro and his bro's gf. hahaha... surprisingly had fun leh.. haha. As said, the che shen performed his moves at the Go Cart circuits.. chey.. kids stuff. But che shen(self claimed) and the original che shen never had the chance to have a face to face challenge. lolx.. guess one party was too afraid to face up the challenge.. wahahahhahahahahahaha wahaaamuahahaa.. phew.. anyways didn have too much rides too.. coz the challenging ones are closed for maintainence. chey... wasted. this is wat i like abt blog.. i can write anything.. lolx.. sigh anyways wasted lar... totally no kick lor. muahahaa.. haha still honestly, had this ride(not the inverter). The seats flips 360degrees wah.. damn scary at 1st but.. the kick came when the flipping increases. ahahah.. plus the gila sitting beside me keeps laughing and yelling hahahaa.. makes me higher.. haha. good for releasing stress lei.. hahaha.. all in all had fun.. oh ya b4 i forgot.. the haunted house.. hahaha.. i'm so entertained. haha.. the sick fuck once again had multiple viking rides. SHOWOFF lor.. kns. after the whole sweating n excitement, finally made up our mind to go back hme have a quick wash and out for dinner.. intended to be out exploring the whampoa area but... eh.. hahaaha still went ahead with the double boil... really nice to have sth warm and light after the aftershock?? ordered the usual dishes and soup to come along with... and went down to Chinatown to have this dessert that bryan wong intro-ed. Mango thingy... dunno the english word for it. Hmm.. refreshing yet... and the mango's just nice but... just not chilled enough for me. I like icy chilled desserts.. haha.. the dish just cme right for me to cool off my temper. haaha. alrite. will update again tml.. since I'll be on off haha... most prob will be lazing ard sme corner of the hse..

Keep me chilled.

2006-06-07T14:36:00.000+08:00

Just yesterday night, was chatting with my friend abt backpacking. She's planning a bp(backpacking) trip to Melbourne and asked if I would be interested.. Wah.. god damn of course I'm interested!! For those who noe me well, I'm much more of an explorer than a stick to the butt tourist when it comes to going overseas. BP is actually one of the things that always crossed my mind whenever I'm planning for a trip. But... it's usually the words that do more coz i could never find company!! Haha. None of my friends were game nor crazy enough like me.. Gawd!!! It's a lifetime experience!! You would be able to live to tell a tale to ur grandsons when dey ask for a story. Isnt it much better than staring blank and regretting how plain ur life was? and that now you are old and haggard and weak to even walk? Its so fun~... even if i were to go thru the "Wolf Creek" or "the Hostel" experience, i wouldnt mind too.. at least i made a part of history in the criminal victim files!? *fingers crossed* It's this kind of experience that makes ur life a memorable one! Comparing to those stickin to the butt and slog ur life to death.. GAWWDD!!! Sadly i refused the offer.... geez. The trip was made for this year.. I just couldnt afford the time for the current. Cause I just signed a contract for my new position this July. Cant possibly take 2-3wks off for the BP... sigh.. plus my studies starting soon.. Haiz..

-brb- Britney came haunting me again.. fuck. She strikes again!! This time with her lion king head. lolx.. once again she stood in front of my cubicle staring at me. I tried so hard to not look at her.. but she just never failed to get on my nerves. bitch. merely looked up and she asked for comments on her stupid hair. kaoz. If i knew her better, i would have called the zoo to abduct the bitch back. the lions must have loved her. haaa.. i smiled to acknowledge and went back to work.. but she just goes on n on.. saying how nice she will look on the dance floor when she go clubbing later... Evilthought: yeah right. Bless u dun kana stampede on ur face.... sigh. One thing for sure, i dunno why all her friends aka colleagues are telling her she looked nice. FAKERS. I pity her.

Okay that's it!! I'm setting a 2yrs target~!. Added to my wish list. After my studies which is hopefully 2yrs later, i'm going to BP!! Be it whether there's companion or not.. It shall be it! errr... any taggers?? hee.. for the time being, maybe I'll just settle for a short island getaway trip. Maybe to rawa or redang or tanjong pinang. A time to relax, layback... lie by the beach/sea and enjoy the seabreeze... viewing the sea horizon.. eating deliciously marinated seafood.. awww... now that's heaven~.... Was discussing w Ced e other day hahaa.. but i guess very much it's another talk. No actions done. Hahaaa.. so.. any taggers too?? lolx.. no big companion is needed... but of coz the more the merrier lar... however one to one is cool too.. hahahaa... i "da xiao tong chi"!! Dun be shy ya? I dun bite.

Specially dedicated

2006-05-23T13:47:00.000+08:00

This post is specially dedicated to those who missed me so much and dun dare to tell me or add comments.. muahahaa...esp those who are on study leave huh... wahaha... k lar.. maybe there's sme wishful thinking on the "miss me" part lar.. But hey... feel your heart... deep down and tell me you dont.. If you dont, you wont be here right.. lolx.. BUSTED!! opps...ahaha... dun worry, i wont go whooha abt it.. muahahaa.... yeah right...

Finally resting down after the tonnes of work's been cleared. Same old shit everyday.. clients' request.. users' queries.. program enhancements... kaoz!! I'm really lookin forward to the end of this. Cant stand going to the office everyday knowing that I'm not going to stay long lor... "Wo de xin yi jing bu zai le... Ni liu xia wo de ren ye mei you yong!!" muahahaha machiam.. Direct translation for potatoes.. "My heart is already not here liao.. You keep my man also no use!!"... Sigh...me and my powderful england.. saddening lor. heehee...

Just after lunch, one of my colleague.. or shld i just say "i dun really know you woman" came approaching me.. standing in front of my cubicle... showing off her specs.. didn want to bother abt her de lor... (not because she's no chio bu lar....lolx...opps) But... geez.. k la.. just entertain and byebye lor.. So our conversation started :

Me : "wah new specs ar??"
BritneyAndHerEvilSpecs :"Gucci one wor!! Actually i wanted to buy Dior or Chanel one but the shop dun sell..so disappointing"
moment of silence of 4secs.... .... ....
Me : ".. ..... Oh si meh... aiyo.." acting like i actually care.
BritneyAndHerEvilSpecs turns her head to show me the Big Gucci brand..
Me : "Wah ur Gucci the word so big i can see one.. u no need to purposely turn ur head de..."
Hoping she gets my idea..
BritneyAndHerEvilSpecs : "Big meh... alright mah... i find dat it's not big enough lor... *let out a terrible laugh*"
Me nods head.. feeling terrible after "suaning" failed... and the stupid conversation carries on..

The conversation shortly ended after I tried freaking hard to focus my eyes on my monitor and chanting... hoping that the Britney will be gone... .."be gone!! BE GONE!! You evil spirit!!..." lolx... and she continues to haunt everyone else... muahaha.... Siao za bor. I pity her husband... sigh. Carries on with my work..

Blabbering...

2006-05-04T12:36:00.000+08:00

Yes. Another post here. Although I've nothing on my mind to blog about, I still very much enjoyed the feeling of blabbering my thoughts out. Esp to my blog, who can listen well and not argue/comment all the things that I've said.

Guess I'll be skipping lunch today. Feeding on Subway's chocolate chips cookies..!! Highly recommended by miss Os. So of course I'm damn free now lar since the office left only a few cats.. Went thru most of my past posts... It's obviously noticeable that my posts had changed a lot. From the happy go lucky posts to the dull, self-pity and self-demoralising posts. *Gawd* what e hell happened?? Keeps me pondering for a moment.. ... ... *After a moment*... Ah har! I think i know why. (okay lar i know this is pretty lame.. but trying very hard to make the post lively-er lei... so u better give me some face lor!!) Okay back to the topic. Over these years, thru army and all the blardy unhappy incidents, only yesterday I found out that the person i thought I've matured into is actually sme pussy. Yeah I dun mind admitting that.. not that i've a pussy lar and P.S: dun ever call me that in the public. Haha.. I dun wan any butches or faggots to come screwing my arse!! Of all words, why a pussy?? Err.. coz i'm a guy? and naturally a guy's mind is fulled of pussys... muahahaa... *meow*... talk cork lar. The word just came to me. I followed too strictly to sme of my so called "principles" which i always think is right. Now shut the crap and hear me out.

1. Sharing - frm my point of view, sharing is fine. But overly baring yourself to anyone else is terribly wrong. If i were to bare myself too much to someone, i would require the same baring cause i bared so much and i fear betrayal and i would be defensive and overly sensitive. That's what i believed in the past. The libra's trying to live up to his zodiac to be fair/just.. haha you know what? that's BULLSHIT!! Now, i'll put down my defense shield and bare it all out. What's there to lose? Nothing! So why fear?
2. Honesty - I dunno if i'm right about this. In the past, i'm too honest and true to everyone. *bleahz* thick skin. Yeah i know. That's what my friends liked abt me. At least that's what i think. hehe. I'm being so true that when anyone tries to pull sme stunt on me or i sense untruthfulness, i'll shirk off and get sad in my own corner like a hermit crab wondering and losing sleep over "why he so like dat? why he so like dat? I ask you why he so like dat and u tell me coz he's so like dat..(this is a sing along session)".. smetimes it might even go into the extremes dat my trust for anyone can be lost in a snap! so pussy right. Gawd... Now i know being truthful doesnt necessarily pays off. Blardy hell trust what i've said! You can never be too truthful..however Yes, I'll still be truthful but only on the right things and right people. It's fine to put on a mask once a while.
3. Trust - Dun think i can define this. Cause i cant figure out what it is too. It comes and go easily. I would say that my trust to someone can gradually fade off due to time. I need assurance to keep it "fresh/renew". Simple, if i dun trust smeone, i wont ask him to do anything or request help from him. Trust is sth that works both way bah.. err.. how to say lei.. like it's pointless if you have trust for the person and the person doesnt have trust for you. I reckon that it's a damn extreme thing lar. Either you can trust or you cant. there's no middle class shit.

Would stop at 3 for now. Dun wan to go on and on abt it.. it bores me too. dunno what i'm getting at also. Haha... totally lost. how can life be so complicated? haha.. fuck. Not going into it again.. i'm going out of the moment!!

:)

2006-05-02T08:24:00.000+08:00

Striked off e previous post. It's time to fight back.. Post added at Thoughts of life.

!@#!@$!

2006-05-01T23:31:00.000+08:00

I'm speechless... I really have no idea what's going on in my flooded brain. Lots of questions and scenarios are playing and floating around in my brain. So many that I just would rather choose not to answer it. With the fear of knowing the truth - Escaping. I'm sick and jaded of always running from my troubles and always making my troubles someone's. Even if i made my troubles someone's, i believe that though i've deep buried it in me, the trouble will still come back to haunt me. I dun used to be like this. What happened?!?! Why all the self pity and self doubts??? Why?? Why shld i bother?? Why issit that when i try to be bo chup or nonchalent, i still feel unhappy?? Stupid brain. When i wake up tml, just let me die off and be brain dead. I would be better off so.

A post

2006-04-23T19:24:00.000+08:00

Only myself and my elder bro's hme now. He's still playing his stupid childish Maple game in the room with his laptop. been stucked to his laptop since e time i woke up? Marvellous!! *clap clap* respect how he did it. I would rot if i were to be him. Shldn he be accompanying his gf? Weird libras. Rather spend his wkdays n wkends w his laptop... (after a few secs...) *flash a smile at myself* seems to be talking abt myself. haha GAWD...... Eversince i started work, i've been a couch potato. Would find myself budding on my sofa in front of the tv set frm 7.30pm to 11pm then getting ample sleep for another day of work. I would turn down when my friends asked me out..Sheez... Just would rather go out w a couple of buddies to relax den w sme acquantainces. Totally feeling anti social since edwin's? if dun click i dun wish to force myself. haha. Same goes with my work. Didn feel like talkin n interacting w most of them... call me a weirdo. i dun care. Dunno since when i've adopted tis attitude to life. haha. so would rather smetimes indulge myself in my own world listening to the music when i put on my headphones. am i the only boring person complaining abt my life or what? Shout it out n let me hear you! Haha... comfort me. I'm not sme hardcore gamer who won't mind spending their time playin games thruout their fucking lifes nor sme tv craze maniac who would spend hrs watching sme shit fuck korean/jap/taiwan serials. I need sme adventure.. so inject me with it.. cme on..

Just tis wed went to had my course registered b4 meetin e workaholic who joined me for dinner after his boss forbid him to work OT... haha sai..-_-'' such enthu he got. then met up w/e rest to Devil's. Were dere to celebrate bryan's bdae. Yeah chiong.. si beh sian at first when he suggested that... plus it's a wkday... still gotta work on thurs leiz. Didn wan to go.. haha but still went ahead.. it's a bdae thingy.. just once a yr.. so make e man happy dude. haha all in all surprisingly i enjoyed myself dere, being entertained by getting each other drunk and getting e bdae boy drunk.. haha..it's e whole fun of it.. yeah.. but he's too smart for us. tmd. Saw thru my flawless act. muahahaa.... if you're wondering, yeah i PUKE on my way back hme.. was getting a lift frm ql since he drove. Hhaah.. den "tong" thru e whole trip until i alight at my house.. haha.. wanted to "tong" until e guys left one... but CB..buay tahan liao lar..plus dunno wat e guys are doing so slow... haha n *buuuu-ackkzz...*.. tada.. e end. e whole side effect came acting after reporting to work e next day... was almost late so skipped breakfast, then at work, was dozing off most of the time at my desk and sleeping in e toilet while i was squeezing my shit out. hahah... damn. got my arse dirty.. heehee Didn have e mood for any lunching so settled for m&m's instead. after e long day... decided to get hme quick n get a quick nap b4 waking for dinner n "Da Chang Qing". Went hme, put down my bag n hui called.. kana shocked hahahaha... met up for sme chat b4 he head back hme... at least sth to break thru my routine.

Then fri went for a haircut w hui. @ e usual place. this time e guy gave me a short haircut after i told him i wanted to shorten my back nia. pengz.... hahaa.. but he still noes e best lar. i hope. can only hope it's for e goodness of me. Cant complain much since i was treated with better service den hui hahahaa.... opps. after e haircut wanted a change instead of heading down to the boring stale city. So went hme to get the vehicle n drove out. Made our way to jurong had a big plate of yummylicious prawn mee n popiah.... ohh got super fulled n went down to NTU to get sme stuff frm xl. haha... an awkward moment passed n went for sme working out at e bowling alley.. sai... got a total lost to hui. e sucker must have been training!! haha.. got totally worn out after couple of rounds. felt so useless...so quit on it and left. b4 the bowling uncles who have been dere long b4 we had our game, start chuckling at us. haha. after e fleed, we started whining how age's been catchin up w us... GAWD... 2 guys in their early twenties laughing and discussing abt a topic even e uncle colleagues nvr talk abt.. omg.. it's arent e best senario we can get.. sai.. haha went to labroder park. sat down by e sea and we could always just talk abt everything under the sun.. haha can nvr get bored of it... recalled abt e stuff we laughed and cried abt.. n blah... then down to Yong He for sme mee suah. hahaha... Yummzz.... eating e hot nice mee suah on a raining cold day... just warms our stomach.... yeahh.... now dat i recall, it's getting my hungry again... damn.. arr.... haven had a single meal today yet...!! shall go settle on it and get prepared for couch budding.... ciaoz~ most prob would add a post to my thoughts of life. take a peep!

Smile

2006-04-10T09:44:00.000+08:00

Chalet n crap..

2006-04-03T08:40:00.000+08:00

Monday again!! Getting the monday blues instead feeling perked up for work. Things would be much better if there's sth to look forward to in your everyday work. Don't/Won't you agree with me? Like during school times, I'll look forward to e fun and laughter we shared.. Even during Army days, yes army days, i wouldnt deny the fact dat i too enjoyed myself dere. Though there were tough days but it's a process i wouldnt mind going thru with my friends, hardships we shared n got thru together. I remember there's a word for it... er..... (trying to recall..) ... ya BrotherHood!! yeah... dat's sth dat the woman don't get it... muahaha.. Plus, that's where i befriend lots of good friends and a super good friend?? haha. But the shitty part,...... ...... all were GUYS!!... ...... god. All in all, there would be less of backstabbers and "i fear you might betray/harm me" ppl around.. compared to the working society. It sucks to be in this environment. Maybe it's just my luck. If it is, I'll jolly well make e best out of it by playing along w the game?? or live it my way.

Playing the game: It truly sucks. Cause i know i'm a bad player in this and i hate to play this game.
Live it my way: Leave things as it is and go w e flow..

So what's going on recently. Attended the company annual dinner @ swissotel last last fri. hmm.. to make this short n sweet, i didn win anything. So dere's nth much to talk abt. I didnt win anything but i bullshitted dat i did to a person who's stupid enough to believe e crap. Thanks for e trust! Hehe.. Just a joke eh. so SMILE..~ after e dinner which ended at 11plus12, werent crap enough to stay for the dance.. stupid shit. So went straight to Downtown East. A chalet's awaiting for me.

Caught the last train to Pasir Ris. Alex's cool enough to give me a lift and let me try out his new Chevrolet Aveo... wooo hoo~... haha fun. But it almost died on me. haha. Musst be e car's fault. Too weak. Lolx. Cant believe dat i can be a car god(che shen) in my van and a weakling in e chevrolet mahz. Anyways met up w e rest for supper. Gathered n head down to Changi V. Had dim sums for supper..? lots of dim sums. The guys ordered whole lots of it... n i tot u all are full and not in for supper?? for info only 2/7 were in for supper at first. Haha.. but i appreciated generous gesture and finished my share. Since it's free..~ muahahaha.... But hey.. i'm forcing the food down my throat lor.. i've alreadi got enough of good food @ e dinner. ehheyhey...~ Did sme catching up n oogled sme shemales. It's not hard to see sme familar faces coz hey i was once their regulars dere. Regular ooglers nia.. but not customers..!! haha.. Then alex headed back hme. He wasnt of the mood i suppose. Respected him for dat. Coming down despite having troubles. After little while e grp of us decided to head back to e pig den..until i suggested a walk down Pasir Ris Park. err was it me? dunno lar. *ps: not trying to claim credit here.. muahaha.. Yeah so 6 guys were having the romantic beach walk at Pasir Ris Park. I noe it sounds gay.. but i enjoyed every bit of it. Simply coz i believe everyone of us enjoyed. All singing out loud like nobody's business on the beach. All sang well esp e guy sitting beside me. But i just dun wan him to feel all proud.. so just gave him e... sian look.. muahahaha... but dude, u sing great. Just like to pour cold water to see ur sian 1/2 look. hahahaha... Enjoyed the night scenery dere too. e quiet and peace.. w/ the whisling wind and comforting beach claps.. was dere until 3-4am.. and could only sleep 2-3hrs b4 waking up to prepare for the bbq food e next morning. coz e food preparer didn prepare any food? -_-''.. dots. But i enjoy helping out lar. cause i'm a helpful person w lots of complaints. hahahaa... no la.. coz it's e whole fun of a chalet. it's much better den just paying the money n come here for e food... wait for ppl to bbq for u while u seat down n get fat and den fuck off. It's lame. The whole fun only comes in when u are involved..!! after all e preparation, went to Escape. This time round to overcome my fears.. hahah coz i puked my way thru e other time. Useless. Anyways braced up n went ahead. Too bad.... e few most exciting rides were closed.. leaving e few kiddo rides. Damn.. n rain came soon after. arghh!!.. i'll be back! u cant stop me forever god! muahahah.. crazy shit. okay den we bbq n fuck off e next day. haha abrupt ending. Just too long to talk all long.

Then Sunday totally wasted. Slept n slacked @ hme. Came monday. Followed thru my plans as mentioned in my previous post. Swimming. cold like shit.... coz it's after e rain. But good la.. coz no ppl one. e whole pool's mine!! muahaha... i can do anything i like.... i.e sticking my little finger to the corner of my mouth and laugh... muahahaha.... yeah crazy~ cheers! then blood donation? too lazy to make my way dere. tired. so head down to get groceries n visit edwin's mum. glad everythings getting better. den tried took a few bus to find my way to st 41. hahhaaha... in e end, i took 240. haa. But enjoyed the bus changing. fun lei.. hahhahaa.. exploring in a whole new way~...... dinner's weird.. just weird eating alone.. no fun one. hahaa... blah blah blah got hme. nth much le.

Just last fri, a sudden request of drive out frm mr hui. hahaa. Wasnt expecting. Cause very much stick to my plan for "Da Chang Qing".. lolx.. i'm becoming more n more auntie. oh no!!! hahaa.. anyways agreed since it's been a long time since we last drove out. and missed the feeling too. so went to get my van n met up w him. Usual drive out as b4. But was diff coz been a long time since we last drove out. Both were too busy. Chilled out. did sme catching up. and tmd i almost got talked into smoking. Hahaaa... almost. Just a few more times n i'll give in. When was my last stick? Just e night when a friend passed away. bygones. bahh.. after chilling went squeezing n spraying at e indian's fav hideouts. Mustafa hahahaa.... den to Labroder park. Chatted n chatted n Wham! it's 3plus!! rushed hme.. as usual che shen e 2nd performed his "5mins reach orchard" thingy back hme.. hahaa... n after sending him off.. i performed mine too.. hahahaa... totally impressed by how fast i can drive to defu lane n back hme at such short time. Chey.. dude, it's nth... muahahahaa... try not to sound so impressed next time.. hahahahahaa.... opps. haha. This is my blog.. i write watever i want wahahhaha..... -_-" No lar... u're che shen e 1st. i'm e 2nd... hahaha happy?

Next day woke up for swim w ced. e bastard's super late. Kindda expected. meet me at 9. and he can only reach at 9.45.... -_-".. I've minimal tolerance for lateness. MINIMAL. be it guys or gals. anyways by den... e pool's super packed w kids. Sat's e day for swimming lessons... didn have much to swim.. so i simply soaked myself in e water after few laps while mr ced laid by e pool suntanning w his suntan lotion lolx.... err.. so gay... muahaha.. not only him.. a couple of gay like ppl are doing dat too.. wat sia.. came all e way to e swimming pool just to suntan?? dun understand these ppl.. i rather soak in e water to relax myself... n enjoy e zero gravity feeling den to sacrifice myself under e sun like roasting a pig... pengz. after swim lunch n head down to bugis. watch seeing and temple praying. didn really saw any watch dat i like... sigh disappointed. den made our way to Cathay building. to see if dere's anything special..... entered e building.. was Wao... by e cocktail party like feeling. whr dey welcome ppl with bean sacks to seat on, beers.. and a dj too... but of coz u gotta pay for e drinks... in e building.. nth.. blank. empty. shitless. crap. only a cinema opened at e top level. other den dat... empty.. sian~.... Then decided to take a break at Dome. sat for hrs w a cup of caramel coffee... talk cork sing song... abt e past n present. den oogled at a braless ang mo. who sat just in front of us. She's wearing a tube. n e tube obviously took e shape of her breast.. hahaa... how unsightly! GROSS......hehe.. CRAP.

God this is a very very long post. haha thanks for e time. happy eyes soreing n crap. but i dun care.. muahahhaa... pain all u want. u gotta sacrifice to gain u noe?

A day break

2006-03-27T10:33:00.000+08:00

Yeah.. today's my off day. Time for a break off the routines that i've been sticking to for the past few mths and complete whatever i've promised myself to do. So here's the plan..

1st. A swim over @ tampines. Missed e hmetown. But it just rained.. fuck it.
2nd. blood donation
3rd. be getting sme groceries?? yeah... groceries. Dunno what i was thinking when dat idea just passed thru my mind. Be getting them for edwin's mum over a visit.
4th. dinner out @ jurong? mayb prawn mee?(pending.. dat is if i know the way there by bus)

Simply enough to relive my memories over a day!! Muahaha... let the recharging begins i say!! That's one thing abt me. Living in the past and not in the present. Let's keep my fingers crossed!!

Caught lots of movies and nvr got time to do reviews until now.. too busy ar bo bian.. hahaha so here goes.

1st. Syriana hmm... a chim show i would say.. Coz throughout the show, i'm so focused on the show.. trying to figure out who the characters are and what the hell they are talking abt... just a mess... too complicating for me. But after a friend tried explaining to me... well very much still as blur. I'm too slow for these movies. Guess i'll catch it again. Mayb this time over in my PC? heh heh...
2. Walk the line. hmm... a simple show. by award winning best leading actress Reese Witherspoon! This actress used to act in bimbo roles in Legally Blonde. Amazing how far she got. Johnny Cash... sme old singer i would recall. It's a story abt this guy.. but no idea if it's sme true story or bullshiting. But on the whole it's NEAT if u are a goer for oldies.. I loved Johnny's songs.. d/led the whole album
3. Munich Another award winning movie. dunno wat award lar.. the orscars shit got lots of awards i dunno. anyway wat attracts me is it's by steven spielberg and it's another movie based on true story? what i like abt true life stories are they are inspiring and reflects life.
4. Brokeback mountain. Hahaa.. a gay movie. ahhaha.. The title itself is enough to make it sounds gay. Bareback mountain?? ahhahaa.. anyways caught it w a Missy. Hehe... so it doesnt seems so bad. Sme award winning movie directed by asian director Lee Ann.. woo.. way to go dude!! doing asians proud with sme gay movie... hahaha...
5. Final Destination 3. Downloaded tis. Hahaa... just dun feel like spending any penny on this crap movie. But since i've watched the 1st 2 episodes.. why not the 3rd. It's amazing how a person can get killed with the weirdest events. If these ppl knows dey are dying, why cant dey just locked themselves up??

And my week was...

2006-03-20T12:54:00.000+08:00

Here again! hmm... dunno what to write lei... ... ...... eh...... the end. byebye. muahaha... hmm.. lets do some prediction here. Later got to attend a meeting. As usual would expect it to be a NOMB one.. Go in there sit down like a vase ornament... listen to the rest talking, get a lot of question marks popping out of my head.. get confused over what "the heck are they talking abt??".. finish off the meeting and back to my work. Any thing learnt?? Yeah... a meeting can go on and on with the same topics but nvr really achieve any conclusion. why lei? coz the ppl talk and talk and talk and always get out of the topic and nvr come back...? n even if dey do, it would be reaching the end of the meeting... -_-".. But still, nevertheless i dun mind having meetings everyday.. got free KOPI wor.. haha not bad eh.. den like machiam dey see me up like dat.. ahaha. Machiam only...muahaha... Haha but there's one thing i hate.. it's farking hard to tolerate when i have the sudden urge to fart. I mean what goes in must come out mah... it's so logical. Hahaa.. but luckily i'm always able to tolerate till i reach the toilet cubicle, lock up the cubicle and finally let off the gas... uooo... it's feels great... you know it does!! dun act high class lor.. we are barbarians.

Last week went to have my hair dyed... muahaha.. yeah went back to the attitude hairdresser(ask u guys ar... hairdresser is guy or gal? gal is wat? hairdressee?") who cut my hair so short the other time. haha.. This time to cut and dye my hair.. hehe. Actually always wanted to dye my hair coz i always have the belief that i carry mixed blood of sme caucasian.. haha really lor. That explains why my natural hair colour's not totally black mah.. okay lar i'm still trying to convince myself on that point.. but worth giving it a shot. anyways.. went ahead with they dyeing despite the fear of losing my precious hair and becoming a "di zhong hai" uncle at the age of 25. NOOOO!! it would be a nightmare come true!! I've seen so much examples in my army camp.. LOLX.... ..... opps. lalalala~...BUT i held on to my perserverance to seeking the true me!!.. muahahaa... SIAO~... then after few hrs.. tada!! 2 yandaos are born!! that will of course be.. mr hui and myself..buahahaa... say byebye to mainlander scanzel and hello to ScanZel~(w/ a slang).. Had a sumptuous dinner at MS food court. had 2 plates of horfun and 2 7-inch pizzas. Haha.. idea came frm mr hui who think he can eat n eat n dun get fat.. We shall see abt it.. muahahahaa..... anyways e hor fun totally sucks and the pizzas... errmm.... too tomato for me. Saw waiyee at the restaurant waahh.. long time no see still as pretty wor.. too bad gt bf liao ahahaa... talk a while and walked off... dun wan her bf to get jealous over a angmo talking to his gf and not him.. ahahaa ... muahahaaa...

Then came Sat. Went cycling w mr samuel. actually wanted to change my mind abt it coz tired mah.. but went ahead arbo dat arsehole say i "tua" him again. As per usual met up @ the petrol station near TP and cycled our way down to east coast den Suntec. It's our usual route.. trying to be humble here.. but really no kick ar.. haha. until i had a weird feeling abt my toe... looked down and.. wah sai.. my big toe's bleeding like shit. broke my nail. Not the "oh i broke my nail" girl break nail type.. is the "my nail broke into half and is bleeding"... but honestly didn feel much pain.. but samuel was... disgusted. useless shit. hahaa.. i'm used to being accident prone. frm young till now... geez... still remember when i'm in my pri school.. On my way home.. was walking and saw my friend in her dad car.. waved byebye to her... smile... den "BONG!!" banged my big head into the lamp post... -_-"... dat bitch still can laugh inside e car.. hahaha.. tmd. den dunno how many mths later.. back on the same route back home... walk n walk.. dunno wat i'm thinking ar... i just simply fell into the drain... FUCK!! hahaa.... so lucky...~...

anyways back to my story. After parked our bike, got sme drinks and went to join the massive crowd at the IT show.... aahaa.. CRAP. Didn see anything i want. Things arent dat incredibly cheap also..a total waste of time. then went on to the Hush Puppies warehouse sale.. another waste of time. geez. so empty handed lor. Took a rest and cycled to smewhr near Parklane to have the rumoured to be NICE AND DELICIOUS chicken rice recommended by samuel.... look at my face -_-...... okay mayb the barley drink is nice. Rest a while and it's Home Sweet Home.

Work is nice except one of the day I forgot to zip my pants b4 coming for work. So on the train eyes were on me.. and i thought i looked good. and braced up my chest. ......... until i got to my office and noticed my zipper. Zipped it up.. and my face turned red for no reason.. for the day got to work until 7plus. for sme data backups and reloading of datas... crap even..

Long before Lois Lane came abt...

2006-03-07T13:48:00.000+08:00

New entry in my thoughts of life!!

Just had a light lunch. No much of appetite. Only had wonton mee and 2 servings of papaya..~ ehheyhey(my new laughter derived frm my colleague.. eh dat's how he laughs..pretty "gao nan du" hor).. ehheyhey.. Didn have the mood to start my work yet.. got stuck in solving one of the errors... so here i am again. buahaha.. getting paid for updating my blog.. how cool is dat? ehheyhey..

Team building was on Friday and the whole IS dept was involved, except sme who still need to be ard for duty. Here's how it goes. Met the gang at dhoby ghaut control to walk our way to fort canning park. Yeah walk. Cause i suggested it. ehheyhey.. and I'm the one leading the way cause i bullshited that I noe whr it is... Well I've been to Fort Canning b4.. err..5-6yrs ago..? ehheyhey.. was dere to.. err err... u noe wat lar *grins*. It's a hot spot. Anyways I lost my way(as usual) and lead them a big circle.. to get everyone warm up for the rest of the day mah.. ehheyhey. But no one just seems to understand dat. Sigh.. So we made our way to Legends country club. Yeah my 1st country club.. I'm admit i'm a mainlander.. Got there and had our attendance marked(machiam skool kids... -_-'' kaoz! what's next? need to put my finger on my mouth?) Stupid. and the whole event starts rolling once we were greeted by the presenter/host. It was a total inspiration session. Boring.. He started the whole story by his childhood photos.. err.. okay then went on to his teens, then 20's whr he finally got struck by sme disease which cause him to lose all the muscles in his body. So he was paralysed n crap.. until he recovered and he conquered sme mountain. Honestly, i respect him lar. but the whole irritation part came when he started being so boastful.. talking dat how he's able to do things that even normal ppl like u and me couldn have done.. Sheez.. Then suddenly my colleague's hp rang.. so he politely left the hall to answer it. Then he goes "I dun understand why some ppl just cant not answer their phone. If I could I'd saw e phone off his hand".... err... dat's sme crazy shit man. After the whole crap, finally tea break. We are served with my fav bee hoon~ and springrolls, sandwiches and yeah coffee.. yummyz.. feels great to be served like a king. ~~haha..~~ ehheyhey.. Oh yeah tat's what i called a tea break.. Not e ones i had at comcentre.. just simply tea or coffee.. LAME.

had sme circuit games.. like human tictac toe n blah.. all in all e games are fun and mentally challenging. As for the challenging ones, i leave it to my group members to wreck their brain.. while i just basically stare blank.. ehheyhey.. lets get to the lunch. Lunched at the restaurant dere.. buffet style. Spagetti.. pizzas...fillet..steak.. sashimi.. fruits.. it's the time to get FAT.. thumbs up! exercise can come later. So the day went fast lar.. cant be bothered to explain furthur.. lazy. Fat ppl like dat one.. lazy. So dun blame me. ehheyhey...

Then Saturday. Superman came to my rescue. Paisay to talk abt it. *blush* (#'.'#) ppl shy to talk abt it. All in all thanks Superman!! you're mine HERO~.... *vomit blood* buahaha... still no matter how paisay or how mushy this is, i still gotta speak my mind. Well superman.. nvr really expected you to fly over to rescue me. Am really irritated but also touched by that. Find guilt dat you always comes to rescue me and i nvr had e chance. Give me sme chance lei.. ehheyhey. No matter what, if u superman ever meet any prob, i'll be your batman... gross eh. haha okay e end. Pls proceed to vomit. Thank you.

Mindless blog..

2006-02-27T13:55:00.000+08:00

Thinking of getting away from my work for a while. Letting sme logic flows thru.. Really sick of handling sme difficult ppl.. Esp e ladies.. wow u will be surprised how lor sor dey can get.. damn irritating. actually the guys are as well... Esp when they think that dey are right and just couldn stop for a sec to listen to what you have for them.. So i finally thought of a way to handle these ppl, either you hang up on them and call back to say that the line got cut or you simply yell to their ears... "Farking BITCH!!".. .. BUT tat is of coz if you don't want to keep your job. But me, i still need this pathetic rice bowl.. so.. i take it down my pride... yeah like a MAN!!.. haha.

So my week just goes as per usual, spent my wkdays mourning. Maybe coz i just enjoy doing so. So was gorging and stuffing myself chocolates/ice cream/CNY goodies.. Fills great.. Then came Sat. Went to my colleague's place.. to see her new born baby!! Met w my colleagues and went to meisan's. woo... condo.. haha so i was "wahhh.. look at me... i'm a frog in the well".. been to quite a few condos b4.. but nvr really had e chance to explore and use the facilities.. coz was working... except for a couple of my friends who lives in condo.. *winks* hurhur.. haha.. anyways.. was only eating @ their function room.. until i asked my colleague..

Me : "eh, u guys been to meisan's hse b4?"
Colleague: "yup.. u wan to go ar? haha"
Me : "err.. i dun mind lar"

So somehow i became e person who suggested to go to her house.. wah la.. so i showed myself ard e house since meisan say.. "make it like your own house"... haha.. so i just helped myself lor.. liked their decor.. so Zen.. so was exploring.. n exploring until i cant help but to notice this dark blue ball in the corner of the ceiling.. for those morons who still has no idea wat e hell it is,.... let me tell u.. it's a camera.. and i just sort of blurted out.. "huh how cme u all need a camera here??"... guess it's unappropriate.. haha. well too bad.. wat happened had happened. live with it or forget it.

Sunday.. went for e gathering. Honestly didn enjoy e whole evening e bit. wasnt in e mood to do the "fake smile". But still went ahead. Coz if i dun, i would be expecting stuff like "ask u out, u dun wan to come out..."..crap... but honestly wat can u expect.. so lets not make any expectations ya? life is so much better...! went early to make prayers and get hui's watch re-batt. then met up e rest later on @ PS. all didn change much e bit.. except sme got more hair.. n one got a stupid haircut.. ahahaa... in case u hav no idea, it's samuel.. dunno where he got his haircut.. sheez... then e grp went smoking. in fact only ql's smokes coz samuel quitted.. ahah err.. lets see.. but smehow hui couldn reject e stick n lit it up.. wat a disappointing loser. wanted to blah abt it.. but sheez.. just kept it. i guessed what would happen.. hui would most probably be crapping "he noes what he's doing... and he didn need ppl to tell him wat to do n wat not to... n he's just a social smoker plus ql gave him e stick so "ying chou"...." n all e yeah yeah crap.. in e end, things would probably still remain, like i just farted.. so..... by all means... carry on sucking it.. it's not my life to care. lets not be bothered too..

Freaking me..! (It's true)

2006-02-26T02:51:00.000+08:00

wahla..~

the Romantic
Test finished!

you chose BY - your Enneagram type is FOUR.

"I am unique"

Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.

How to Get Along with Me

Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.
Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.
Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.
Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.
Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!

What I Like About Being a Four

my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level
my ability to establish warm connections with people
admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life
my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor
being unique and being seen as unique by others
having aesthetic sensibilities
being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me

What's Hard About Being a Four

experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair
feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved
feeling guilty when I disappoint people
feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me
expecting too much from myself and life
fearing being abandoned
obsessing over resentments
longing for what I don't have

Fours as Children Often

have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original game s
are very sensitive
feel that they don't fit in
believe they are missing something that other people have
attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.
become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood
feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)

Fours as Parents

help their children become who they really are
support their children's creativity and originality
are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings
are sometimes overly critical or overly protective
are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed
Link: The Quick and Painless ENNEAGRAM Test

My Lost...

2006-02-21T13:19:00.000+08:00

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I wouldnt say that I've been through a lot in my life as I believe there are many other much unfortunates. Now that's sth I really have to keep in mind. Mayb as a consolation?

These few weeks been really tough for me. Having losing 1 of my dearest friends. He passed away. Edwin left the world with his illness but he brought a smile with him.. Although God gave up on him, his will to carry on keeps him going.. It's really a sad moment. Having him gone and leaving his frail aged single mother who stood by him all these years... "How could you....??" I tried asking Edwin.. he simply couldn reply. I held on my tears through the nite. As I gave my word to him that no tears would be shed. No fancy burial/ceremony was given as the family's poor after all the treatments. No relatives came to sent him off even after inviting them. They shun and started to "disown" this relationship they have after the family met crisis. Leaving only his mum and myself to send him off. Started to believe in how pathetic human beings can be.... You may once live as an "angel" with a kind soul or you might be famous but when misfortune falls on you, will there be anyone standing beside you? or even pity you? You might end up pitying yourself..for being silly to carry hopes for the world. Pity..

I took a walk down the beach.. and sat down. Many things went thru my mind... I looked thru my hp... in search for anyone i could talk to... Doubt overcame me. For a moment i lost the trust I have for everyone and didnt think anyone would be free enough to listen. They might be busy with their own stuff.. So gave up e idea. Then, I need a moment to myself.. My mind went blank. For a sec, I believed that my brain is(would) subconciously deleting(delete) all the bad/sad/unwanted memories. That explains why I'm so forgetful....

No longer would have expectations. I wouldn expect anyone to be nice, good or whatever shit. Cause, if i have expectations, i will bound to have disappointment and unhappiness. So why torture myself?

No longer would compromise myself for others.. Why bother to change what I wanted beforehand.. to compromise others... when i know i wouldn like it...is there a need?? Dun think dey would appreciate either...

Why e silliness.... .....

I'm back!!

2006-02-20T00:04:00.000+08:00

Heys ppl, Surprised!!! I'm BaaaccccKKK!!!~. Haha.. Times were hard for me for e past few wks.. it seems like it been years.. Sme private matters.. But smehow, i thought it straight. The world's arent going to stop rotating w/o me.. , everyone's just moving on.. and if i were to just stayed on n dwell on stuff, It's just myself suffering.. What's e point eh...? Just gotta learn to hold on. haha so i'm back.. Well coz this is the place where i can relieve my stress and unhappiness... and i'm glad my friends were dere to support. Thanks ppl!

My last.

2006-02-06T14:22:00.000+08:00

~~This is my last post. This blog will end here. Take care ppl. thanks for e support.~~

My week goes...

2006-01-22T12:10:00.000+08:00

The Sunday i've always been looking forward to's finally here. But in just an hr, it's gone. Farking sian.. AHHH!!! I dun wan go to work.. It sucks. Sucking my life till it's end.. The feeling of waking up every morning and heading to work aimlessly with nothing to look forward to or sme chio bus to ogle at.. just feels so pathetic. Hahaa... seriously if sth can brighten up my day, if only there is.. Working life has been stale.. except one thing. Payday!! yeah..e only thing dat consoles me after working like a dog for a mth.. but i can predict it arent going to last me for e next mth. Sigh.. gotta give my parents a lump sum of $300bucks, this i dun mind lar.. but still gotta treat e gay dinner.. kaoz.. pretty hard to imagine huh.. thick skin fat ass.. hahaa.. plus if i were to buy my long yearned IPod, i dun think i have much left.. . Damn. Then in the end i'll just be working for nth. Shit. Sometime i just wish that if only i can escape from reality and get back to my childhood.. where ppl around you are just plain being ur friends coz you're their friends... If only..

Work been boring lar.. haha.. working at somerset, i was expecting to going out for lunches at places like orchard or heerens or cineleisure.. but nth of wat i expected hahaa... y is it that expectations are always far from reality?? tamade.. spoil my mood only. Hahaa.. nevertheless, i finally got to step out of my office building to partyworld during my lunch time this week.. yeahh!!! hahahahaa.. was damn happy.. haha.. when my kopi kaki asked. Of coz i agreed without thinking.. haha.. so we left for partyworld when time struck lunch time. So we walked n walked all e way dere.. went passed the partyworld, by then i had lots of question marks popping out of my head liao.. so i asked e farker.. and he said "no lar.. hahaha.. i wan go singtel shop buy hp.." and i replied with a "tamade la.. pian wo..!?!?" hahaa.. anyways i bo bian lar.. lan lan suck thumb.. on the bright side, i did stepped into the building same as partyworld.. not bad for a start lar.. hahaa... let's be optimistic ya? haha

Went for a haircut with hui after work. hahaa.. went to the usual hairdresser. hahaa... damn the hairdresser. I think he had a bad mood when i told him i want a shorter haircut(he always say i'm more suitable for longer hair)... haha.. dat's y he gave me this really short haircut. -_-" ..... till today, i still wonder why he asked me in the 1st place. Sigh.. i think it's a professional attitude ar.. noticed that most designers, hairdressers... those dat are more to creative lines.. has this kind attitude.. weird. So this CNY i just had to spend it with this ugly hair. sigh.. me n my stupid mouth. After e haircut, tried shopping for newyr clothes again.. haha.. at suntec. shop shop shop.. still didn see anything dat catches anyone of our eyes.. damn. So we decided to head down to queensway on Sat.

Sat came.. when i left my house for the car, was a sunny hot and humid weather... den i got e car.. drove to get hui.. and head down to queensway, it became a rainy day.. Sme idiot doesn know the way to queensway.. hahaa :P almost forgot e way lar.. but he's lucky. So lucky dat e police officer gave us a "go" when he could fine or charge us for driving in the wrong lane.. haha.until we were reaching queensway, it became sunny.. Pretty hard to find parking lots dere.. coz it's a Sat and i dunno why so many morons like to come IKEA on sat.. as if they are renovating the house every wkends.... so looking for e carpark... den it RAINED again... and shortly after dat, we found e parking lot.. but had a walking distance to queensway so we stayed for a while for the rain to get smaller before getting the umbrella frm e boot? So we got the umbrella and walked romanticly in the rain with it. hahaha... damn queensway been flooded with teens.. and i felt so old there!! ahhaa.. so we carried on shopping.. blah blah blah... after shopping for abt 30-40mins, i finally spotted sth i like.. stepped into e shop and tried it on.. it suits me just find.. but.. cost 40bucks?? fark!!.. the quality was really bad.. with low graded cottons.. and tried to get a bargain but e fat ass wont budge so.. we just walked off e shop.. morons.. still claiming tat it's frm HK. yeah HK pasar malam lar.. 40bucks for a polo?? dat's really ex. rather get it frm nautica. In e end, e both of us just didn see anything we liked.. no shoes no shirts.. just empty handed. hahaaa... e quality of the clothes dere are just not worthy of the price dey offered.

The rain stopped. Went to had a small break at the ABC market.. luv going to the market. got lotsa nice makans dere.. yum yum.. frm the "or lua".. to satay, to "yong tau hu"... dat's finally sth worth the trip. Hahaa... so we ordered "or lua", "chee chong fan" and "qing teng" for the break. haha.. dat's sth good abt coming out with few ppl.. esp when it's just guys. we dun have to consider too much abt what to eat and it just feels great lar.. better den e gals eeking abt e oily food.. or unhealthy making dem fat shit.. ahhaa. the "or lua" and the "chee cheong fan" is a must try dere. the "chee cheong fan" was a discovery made by hui actually.. hahaa he went to order cheng teng.. den saw a queue dere at the "chee cheong fan" and dat it looks nice and started queueing.. hahaa... n ta dar~... a discovery made. all in all.... it was nice.. and i ate it for free.. hehe.. After which we went shopping at northpoint.. coz had e urge for sme jurong delicacies.. so headed dere(and it started raining again when we got dere).. wasnt expecting to get anything frm dere.. until hui stepped into 37degrees and start looking.. the polo's are really nice.. i got one.. n hui got 2. got a cheap offer lar.. hahaa.. so i'm alrite with it. Plus it's a better offer compared to e one at queensway. After which went to had e saliva dripping fried prawn mee.. e tot of it just makes me drool... NOW!!.. yum... shit.. getting late.. gtg.. sleep.. arbo going to sleep at work.. i guess i'll try the "eat breakfast" technique.

3rd post for the day.

2006-01-18T23:02:00.000+08:00

As above. This is also my 100th post for the blog!! haha. Am glad. Anyways nth much to talk abt. Am feeling really tired. Today totalling had 4cups of coffee. Feel so caffine-ated. Just got home, updated my thoughts of life.. gotta go.. to bathe.. and have an early sleep for another working day.. Geez...

Coffee kicks! (mindless post)

2006-01-18T16:06:00.000+08:00

My 1st cup of coffee comes in when i was still in e sexy thigh revealing primary school shorts. When most kids are still sucking on milk, i am already drinking coffee almost every school days. My mum den was working in the night shift so would always make a cup of coffee for herself.. and left me the leftovers. That's when i start luving coffee. Not that i like leftovers lar.. just simply got hooked by the unique taste and what it can do. You know lar.. kids, haha. Always got so facinated by it when it can make me go poopoo whenever i have constipation. And i could simply dye my teeth with it. Just innocently stupid. Haha.. damn stupid. Anyways, e habit stops as soon as my mum stopped her night shift jobs which was in pri5/6. Stopped her work to "take good care" of my studies. Haha. Frm the 9th to 28th position in my class. Haha any explanations?? Does coffee makes one stupid?

Came Sec2 when the coffee kicks got back when i had my 1st geogia coffee in SJAB HQ's vending machine. And yes surprisingly i can remember such bo liao stuff..kaoz. Stupid brain. blah blah blah.... .. .....

Was feeling groggy the whole day. Could merely get 3hrs of sleep.. Had already 2 coffees cups today, excluding the current one which I just got frm the coffee break w my coffee break kaki.. We just couldn get enough of it. I had a problem with sleeping.. and his wife had got a "problem" in letting him sleep.. Hahaa.. So xing fu~.. Ahaha. The addiction costs me. Cost me countless times of visits to the toilet. Haha.. poopoo.. dunno lar.. it's either e coffee or the fisherman's friends or the ricola. So many times tat when i get to the toilet, i cant be bothered to stand and pee.. haha.

Insomnia

2006-01-18T01:26:00.000+08:00

God dammit shit tamade... nnb ccb, fucking piece of asshole. hahaa... Pls forgive me for all the swearing.. The time now is 1.26am?? And i've yet get a minute of sleep.. Just couldn get to sleep.. INSOMNIA!! Fuck it just have to come at the time when I only just started my new job..?!! Making me sleep at my job... PLS boss, i dun mean to...~ I need this bowl of rice, gotta feed my dog, my mouth, my stomach.. and my family.. CRAP.. .. SEE?? These craps and corks just keep flowing in my mind e moment i try shutting my eyes to sleep.... wat e hell.. Think i'm just going to end up missing my sleep le bah.. later still gotta wake up at 6plus.. .. No point sleeping also.. ARGHH...

Rainy cool..~

2006-01-10T23:51:00.000+08:00

It's been raining for days. Cool and relaxing.. I just simply enjoy this feeling esp during holidays(today)!! Where I finally get to sleep late till 1plus. A total of 11hrs of sleep. Pig. Really cant stand working life already, after working e office hrs of 8-6. Total of freaking 9hrs!! Can you imagine that? So of course you can't blame me when sometimes I just couldnt take it that I went to the washroom and lock myself in to take a short nap. Haha. Just a short one. Enough for me to bullshit that I just poo-ed a bomb in it, just in case they asked.. Hehe.. But seriously lah, I'm not the sort that bullshit around my work. I'm a serious worker, very responsible and hardworking. Right boss?? Ahaha.

Went to celebrate Xin's bdae on fri. Just wanted to org a small bdae dinner with a few friends but in the end was forced to go KTV after e dinner by the old bdae auntie. So lan lan suck thumb. Had our dinner at Billy Bombers located at Heeren's coz it's nearest to my place. Damn crappy place. Ordered dunno what crap that comes with the chix and ribs. Man e chix really sucks... tough like rock tat I can kill the chef with it..i seriously give doubt that the chix hasnt got bird flu. Can anyone possibly imagine that I can actually bite the chix until my mouth muscles got so tense tat i almost got a cramp?? If you feel that i'm being exaggerating here, next time try the restaurant with your enemy and ask him/her to bang the chix to your head. Sure your enemy will like it. Then I'll Cheers~ and call for celebration.

Sat went out w/ my gay friend, haha Hui. Gals, pls note he's not gay. Tried shopping for new yr clothes w/o car. So we went Robinsons to see the sale.. but all gals stuff.. tmd... e guys stuff ermm.. nth special really... all e old stocks.. the ones I really want are either too ex or too ex. Cant understand how gals manage to buy things back everytime they go shopping.. Siao. haha. After which went Bugis, then Bras Brasah complex where we had this damn good Ba Chor Mee... with the hot delicious seaweed soup to go with, just nice for the cold rainy weather. Damn shiok.. Came across this couple at the foodcourt where they had 4kids. Haha all guys.. 1elder bro and 3 triplets. Damn.. other then having the tot that the mother is really a sow, i think she really enjoys it. Haha.. esp with the GREAT father around.. wooo hoo~... NOW that's sth. After Bugis, went to Suntec.. did some walking here and there... got tired and sat down for a cup of coffee.. haha to relax and enjoy the cool breeze. And dunno where e hell i came up with the idea to go to Mustafa.. fark.. den travel and walk our way there.. Farking brain.. dunno how i came up with the idea.. and started squeezing our way at the heavily stenched Mustafa. Haha. Went to take a look at the shoes that hui had been aiming for... but was not on display so we tried asking the piece of shit which happen to be the sales assistant abt it.. and he reply came "All display there, if dun have den dun have sell finish" and he carried on with his chitchating with another shit. .. .... .... ....... ... freaking shits with red blood stains. 1st i hate the pigs.. now the shits..sigh. Couldn stand it and got out of the place as fast as we could and had tea break again.. haha to cool off.. talk cork sing song. After much deciding frm yours truly me, haha.. seldom make decisions, we decided to had supper @ kovan. Was expecting the new 24hrs HK Dim Sums.. so went there took a peep at the price and my mind goes "wah so ex ar".. and we stared at each other for a sec.. haha and walked off.. ahahaha... poor single guys with not a penny. Then went to e great Zhi Char store highly recommended.. and had 2plates of hor fun. and ciaoz call it a day. The whole day went home empty handed but haha had fun debating..

Then Sunday slacked home and enjoy the cool rainy weather.. Came Monday, work again... starting to bore me and was lookin forward to Tues e holiday. Then today came.. cheers... woke up late at 1... tot i could relac.com again... but was nagged by my mum to tidy up my room and my study room... ... .... and there goes my holiday... what e hell.

My new blog design

2006-01-08T14:12:00.000+08:00

Ever since this blog started, it has been refurnished for 3 times. Making this time the 4th. Of all, this is finally truly e design i wanted. Sthing plain and nice. And the title, "Memoirs Sanctuary" sounds so cool huh. Well actually this name was came up by my friend. He wanted the credit.. so here goes lor. Got it? haha.. hmm.. nothing to talk abt e design la.. as it could be read on About the design. This time round i started letting my fans and readers have the right to write their comments abt e posts or blog i got... hoping to get feedbacks. haha. but dun expect too much la... coz no time to read also. hahaa.. i been busy w e project dumped to me.

Working day

2006-01-04T13:44:00.000+08:00

Yeah i'm back frm KL~.. haha.. finally after e horrible 3days. Yeah horrible... i was horribly feeding myself to become a pig everyday dere.. haha coz e food are damn cheap and the size dey give are machiam they are free like dat.. just give n give. Shiok ar.. hehe. So horrible rite.. - show off *winks* .. haha. Anyway didn have much time to upload the photos i took.. no time to edit ar. So busy.. ahaha... will upload la.. after eerrmm... after smetime lor... just wait ya?!

Now at my desk. Am after lunch liao... feeling very sleepy.. so decided to do sme typing hehe.. i love the song made by my keyboard... tiak tiak tiak.. den plus can machiam make me look beri hardworking like dat.. hehe.. so busy typing... wahahaha..... n maybe promote me.. ahaha... think too much liao ..

Yesterday was e 1st day of work. haha. which makes today the 2nd and tml the 3rd. and e day after tml the 4th... e day after tml tml is 5th... blah blah blah.. haha. Yesterday woke up damn early.. @ 6.15. Damn shagged coz didn get to sleep until 1plus2? Spend the whole night tossing ard.. just couldn get to sleep.. haha.. not dat i too nervous hor.. get this straight. It's just dat.. e weather's hot.. and and e bed isnt soft... haha.. anyway woke up early.. bathe shit.. den step out of the house and reached the destination before working time by half an hr. So i go shopping @ 7-eleven.. haha till time's up. then report to work at the HR department. Was 1st greeted by a malay lady.. ahha.. STUNNED. haha for fuck tis gal greet me? haha.. until she told me she's 1st day at work.. ahaha... and i told her e same.. ahaha and she gave me this face. -_-" tmd. as if i ordered her to greet me.. stupid malays.. hha.. anyways was brought to the dept shortly. The 1st impression of the office.. KAOZ.. no pretty young ladies..!! Damn sian. I was the youngest in the whole office. It's a big office which categorized into many other small depts. Haha.. messy messy.. only noe my dept. haha.. my colleague brought me ard the office to introduce me to the ppl ard... hhahaa.. fucking no deal.. cant remember a single shit name except my colleague's(the one who brought me ard).. hahaha... luckily i wasnt tested on this.

The women ard in the office are mainly categorized as aunties and ba por.

"the aunties" : whole day babbling abt the sales ard singapore.. "wahh the pillow so cheap ar... eh later go buy lei.. i wan to use my coupon.. just now lunch time many ppl.. we later after work go k?? on ar.." ..One good thing abt dem.. you can get lots of snacks if u hang out w dem.. haha but of coz u gotta share urs too... sadly i dun snack unless it's free hahah.. but one bad point, aunties dangerous.. you nvr noe if dey will betray ur trust for a $10 coupon.

"Ba Por" : nth to say abt dem.. these bitches live up to their names.. hahaa

Minus off e ladies, i'm left w e guys.. haha. dey are e only hope. Minus off e uncles.. errmm.. i seem to have sme generation gap w e uncles. Was talking to this uncle abt this program.. and he can go yakking away to he's a signaller in NS and very tough compared to now.. .. haha but bo bian gotta respect their age. So went lunch w my colleagues frm my dept. Sigh my boss arent ard... was expecting a treat de wor.. hahaah.. but merely went to the canteen at the basement of the building. and got my one and only FREE coffee.. haha but e food dere at e canteen was really cheap.. $1.80 and you can get a big plate of wanton noodles. haha.. got staff discount. hehe.. then dey brought me ard... e building. wooo~ dere's also a recreation club. Free gyming, pooling.. and got jackpot.. ahhaa cool~... haha. and dat settles my lunch time. The whole day at my desk, reading and refreshing my knowledge on the programming lang.. and was given another foreign programming lang to touch on... argghh.. stress. Am taking over a project. sigh. Gonna be headache.

k la.. gtg. back to work..gotta act hardworking ciaoz

God Please Bless me..

2005-12-28T00:06:00.000+08:00

Lalala~... now time just passed 12. And another day has passed but a new one arrived. Currently getting prepared for e KL trip. Haha was just packin e stuff... not much to bring actually.. coz will be leaving lots of space in hope for e goodies i get back to spore. Cheap goodies esp~.. e word CHEAP is very important. Haha.. Pls highlight.. Nervous? Not. Cuz dere's nth much. No chio bus no nth.. just plain guys. Hmm..... err.... haha. Lets see lah.. if e guys just get bored, mayb we can do sme "fishing" by e pubs haha or erm... red colour lighted areas? Haha. Hmm... did i forgot sth to bring..? haha... sme rubbery stuff?? hehe... talk cork la. I'm a pure innocent man okay!! If any of the abover are to happen, you know who to blame... it just gotta be e GUYS!! NOT ME.! What i'm reallly excited.. err.. will be e spas? sth to look forward to. Hopefully it's not EX bah..

Trying not to be pessimistic here. But BUT!! IF I were to meet any MISFORTUNE(touchwood), any kind souls pls help me w this will.. All of my money and assets will go to my mum-90%. My dad-10%. Haha.. and for the kind soul, who's helping me... you can ask my mum or dad or any of my family members even my dog, to pour u a glass of plain water.. hm.. mayb a bit cheappo lar... alrite. Make it cold plain water. COOL w it? Thanks a lot~ :) However, if u are not sastified w e jiang shang , you can go to e 2nd drawer in my bedroom. Dere got many many porn.. go dere take for free. But 1st pls ask my bro for permission.. coz it's not mine. Sorry lar.. coz i dun have mah... ahahahaa.. like real.

Hahaa enough crapping of e holiday shit. Anyway i dun find it funny. So if u do, pls check w ur family doctor to have yourself admitted to the nearest hospital @ hougang. Been working temp jobs for3mths? i could say... But.. i just dun seems to see any savings in my bank! WTF.. Is smeone stealing n using e money i put in e bank? Or did i donate any unecessary money to NKF?? No lei.. sth must be wrong w e way i'm spending money.. Gotta jian tao jian tao... mayb do a list on e things i bought each day on e blog.. to keep a record..? haha.. start w today. Hmm... today went 1st place i spend money on(except transport) is.. lunchtime. 10cents for the toilet. 2.20 for the economic noodles. Then top up my farecard $30. Buy 2 G2000 shirt.. haha Was on discount so just dun wanna missed it. Bought e plain one for $19bucks and a striped one $30? Cant remember ard dere. Then had this coconut for $5.00 coz bought two. Total up to... $86.00.. !!! WAHHHH SEH... i spend so much in a day?!@?! almost $100 buck per day? WTF!!! I must really cut on it man... but lets start after my trip.. hehe.. after my trip, i wont bring my debit card along w me liao.. Only hard cash... no invisible money.. No NO NOO..!! TMD...

No Santa.. Boo Hoo

2005-12-26T02:08:00.000+08:00

There's no Santa tis X'mas! Boo hoo.. This Xmas was a real boring one for me.. Sigh. Nvr like tis occasion. Coz during this season, the whole street would always be so filled w crowds. As if all just been released frm a jail or sme hungry ghost festival? haha. In short, just didn like squeezing n finding my way thru the crowds. Haha but still i can find myself squeezing n finding.. haha. Couldn help it, all the ongoing sales.. haha.. It just hooked my greed and the typical cheapskate singaporean spirit out..

Was out for dinner w xl, ced, alan and sina on fri after work. Sina bought sme wine to the table. haha But i nvr got the chance to taste it. Was tired beat n just gotta rush home after the dinner and the chats.. so fled off. Wasnt feeling well den too. N thru e whole night, just didn go well i would say. Hmm.. just got tis vomitting feeling up my throat and the feeling only fade away as i slowly doze myself to sleep..

Woke up the next aft, e feeling's back.. this time worst, and didn have e appetite for anything. So thruout the day, i simply ate a "cheng teng" and that's it. Well, mayb coz it's e seasons of giving, my crazy bro had tis idea of bringing the whole family out for dinner. Dun blame me for calling him crazy, of coz his idea is good, but.. sth like dis frm him is really rare. yeah it is. Believe me.

Felt better e next day.. haha had a slight diarheao(sp?) and met up w leen n e guys. Had a long chat.. n promised to meet up if time allow us again.. hmm.. dunno. Mayb? maybe not?

tada... by e power of harry potter

2005-12-19T00:58:00.000+08:00

yawnz.. Looking at the clock, it's 1 now. Another day passed by an hr ago. Time really flies.. eh wait.. why the word flies? y not runs or stumbles? haha. crap lar. Anyways, i'm not feeling tired at all coz been sleeping the whole evening hahaa.. damn pig. Nvr did get much sleep the previous nite coz was out till 3plus morn. Plus my bro was snoring his way to sleep despite how hard i tried hitting him w/ my bolster hahaaha.. hit on his face n quickly turned my back to him acting as if i was sleeping. haha den he woke up blur blur see see.. no ppl haha den got big question mark n go back to his snoring.. ARGGHH.. damn it and it got even louder. so better keep my fingers crossed for tonight. or else gonna wake up a panda tml to work.

Got online dunno for what. Coz it's better den watching sme idiotic vampire shows? Dun understand why sme morons just cant get enough of the show. and cant imagine dat tis kind of show actually can survive till it's third season?? wholly crap!! total waste of my time. haha. Went online and looked down the list of ppl online in my msn, got god damn 16ppl online. ahha but i pathetically only talking to a couple. haha. e rest?? just nvr crossed my mind talking to dem. unless dey make e 1st move bah. i paisay de mah haha.. not long ago was in my blk's lift sharing w/ a mother and a son. i guess e son was going overseas for studies or sme crap lar... overheard the mum telling his son. "when you go dere, must noe more ppl, and make more friends. dun just get to noe one or two close friend and you think enough. wait till u bdae dat day all dunno go whr" - direct chinese translation the boy just nodded his head. a sudden thought overcame me upon hearing her words.. hmm.. weird weird. it sounds right but on the same time i disagree w it. what u guys think?

Surprises n surprises just keeps popping as the new yr's approaching. 1st thing 1st... e biggest n best surprise to receive... hui finally quit smoking! haha. sth really glad to hear. Haha in e past always tried talking him out of smoking but always to no avail so this time round was pretty surprised dat he maked tis move. Of course not for anyone but for himself. Dat's good. to quit smoking u just gotta do it for ur own will but not for any words of others. you're e man!! haha. keep it up! for the smokers reading tis.. hahaa gotta learn frm him. a heavy smoker of dunno how many farking yrs lar.. here's e moral support to hui. Keep it up!!

2nd surprise. was for myself. was shortlisted and called up by Singtel for e job i applied. Haha. Pretty shocked when i got e news haha. coz wasnt expecting as was convinced dat dere's more matured n experience applicants who tried of the application compared to me. But couldn care less lar.. was just so happy dat dey shortlisted me. So went for e interview. before it went thru sme interview ques w e help of sme guys.. ahhaa hui(again?? yeah really good tips!) , xl and leen. hahaa e gals did nth but support lar.. but still thank u all although no help was done. and of coz read up sme books on performing in interview. ahah so must thank myself also.. hmm mayb a nano is nice.. ahaaha.. one e interview dat day.. went to work in e morn and back home to groom myself for e interview. haha.. groom until i was almost late n took a cab down. haha. n became e 1st few interviewees to reach haha.. guess left a good impression hor.. hahaha.e whole interview straightened my back.. watched posture n tried very hard not to dig my nose despite e itchiness hahaha.. hahaa machiam gentleman like dat. hahaa... tried to crack a conversation w e interviewees haha to noe their backgrds.. but most so dao one.. only a yes no reply.. chey. haha e interview went well... it came easily on me as i was pretty prepared for e questions. and was able to crack a joke ahahaa... dunno whr it came frm. but just blurt it out. was den given a piece of technical questions dat require me to answer. haha went blank on it. i wasn e bit prepared haha.. haven been touching on e field for 1yr plus? haha. but managed to ans a few. after which went back hme n waited for e reply.. n was called for a follow up interview.. blah blah (*getting tired of recalling) tada~ got e job hahaha... short n sweet.. for more details, kindly call me up to fill u in.. hahahaha... i got free incoming. hehe

a "Bo Liao" post

2005-12-05T11:53:00.000+08:00

Army taught me well..~ haha sth all army guys will get to learn during their 2yrs of NS liability. So guys, guess you all must have known what i'm talking abt.. haha.. if u dun.. u really suck. the lesson Army taught me was... Slacking/"twaning". Yup. Now i'm @ home.. doing as taught while it's still my working hr. ahaha.. tis feeling's really nice.. Not doing anything but get paid. haha. Nah.. just feel so showoff dat i want to tell the whole world dat i'm slacking. Hahaa.. ciaoz~

And So...

2005-12-01T23:31:00.000+08:00

Met up w my err... god-sis?? last wk.. cant remember which day it was...haha. sigh really disappointing sia. Was supposingly to be a grp.. but.. ended up to be just e 2 of us.. haha.. was at bugis n ate pasta mania.. e cheap one.. $4.90 nia... haha.. real cheap so tried it.. BUT!!! it really sucks man.. simply tasteless n no ingredients were added other den pasta.. WTF!!... sigh so ordered a pizza to share.. haha at least sth to fufil our taste buds...

Then wed went back camp to settle sme unfinished business.. gotta go back n find sme morons to sign for my clearance.. So hui sam n me went for lunch @ nyp.. haha.. my old skool... haha. There i realised a shocking truth.. haha.. my skool's food sucks.. hahaa really. No idea which food stall dat i could introduce them to try... I wonder how i spent my 3yrs in dat hospital w/ not a single gourmet... not only dat.. no chio bu also.. kaoz.. not even any guy more charming den me.. ahahaha.... oppsS. Then met up w heng n went to camp to settle e shit... blah blah blah same old shit... n went for a haircut w hui... faced a black sulky lao ban nian face... kaoz.. feel like throwing my tissue(i used to wipe mucus) @ her face sia.. gor her face... haha...

Watched a few movies... Exorcism of Emily Rose... hmm... a real nice show.. Just simply a type of my fav movies... based on a true story w nice story plot n law suits... just go watch lar.. n Harry Potter.. hahaa... i downloaded n watched e previous Harry's shows so i'm arent giving up watching tis episode tis time on screen... haha.. w of coz better sound n visual effects. Nice to once a while try living urself in a world of fantasies...

No idea since when spore channels.. ch8 n U starts talking abt sex.. haha.... was watching abt e sex talks n shows aired yesterday... haha.. real interesting.. esp e LOVE AIRWAY.. hahaa.. so corky.. typical low budget show.. w a stupid female angmo posing ard in her miniskirt n e host... err... a near to bald not slim 30++ guy... hmm..... still although e cast arent great, but e topics are interesting.. haha got to learn quite a lot.. hahah.. abt penile fracture(dey actually showed a pic of it... trust me u wont want to have a penile fracture)... etc...

Recently.. many been calling me up for interviews... Hmm...

David ROCKSS!!!!

2005-11-30T22:44:00.000+08:00

Yeah... David really rocks! I'm not talking abt any tom, dick or harry david... it's David Tao!! Haha.. went to his concert last sat. Man he's really a solid artiste. Unlike most artiste, he cut out all the gimmicks and costumes.. and solely focused on his singing.. yeah... sang a total of 30 plus songs... real nice...~ Haha.. but smehow i guess e concerts seems to be kindda a cheap one lar.. hehe.. Coz dere's really nth fascinating for u to SEE... but.. it's all for your ears.. Frm his latest chinese pop songs to the retro 80's english songs.. how cool is dat... e mood of the audience really starts to bloom when he went singing the retro songs.. in a shot.. non stop.. great. But pardon me.. haha my memory's failing me dat i forgot wat are e songs he sang.. hehe... He too had a short simple story to entertain us while he took a short break. A story abt a tree's ever giving to a boy. Smehow related to how your parents are ever giving to you to whatever you want. They would always try means to compromise. Touching eh.. All i could say is tat, it's worth it! All the money... the squeezing.. e waiting.. and whatever...

Haha am watching Amazing Race while updating this... so you can imagine me racing frm my room to the study room thru n fro during the commercial breaks.. haha. Anyway it's none of your biz lar... Just feel like telling..

Went for a interview this monday. Kewl... it was my 1st formal interview.. as in my 1st permanent job interview.. so was rather nervous.. although i'm an experienced worker.. hehe. Anyways... i did my best... worn e best...n groomed e best for e day.. n man am really great dat it ended... So now.. let's just wait for any results or any follow-ups...

Tululu...~

2005-11-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

tululu...~ It's a ridiculously hot day tonight. Here sitting in front of the pc and i can start sweating like i've ran a few miles. Must be e layers of fats dat's keeping me all warm e whole day. Mayb i'm not suitable for Singapore climate. Time to migrate to a all winter country.. - Antartica!! haha.. Okay enough of bullshitting.. but it's really hot. Think i'm fainting... .. ... ... flashback... inside my head... *i noe its lame.. but pls pardon me n carry on reading.. *

So my days just goes on and on for the working days... nth special really. Yeah and e celebration for alex's bdae. Went to his dinner at cafe cartel after work. Didn chipped in his present.. well i'm not in e grp of the line party u noe.. haha so well might as well forget it. So a few of us bought him a cake. Actually heng bought it... n said dat e cake was big n special... n well IT's really big and ... ..... ermm special? So dinner at cartel just simple. Alex gave us e treat.. Tried to pay but he just refused.. so.. hmm just as he wished lor.. haha let him pay. Sigh my only regret den was dat i never settle for a set course.. sigh. After dinner just went straight home. Dun wish to entertain any longer since e bdae boy's gone too... and gotta wake up for work e next day so bid my farewell.

This few days work's been bugging me n making lose the patience i have for e ppl around me. Can no longer stand ppl who hope to gain any benefits frm me... or asking me to do things which they are just plain lazy to even touch on. Ppl who came sucking on me...like leeches.. or who became too dependant on me. OUT OF MY SIGHT PLS.... friends i dun really wish to entertain any for now since i've been entertaining sme during my work.. So after my work i would only wish to chill out at home or find one or two bosom friends to chill at sme kopitiam. W/o the extend to entertaining dem. My defination of entertaining.. - w/o me entertaining or talking, dere will be silence.. dat's smething i cant stand. N of coz smiling at sth i dun find funny at all... sth LAME so lame dat crows can crow? haha btw what's e sound a crow make? chirp? no rite.. crow??

Went warehouse shopping on Fri after work w/ hui. Saw e ad on Today. 80% off for G2000 n U2 clothings.. hahaha... so i met him after work n went searching for the place.. walked n walked our sweat out... frm aljunied.. to dunno fucking where Sims Shit road lar... n finally gave up haha... n went for our dinner n movies...Mood for sme laughter n childhood.. So picked Sky High. haha.. hmm no comments for the show. But if u are in the mood for sme laughter, go for it. But make it 7bucks. Haha... e story line is so expected. you know lar.. e usual stuff, the good guys always gets to win n live happily ever after. -_-". Had ma la noodles for dinner... so went home n had diarheoa haha... a mini one lar.. cleared my intestines... shiok

e next day got my van n went to e warehouse. haha finally. Never say die spirit... haha... went into e warehouse n i started grabbing watever can fit me.. n slowly take my time to filter sme which i would really buy... hahaha... kiasu hor.. I'm so proud to be a SINGAPOREAN. I've e privilege to be kiasu.. ahhaa.. e stuff are cheap ar...esp e pants. so bought 2 shirts n a pants for my future use.. hopefully if i can get a job. n went searching for other warehouse sales... a sportswear warehouse... w... nth dat interests me.. haha.. cheap stuffs.. chey.. doesnt even worth me lifting a finger... hehe. den we went walking n strolling under e scorching sun @ e flea market. Yeah a nice place for e foreigners to go... it really bring backs many of my childhood memories... toys n stuff dat i used to play w/... pity i cant get any valuable items dere.. den met Samuel who went shopping for his Levis jeans... rich guy.. sigh but he didn get anything haha.. den we all went to e laborder park... n visited carpark A. e carpark i ran away frm e other night.. e creepy windy night.. so went to see what's up front. Quite a view at Singapore History... *yawnzzz* hahaa.. my main aim.. to catch e sea view.. nice... sunset sea view.. n went for dinner at old airport road. Our lucks dere.. so had e famous wanton mee which was highly recommended by hui.. e noodles are very Qu-ee... but not really filling for my big appetite plus e serving's small... blah blah blah... after which watched Tom Yam Goong... hmm a fully action packed movie. Only actions.. e story line.. err.. lame? in search for elephants.. ermm.. haha.. okay. But e actions are nice... except for a flaw... their special effects and computer effects sucks....

If only tml nvr comes...

2005-11-08T23:46:00.000+08:00

Listening to Robbie's new album: Intensive Care.. haha.. meaning i need to have intensive care for his album.. yeah.. Specially like his Make Me Pure and Sin Sin Sin.. e rest.. hmm haven really took much liking to them yet.. but i've always been able to in his previous albums..

Took off today to clear all e stuff back in camp.. all e clearance.. n arms.. SICK stuff. Anyways.. find that i've no longer have patience for all stuff around me. No longer. No idea where it comes frm. Damn harsh. Anyways back to e stuff today... got fed up early in the morning.. when ppl arent replying my msg-es n calls. Get me all hot for nth. Dat's it for e day. 1/2 of the temper up. Just didnt like it at all.. anyways swallowed it down my throat. Gulp.

Blah blah blah.. so this n dat. got my finger bent. It still hurts now. sigh. went to get alex present. NOMB. So... just stepped off n went picking for my own stuff. Stuff dat i would plan to get before i step out to the working society.

Bought a pair of new shoes.. Adidas. Cool looks. Caught my eye e moment i saw it. N set my mind on it. Damn waste of money again. But IT's WORTH IT. Sigh sigh e tot of tml just dun get me looking forward to. Putting on fake faces... like everyone's better. Sucky. Guess it's time to get all alone again. Away frm e whole world.... face sme reality n honesty. If only tml nvr comes..

SHAGGED ME....

2005-11-03T23:20:00.000+08:00

haha.. shag out... haha.. Ermm.. yeah my title a bit obscene. But anyway who cares... Just back frm a run... n a cold bath.. Ohh.. shiok. Haha.. been a long time since i last ran. Damn.. i'm getting more n more fat n useless.. NOooooo!!! I dun want to be a fat blob... like smeone i noe i would wan to call him Bryan Fong. hehe. I'll work hard on tat part.. dun wish to be smething i call someone...

Haha.. well well.. today's a public holiday.. n i'm rotting at home.. i'm damn proud to say dat.. hahaa.. woke up 2pm today.. haha... :P . there's a chinese saying dat i would always support n say.. "Xiu xi shi wei le zou gen chang yuan de lu" ermm.. yeah dat's abt it. to support me to sleep MORE.. haha.. Only got home @ 5plus tis morn. haha was experiencing e holiday spirit in singapore.. Selamat Hari Raya Puasa to all e malay fellows..*cough*pig*cough* lalala~.. mine mine... have been sick since last week.. 1st was fever n flu on tues nite.. den was e sick combo of fever,flu n sorethroat e next day.. haha n almost diagnosed myself as having e chicken shit flu.. hahaa so pop myself a tablet or 2. n went to work. hahaa... ermmm.. after dat.. ermm.. cant really remember liaoz.. haha guess i got better bah. forgot le.

So yesterday e guys wanted to experience e holiday seasons.. so we went to e big big shopping centre... whr you can get e smell of e season.. ahaha... opps anyways.. it's a good experience lor.. hahhaa.. although been dere for lots of time liao.. haha but really it's a enjoyable place to go.. haha e stuff looks so cheap.. ahha machiam a ulta-murt parsar malam.. dat ppl go "cheap cheap" like bird.. hahaa..

After which went to mount faber.. hahaa was in e mood i guess.. for a place quiet n cooling away frm e crowds... but was closed for sme renovation purpose so hui suggested smewhr else.. haha Labrador Park. haha.. nvr heard of e place b4.. hmm...was den hmm.... ermmm.. hahaa... hhaaa.. anyways so we made our way dere.. was nearby anyway.. when we reached.. dere was 2 carparks.. A n B.. n we headed to A since dere's more stuff dere.. sme secret tunnel dat sam saw interest in.. hahah.. parked our car n went on foot.. hahaa.. man.. dere arent a soul dere.. haha.. walked n walked.. till i passed by a gate.. i was e nearest to e gate.. got a ghastly feeling getting up my spine to my hair ends.. n really got me into e bones.. god.. n e guys kept walking so i followed up.. .. ...we walked n walked.. passed by a cafeteria.. empty.. but lights on.. dim lights.. n we walked.. furthur.. ahead was total darkness now... .. .. n i stopped walking.. followed by hui.. hahaa we looked at each other eyes.. hahahaa.. n sam was still walking.. a sudden big cold wind blew on us.. hahaha e leaves on e big trees came flying ard.. ahhaahaa.. hahaa.. damn a bad feeling.. n little rain droplets fell on our face n we ran n ran back to our van.. which was few km frm us.. shit.. hahaha.. n finally felt a relieved when we were at e carpark. e wind suddenly stopped.. n dere was no more rain. my balls grew back hahaha... n we load up e van to carpark B.. hehe... dere's more ppl dere... n e scenery's astonishing.. damn astonishing... a vast sea view.. w cooling breeze.. dere's no place compared... not even East Coast or Pasir Ris park.. or watever shit.. haha it's just a nice place lar.. no complains.. sigh it's late.. wanted to continue more.. haha but late lar.. tml working.. ciaoz

Summary..

2005-10-23T14:51:00.000+08:00

Went back to camp for sme stupid duty signaller shit which was implemented to allow us to clear out off early. So might as well accept the fact and do the duty w all my pride. .. ... haha. and man i lost $50 for dat shit cause hav to take off on tat day. Which was last wed. Had a really shit day i would call. Coz it's a day i saw sme friend's face thru. and was really mad at myself for being blind for such long time. anyways, cant be bothered now. On the bright side, it's better tis way to see smeone's colours before it's too late huh. Mayb just a hi bye acquaintance afterall. Just ironic to judge smeone. But it's my ruler i'm following.

Saw my ex-driving instructor on friday on my way to work when i was on bus25. He too was on his way to work. Haha.. didn want to say hi coz just didn like e feeling of acknowledging smeone and e feeling of e awkwardness. Haha.. but kana spotted n he approached me. Which is good haha coz he still remembers me... Things changed fast.. he already got married and is alreadi a father of a 1yr old. Still remember dat he used to be smeone who nvr really believed in settling down. Sort of a flirt lar.. hahaha i told him dat before straight to his face. We got along really well the first time he taught me driving. And was alreadi able to talk abt personal matters and of coz oggling at gals too.. Always asked me to drive forward to catch up w e pretty gals so tat he can ogle at dem.. n smile to dem... DUHZ.. hahaa.. although all these shit.. but he's really a good instructor.. he noes my weakness n would give patience to dat. Smetimes even gave me free xtra lessons after work.. smetimes lar.. which is only 2 or 3 time.. ... .. better den nth lar. FREE mahz. haha

Den dat day was released off work. @ ard 2plus 3 coz e grp of us finished e site work before planned. So we deserved it..hehe. Our supervisor was generous enough to let us go. So.. haha.. we just gotta listen to his orders dun we... hehe... anyways after e release went to have lunch w samuel as e rest head back home. hahaa.. sme lunch dat i worked really hard for.... coz walked so fucking far for it.. but e stall was closed for lunch.. so... damn it went to have sme stupid hor fun at sme food court...but e lunch sucks lar.. e hor fun seems so expired.. n cost me $4. damn. no way i'm visiting e place again. NEVER!!!!

Yeahh... finally got tao's tix~. But we were too late so didn get really good seats.. But well e price wasnt too good for a good seat too.. so i'm fine w it. haha deserve it lar. Sigh better den not watching mahz. was almost on e verge of dat... but was blessed. Phew.. lucky hui got sme ren xing... hahahaha den watched "Sympathy for lady vengence" . A really nice show... really.. nice plot.. n very.. aiya.. good lar. Nvr expect it to be good coz of e whole lady vengence thing.. which i think it would be love or watever shit.. like sleeping ard.. haha.. but it wasnt. go take a peep.

Boring day....

2005-10-17T23:53:00.000+08:00

Was celebrating Heng's bdae on Sat. Quite a bore. I meant the whole thing. At least for me. As many noe, i dun like clubbing. Nvr did liked e idea. Anyway i agreed to it since I've pushed down a number of their invitations. First we met up at NYDC(orchard) for dinner w heng and his other friends whom i didn bother to spend time talking to.. haha. I would prefer concentrating on my food. Mushy cheesy pasta~ Yummy.. Not tat i'm unfriendly.. just dat didn like talking to ladies.. esp those loudhailer types.. man dey can talk. I wonder how dey talk so much n not drink a sip of water. e guys.. sigh i've seen enough of guys. i did be sick to talk more abt dem. But i'm sunshine enough to give a brief intro n act enthu... in their topics. Err hmm.. cough* cough*.

So everything went cool until dey start unwrapping gifts after their candle blowing session. Man, e 1st present heng unwrapped was ours(hui, samuel, bryan n me). Haha giving us enough face. HAhaa.. in fact it made me go blush. haha coz it's wrapped in newspaper. haha i admit lar.. i wrapped it! Happy? den his friends go wahh... so nicely wrapped ar.. .. haha real sarcastic lor. haha but i didn care lar. It's my way of friends mah.. plus just a guy.. cant expect me to tie a ribbon like dey do.. opps.. haha So didn bother abt their comments..

Den dblO's bored me. For real. It's a saturday. So expected, e crowd would be extremely packed. So dere i was standing at a table constrained in a tiny space enough only for me to stand n turn my body. Damn it.. didn feel like moving e whole night. So stood dere watching sme morons dancing.. hahaa. Guess dat's e only entertaining part.. haha but a bit ex ar.. Then all e sudden.. a urge came up to me. Oh no it's coming out.. oh.. haha finally i've released it.. ahah.. my puke lahz. haha.. n finally moved.. to e toilet to wash up. oh hehe.. hui went w me. hahaha coz he kana also.. hahahaha damn lucky for him.. ahaha. den shortly went back to e small space. But couldn stay longer.. coz all e smoke n music getting me headaches. so went out for sme air.. n blah blah.. puked again.. ahhaaa.. blah blah... puked again... blah blah... finally time to go home. Heng's bro driving. So took a hitch back. hahaha blah blah puked once again.. haha n home sweet home... zzZZzzz.....

starting work

2005-10-11T22:34:00.000+08:00

Just started work tis monday. Haha.. a whole new environment w whole new faces to see n face everyday... haha... nvr liked e feeling though. But it's wat everyone need to go thru huh.. sian. Lucky tis time Samuel's w me hahaa.. got company at least not so sian.. but too bad e company not beri good lar hor.. hahahaha... =p 1st day at work, he alreadi dumped n tried to brainwash me w his negative tots abt e job.. haha.. but of coz i understand where he getting his tots frm lar.. coz i've tot of dem too.. here's wat..

when we reached e working place(i prefer to keep it discreet, u noe lar i've fans out dere)... ermm so.. when we reached e working place, of coz e entrance was a pretty grand one w all e security n blah.... but after dat was... haha.. i would call it not so grand lar.. hehe.. we were then told to wait at e cafeteria for our supervisor to show us ard n so we waited... n waited.. n waited.. n waited.. ... ... .... .... ... .... FINAllY.. haha..after.. dunno how many billion seconds.. smeone not so tall came up to us.. opps..haha so tis n dat lar.. showed us e office.. haha which has little seats... but enough for us to stand ard.. hahaa.... exaggerating huh.. hahaa.. but u just got to see it w ur own eyes!! haha anyways... shortly after e introduction, we were told to wait back at e cafeteria for a short briefing.. which would be given by e supervisor lar.. haha.. dere den after taking a peep at everything, me n samuel sat down for sme serious discussion.. haha. crap lar. anyway nth much to talk abt liao lar.. oh ya one more thing.. we went to hav lunch @ a Sichuan restuarant which was highly recommended by smeone.. err.. haha.. which i would honestly think dat e chef has no tongue to taste his own food.. haha k lar.. hahaa getting very crappy.. so guess i shall end it.. n we work happily ever after....

Haha.. so.. hmm.. watched "The 40 yr old virgin" w hui.. haha.. went to buy e tix at 8plus n all e tix are alreadi selling fast.. kaoz.. 2 time slots were fulled leaving us w 2plus am timeslot.. so we took dat.. KAOZ.. all thanks to e stupid singaporeans dat keep watching movies at wkends dat causes e movie tix to keep increasing n increasing.. MORONS!! haha.. as if i wasnt one of dem.. haha. e worst thing is dey hai be cant get ticket.. ahaha.. so we walk walk lor.. had our dinner, sat down talk cork, walk walk.. talk cork hav desserts.. n done e movies up... Man it's worth e waiting. hahaa.. e show's really damn funny lor.. dat got e tears rolling down.. good 2 thumbs up!! haha.. it's really nice i give it a 4star.. hahaa

btw, added sme posts in e tots of life.. take a look

Irritating head..

2005-10-10T14:37:00.000+08:00

Headaches ar.. .. sigh my frequent headaches are back!! At e time i least wanted it.. like a typhoon like dat.. knn.. every yr end, it will come.. no idea y... arghh!! Anyone could explain my headaches?!?!

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Bdae

2005-10-03T21:30:00.000+08:00

WoooH.. today's alreadi 3rd oct. Sigh.. been 21yrs and 367days old now.. YES!! I've been fucking ard in this world for a total of 8032days!! Fucking shit.. when am i going to finally drop dead w my short legs straighten in e coffin?! or find myself finally in a ash urn?! Sigh.. y am i still walking ard in this world?!... Haha.. doubt me.. if you are asking me all those questions,.. i've only SORRY for u.. unless u come shoving a spade into my ass lar..

Haha.. k lar enough of cursing myself.. hmm.. dun think i'll chat abt my bdae celebrations.. It's too... LONG for me.. haha.. lazy to write lar.. Well.. hmm.. a token of appreciations to my friends dere.. n myself of coz.. haha.. i've got a leather bag(which i liked a lot.. haha it's what i wanted), a pencil case(cant say much of it...i seldom use one :P), a watch(hmm.. a bit too big for my hand.. but it's fashion hor.. i hope), a shirt(just nice for my size) and a TV SET!!! yeahh... hahahaha... recently after my bdae.. most of my wishes has came true..

1. A tv set in my bedroom so dat i can watch porn n play games in it.. hahaa... wat more can i ask for.. i got it
2. a nice bag which i can bring along when workin/studying in e future..
3. a pencil case.. err.. okay lar.. die die must think of sth out to say... hmm...
hmm..... give me 5 mins.. hmm... .... ..... ..... (after 5 mins) ahh!! a pencil
case so dat i can keep my pencils n pens..?? hahhaa... aiyah will use it lar so
dun worry... ppl give one wor.. how can dun accept/appreciate lei..
4. a watch.. err.. e clock face a bit too big for my hand lar... ehh no no.. is my hand too small for e watch lar.. blame me blame me... my bad... i have a small hand.. aiyo.. mayb i shld train more lor.. so dat i can fit nicely w e watch... lolz. lalala..~
5. a shirt.. arr.. a shirt.. hmm... white color not beri good for me lar.. coz of my errmm... hahahah... errmmm... nvm.. but can lor can do lar.. just wear a singlet inside lor... can remedy one no prob

Actually chucking e presents aside, i'd really had lots of fun during these few days.. it's really happy lor.. no other words can replace e word HAppy.. not becoz i've got limited vocab hor.. but it's coz i'm really happy lar.. haha dunno how to explain lar. Really happy coz i'd spend my bdae celebrations w the closest friends ard me.. it's wat i always wanted, just so simple eh.. N i'm glad dat u all forked out e time for me.. hahahaa... n e blah blah blah dat u all would have heard in everyone's bdae celebration haha but i meant it hor.. aiya here goes.. i noe i've nvr been e bestest friend lar.. but i'm not e badest friend also wor.. hahaha.. at least i tried.. hehe.. really glad lar. thanks for e understanding these few yrs..

special thanks to e few.. leen.. bo bian lar.. if nvr thanks her, she sure be mad at me.. hahaha miss ah niao.. hahahaha... hui.. really must thanks lar.. been a really good friend.. bestest!! always able to understand lar.. n thanks for being dere although we always dun think on e same freq lar.. hehe n always teach me how to chao geng! Marc.. thanks for being dere too... n for e listening ear... n miss angie e other miss niao.. erhm.. did i get ur surname rite? hahaha.. jokin ar jokin.. lac lac.. n of coz e rest... too.. ahahaha.. too lazy to write all haha.. plus i think tis blog got limit one wor.. hehe... ... o.. ok lar.. cant write liao.. got limited space.. hhaa.. cya ard!~

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2005-09-21T14:20:00.000+08:00

Yoh yo... haha long time nvr write liao. Erhmm... sorry ar die-hard fans. Received a couple of mails frm you all hopeing tat i can write more.. Hehe.. LIKE REAL... hahaha once in a while dreaming can bring smeone to a happier mood u noe? So haha.. hmm.. dunno what to write leh.. So guess i'll bore u guys w/ my work aftermath..

After my last job.. Which ended last fri.. sigh sigh my colleagues all missed me so much dat dey asked for my msn.. haha.. talk cork lar.. we xchanged msn n contacts lor.. among dem all.. i'm e only NSF haha.. e rest been out of work since last yr!! Horrible sight.. haha dey been working temps here n there... n nvr really could find a perm.. But after meeting me.. haha dey had been receiving perm job interviews.. hahaa... So dey treated me lunch lar.. WTF... haha for e last day @ work.. haha.. but cheappo food lar.. go simi dunno wat seafood restaurant dat i nvr heard b4... nearby our workplace only.. What could i say.. e food... sucks shit.. hahaa.. but bo bian lar.. cheap food.. compared to sme japanese high class restaurant.. hehe... * to whoever it may concern.. see.. i'm so ke lian..

haha.. anyways.. after my tis temp.. life been really stale for me lar.. everyday at home rot n rot n rot.. now wed liao still rotting... like hell sia.. today did sme workout though.. ahahaha helped my mum w sme housework.. mopping the floor lar... cleaning e kitchen lar.. n my fav toilet lar.. haha beware of the TOILET KING!! haahahaa... Not funny.. haha now my toilet clean sia.. no more smell.. haha.. Those who wan cme visit my toilet pls pay $5 per entry.. hehe Eh dun siao siao hor.. in bmt.. i spoil market one ar.. i toilet IC mah... den thruout e company my toilet is e cleanest ar.. n e most entertaining one.. dat u can stay n sleep inside.. hehee... Wahh during den so many ppl frm other platoon come up n visit e toilet.. hahahaa.. lucky dey dunno i toilet IC ar.. arbo sure kana hamtam jialat jialat...

tick tock

2005-09-07T17:14:00.000+08:00

tick tock tick tock tick tock

I'm forced!!

2005-09-07T15:38:00.000+08:00

Haha.. as u all can see... now is working time and i'm freaking free now.. slacking. hahaa.. coz no clients at the moment.. n is munching free chocolates given by the Nihongin.. hahaha.. man dey are feeding me fat.. hahaa.. pretty pretty ladies.. too bad dey are too old for me.. sorry ladies.. hahhaaha... i'm not interested.. sigh. blame on ur luck.. :) lalalaa..~ dunno wat to write leh.. but i got a friend keep asking me to update my blog.. hahaha.. no choice lar.. bo bianz.. wat to do lei.. got such a big fan.. sigh. Blame it on my luck.. hehe.... shit lar.. dunno wat to write sia.. wat to do.. i got such charm.. hehehe.. plus beri beri close friend lei.. haha so die die must write sth out lar... hehe.. hmm... early in the morning.. at 11plus.. go toilet shit.. e toilet beri clean.. n smell nice nice.. n shit out 3 strips of shit.. hahahaa.. i mean 3 loads.. long long one.. n dark... 1 floating n 2 sinking.. haha.. den use their toilet paper.. OMG.. their toilet paper is piece by piece one.. not a roll kind... den cant pull n pull.. sian... boring toilet.. ... :P

Then afternoon.. hmm go eat lunch w a colleague.. eat Chai Fan sian.. dun like eating rice.. but it's e cheapest.. haha.. $2.80 nia.. haha.. den after dat go arcade pa game.. hahhaa... e game difficulty all damn high cheat money.. next time dun go dere play liao.. kns. Puix3! Dishonest ppl.. sigh. hahaha.. den after dat go walk walk.. hahaa damn bo liao.. hahha.. e colleague kept talking abt hahaa.. dunno lar.. frequency wrong sia.. but.. sigh wat to do.. just smile smile lor.. n continue w my walking.. hahahaha... i noe i beri jian to talk behind ppl back. haha.. but i nth to do... *munch munch* hahha.. fatter n fatter..... hmm later dinner sian.. dunno eat wat... sian go buy n eat alone.. sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian

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Expect The Unexpected...

2005-09-03T01:17:00.000+08:00

e Singing blind mice won.. wow!! Congrats.. Yeah yeah.. Anyway pretty obvious i didn like the results of e contest. I mean just being practical here. How long & how far can a blind singer get?? The furthurest okay lar.. mayb the handicapped school.. hehe just kidding. But honestly i dunt think he could be able to survive in the music/media world.. he arent going to be able to take it. He cant sing.. he cries easily.. ErrrAAAHH.. fuck anyways cant be bothered it's none of my business... Not as if i'm getting lesser donations.. haha

Anyways.. yeah just bathe.. haha. Just got home not long ago. Went out w/ my new colleagues today.. quite surprisingly huh.. yeah... anyways not for long was only out for sme games... hmm e guys are alrite lar.. haha shall keep my tots abt dem to myself for e moment.. haha anyways it's e 1st day. too early to make any judgements. Judgements abt my job.. hmm.. basically just doing sme backups n cleaning up of pcs n laptops.. n updating of phones... wat could i say.. dey just have to pay the right salary for the right man.. hehe.. yeah yeah this n dat after the games went to meet marc.. haha lucky he sms me in e aft to ask me out hahaha.. arbo damn low go back home so early on my 1st day of work..wanted to find my friends.. but none.. sigh.. e gals aiyah think must be pa tor.. den guys.. only e few candidates not much to choose hahahaa... :P den he passed me a token of gift as for good luck lar.. hahaa.. thanks. den went dinner lor.. a damn lousy one.. hahaha.. so cheap.. but filling.. but yet not really delicious.. but still i finished my plate.. hahaa strange hor.. hahaaa.. RICE smemore.. lagi jialat.. fucked up man.. hahahha.. lucky i in good mood.. haha got present mah.. ahhahaha.. So ppl, next time if i not happy.. just simply buy me sth cheap lor.. a car or condo also can.. chin cai la.. kang kong also can.. hahaa.. den went to watch THE MAID.... AHHH!!!! hahhaa.. i noe lar... although a bit outdated lar. but bo bianz.. no one wan to watch.. hahaa either is scared or no money.. kns one lar.. say scared watch den watch other ghost movies not scared..puix3! anyways heck dem lar.. haha.. It's nice.. quite scary ar.. for a local film... it's already very good.. haha but still not as scary as The Ring.. dat's e classic. ahha scared e urine out of me sia.. hahaa.. talk cork lar.

Those few days slacking @ home d/l-ed loads of movies.. haha American Pie 1-3, Detriot of Rock City, The NoteBook, Harry Potter 1-3.. hahaha nb... lazy to write any reviews... but ppl, got any good shows to recommend? hahaha.... for me to d/l preferably...

My day goes...

2005-08-30T22:32:00.000+08:00

Bored.. Boreder... boredest... I'm the boredest man living in the world now.. Guess how i spent my day today?! hmm... slacking ard.. @ home.. so much so dat my backbone starts feeling sore.. the sore dat came frm all the slacking n lying ard at home.. DUHZ.. pretty much no life sia. Honestly.. if this life's gonna last for the rest of my CLEARING OFFS n LEAVES period, i'll confirm go mad sia.. no doubt. Let's see.. 1st thing 1st.. woke up in the morning @ 10plus. Couldn force myself to sleep anymore(trying to explain how pathetic i am).. haha.. then walked to the bathroom, wash up n went looking for any breakfast on the dining table. Pathetically nth.. not even a slight dirt or oil stain.. or bread crumbs.. duhz.. so went searching in the fridge.. hmm.. corn flakes w/o milk?! yucks.. err.. chocolate? tempting.. really.. haha but not for breakfast.. last choice? took a bottle of plain water n drink myself to full.. then was planning to go for a swim.. but.. e weather's gloomy.. so dropped e idea.. haha dere goes my workout plan..

Turned on the tv.. nth interesting.. all sme cheap shit china films.. boring.. my life's just cant get any worse.. so turned on my pc n watched "The Notebook" a romance novel i think.. Typical story.. Typical story.. abt a courting couple dat cant be together because of their parents.. duhz.. hahaa.. but simple as e plot may be but the actors were great. They took the show to such touch.. Real nice. Touching n the actress's classy n pretty.. wat more u ask for... So there goes.. time to settle my lunch.. hmm.. Instant noodles... came str8 to my mind.. it's how i've been settling my meals most of e time when no meals cooked... but really got sick of it. So instead took the 1st step out of my house to e nearby kopitiam to settle my meal.. Sat dere for quite sme time.. after i finish my noodles, ordered teh.. n continued my sitting.. n took a glance ard me.. man.. i looked like e ah-pek seating a few tables behind me.. n realise.. it's time to leave.. instead of staying n letting the thought haunt me.. went back home.. turned on the tv again.. still no show... sian. Having thoughts to subscribe SCV sia.. but not worth it lei.. so went back to my pc.. n wondered ard... surfed e net.. n was planning for my trip overseas.. hmm.. n got a haha.. real cheap deal.. lallalaa..~ so lucky....

N finally finally really was so happy dat it's finally 5.30... finally dere's sth on tv... smething dat interest me. haha sme bo liao ch8 show but it beats cheap shit china films... trust me.. it really meant a lot.. ahahaha... den was lying on the sofa until 6.30 where e show ends... NEWS.. hahaha.. so went cooking instant mee.. ahahhaa... save money n taste good.. dere goes how i settled all my meals for e day.. so was sticking my eyes to e rectangular entertaining box until now... haha.... so.. guess dat kindda summarise my day lor.. haha.. although it isnt really summarised lar.. but just take it lar.. anyways u have already finished reading.. just carry on reading this shit lor... it isnt going to take much of ur time is it..? So are u done...? i'm quite tired typing these nonsense.. hmm.. ok.. BYE

2005-08-21T01:54:00.000+08:00

2molo marks my 2 year of NS life. I mean today. N me going for COS duty. Sigh. Sad isnt it. If wasnt for the COS duty, i would have asked my buddies out.. to celebrate our 2year friendships.. Anyways we maked a point to do it later.. Good good. Honestly, funny n ironic to say. I spent most of my NS life in my unit. But the people i know were merely aquaintances i would consider.. none i think would stay in contact after my ORD.. which is 4 mths later.. Cant wait for the day to come. Dunno whether it's either i dunno how to communicate or i'm just plain picky of the friends i make now.. Just find tat masks can be seen frm their faces.. Sme may appear good n nice to you but who noes.. Retard.. Cant man just remain stupid n dumb?! when all u see is just innocence? Instead the people i know frm BMT.. for merely 2mths plus, our bonding would be stronger.

Ging ging... Ving Bing...

2005-08-20T05:13:00.000+08:00

Had a drive out w/ marc today.. wanted sme peace unlike e usual i had. Was at Spore River.. aka Clarke Quay lar.. ahahah sat at e usual place i would always seat w/ my close friends.. dunno why really seems to have the peace i always wanted there... Being able to look afar at the opposite dim lights n the reflection of the lights shone onto the still river just gives me peace. Hahaa... think only my close friends noe where lar.. hahaha... if u dunno go die.. :P

Anyways was there for sme drinks.. took out sme drinks frm our own alcohol corner n sme off the shelves frm 7-11... Seems to have sme thoughts tat i held so tightly on tat i can feel my heart pumping then.. Felt so drought.. drought for smeone to really shake the thing off me.. FUCk.. hahaa. anyways.. was feeling better alreadi.. NOW.. hahah dat's why i'm writing now.. timed 5.37am. haha the both of us were drunk dead on the floor until say 3plus 4 where we regain sme conciousness.. ahhaahaa.. but still damn jialat lar.. fuck almost puked on my dad's van. Cant imagine how my bro n dad would settle me if i were to do just tat!! ahhaha.. Shall try it out one day... hahaha.. Now feeling refreshed!! after a bathe.. n more more puking.. cant type for long.. my eyes are peeping... Sigh really hate to see myself so "duo luo".. hahah arent as if anyone's going to ke lian me.. hahah although i dun need dat.. so wat to do.. just gotta face it myself lor... .... ....

(10.42am.)Earlier yesterday was waiting for the Starhub guy to come to install sme wireless network in my house.. when ql called n asked if i want to go ktv.. if want meet at 1 at serangoon. hahha.. wahh.. the time he called? 11plus 12... duhz.. n i dun like last minute stuff.. still anyways wanted to join dem so much coz been a long time since i last sang too... but.. no choice gotta wait for e guy.. plus the party's arent going to stop w/o me... no one's indispensable wah.. haha.. so rejected. N wanted to join dem later if dey ask.. ahhahaa.. but no one asked ar.. so wat to do... no comments for the army friends.. so stayed home alone until 4. n went out w/ ben n sme of the guys for sme romantic comedy ahahhaa... "Must Love Dogs" dun think anyone would want to watch w/ me ar.. ahaha.. cant think of any also... actually also didn expect dat dey would "qian jiu" me ar.. although i noe their face got "qian bai ge bu yuan yi" but anyways... haha it's a nice show.. hmmm will give 3.5 stars out of 5 bah.. haha.. highly recommended!! if gotta choose, haha i prefer to watch it during the wkdays.. haha CHEAPER lei... yaya... me cheappo fuck lar.. yaya.. yeah... one more thing.. err.. nvm. dat's too private to talk here.... geez.. thinking of making another blog.. dat's really private... must hav password one.. hahahaa... hate it when there's sth in my mind n i cant say it now..

Moving on...

2005-08-19T03:50:00.000+08:00

Now clearing my offs and leaves.. A new beginning's here.. and i'll take my leave. All i need is alone. Anyone frm outside myself just arent needed.

NDP Aftermath..

2005-08-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

NDP's finally over!! Yeah 3xcheers... CHEERS CHEERS CHEEERSS!! haha... The day has finally come for me to clear my leaves and offs... ahhaha... man i'm so damn touched when i talk abt this.. All the shit dat i tolerated for the past 2plus YEARS is finally coming to an end..!!! FUCK it's unbelievable.. Came too soon eh.. hahahha... P.S: for those dat's not clearing yet... n have a long way to go... sorry ar.. i dun mean to suan u guys.. But.. it's the truth.. so wat to do?? FACE it bah... waahahaha..... awww... ur day will come dun worry.. Cant even taste it eh... ITs OKAY...

HAhahaa.. man i just love doing that... ahha..HAte me if u want. haha. Anyways.. day's after NDP's not arent going to be smoooth... for as long as i still have duties to do.. Kwah.. damn shitty.. As promised, we were granted offs after NDP frm 10/8 till 14/8.. yeah n was pretty much looking forward to the long break.. after NDP. It's a long time since i had a break. But it just didnt come to me.. We were told to go back camp by BSO on the 10th.. to settle our comms.. DUHzz.... .... ....... it just came on the right time eh... fuck. Just have to do it. So we went back camp on the 9th early in the morn... the stage crew was dere... as expected mah.. coz we were in charge of all the comms stuff frm the start of preparation for NDP.. but wat wasnt within my expectation was the taupoline signallers were called down too... Err... "THERE's NTH TO DO w/ THEM??" hahaha... man it's just shit right. But as expected of BSO.. he sure say.. "well we are all signallers mah.. no need to seperate until so qing chu.." hahaa.. so guess nobody dare to talk abt dat eh... anyways.. worked till late aft. But our work arent done yet.. Just too messy under poor leadership.. hahaa... everything's a mess.

So bso wanted 2 guys to go back to camp on the next day... meaning 2 guys will be arrowed lor... so i volunteered myself!!! ahhhaa.... yeah coz i'm the COS(it's XUNWEI's duty... haha.. but i owed him n he told me to do back for him.. so dere goes...) for the next day.. ahahha.. i'm not so wei da.. ahhahaa.. sorry for any disappointment caused.. hehehe.... but dunno how lar.. in the end... everyone frm stage crew came back... except XUNWEI( he wasnt told to come back.. n didn bother to ask so in return, he's awarded a RP duty on friday.. KEWL). Anyways.. everyone's back to camp to acc me w/ my COS... ahahah.. but was gone after lunch. Anyways.. had a great COS.. Encik gave me the keys to the spec mess.. hahaha.. so me n weng went to the spec mess thru e side door... meaning noone else but e 2 of us know e spec mess's opened.. hahaa.. so we RULEZ!!! ahaha.. did a hell of secret activities lar.. haha which i dun think i shld say hehee.... so dat sort of summarised my COS duty.. simply eat sleep... do parade state n go spec mess... hahahaa... w/ no one to supervise me. hahaa coz e BOS was Sgt Roy... ahhaaha Ren Shi de lar... hahaha.. so Chin Cai lor...

Went to cut hair the very next day w/ hui... after which went for a blood donation. Was dere mah.. then anyways not rushing for time.. so why not... hahahaa.. anyways it wasnt my 1st.. but was hui's.. hehe... hahahaa.. made a joke sia.. hahaha.. k lar dun suan him lar... Wait buay tahan sia.. hehe.. had a great time ar...

then saturday spent the whole day organising my stuff.. n packing them... lots n lots to pack sia.. threw all the old stuff dat's gonna bring me bad memories n kept e good ones... went to developed all the photos i wanted to keep b4 formatted my PC coz kana sme spyware which i cant solve.. even trying doing sme system restore.. haha... after which went Seletar.. to enjoy e silent breeze blowing on my face.. just simply enjoy the feeling...

Went east coast today.. hahaa.. was dere lar.. doing nth.. just enjoying e scenery.. but was spoilt by sme malay pigs.. man.. dey are just everywhere huh... darn.. den to PP.. ahaha kinda attached to tat place.. coz my dad was always dere to repair the aircondition of a cake shop which was on e basement.. but now's gone... so was always dere.. the whole family... my mum would always bring us down to PP... by bus whenever my dad was dere... She would leave the 3 of us(me n my 2 bros) at e arcade while she waited at e cake shop for my dad.. u noe.. hahahaa... those were e days... so kind of have feeling lor... but we're moving on.. how nice it would be if i could turn back the hands of time...

Go go NDP!!

2005-08-08T19:29:00.000+08:00

Finally.. last day to NDP!! yeah.. 3 cheers... CHEERS!! CHEERS!! CHEERS!! ahaha... k lar i'm trying to be funny here.. cme on.. give me sme face.. funny right... ahahahahha... yeah i tot so... hahahah haha haaa... recently i've seem to have finally got things tot out.. stuff dat usually bothers me.. seems like passing traffic(cant find a better "bi yu") i see now.. haha.. in a simpler way, it's just a passing tot now.. no longer stands for anything now...

No idea. No idea dat if it's me dat totally lost faith in those stuff or i just thought of a better way to think it of... hope for the latter of course.. My dad's been disappointing me... as always.. ahah.. anyway kinda gave up.. but.. dudes, his still my dad.. my mum's husband.. no way my mum will want me to treat him in any form of disrespect.. she just feel hurt to see us in e way.. especially when she's sick for these few days, dun wish to let anything to upset her more.. so wat now?? Just try to avoid him haha.. as long as the time permits.. yeah sme might think it's a form of escaping.. but.. honestly?! who would want to escape if they could have got the matter solved earlier..?? i tried..

Things i see almost everyday.. haha.. no longer bothered abt it.. Sme lesson learnt.. well smetimes u just gotta mind ur own nose.. n be careful not to meddle with others business.. Sure dey will get things sort out if dey see any probs.. Right? yeah hope so.. so i just gotta be careful of my big nose i have lor.. try not to care if i dun have to.. haha.. Just a face of errr... "blank face" is enough at least for now..

National day.. yeah back to it.. hmm.. nth much i benefit frm it.. except for the Pizza huts n KFC i pack-ed home.. hahhaa... lots n lots of it... but honestly, it's starting to upset my stomach.. the smell of KFC.. n pizzas.. eeeel~.... gives me shivers when i think abt it.. it just makes me full..

Recently caught.. The Island.. Pretty nice nice show!!! yeah highly recommended.. I like the actions n the feel of futuristic stuff.. hahaa.. n of coz e chio bu.. hehe.. nice~.... n caught.. Seven Swords today.. ahha.. actually didn really want to spend $8 on dat movie.. coz it's CHINESE?? n chinese movies will be shown on tv very soon... haha.. anyways tagged along w e rest lar.. no choice.. haha dun wish to do any thinking either... n dere's no show alreadi.. since SHAUN had watched Wedding Crasher.. n the horror movies are late at night.. oh ya abt the movie.. hmm.. alrite lar.. lots of actions too.. by Tsu Ke... kinda expected wat movies dat comes out frm him.. Same old stuff.. not bad for a $7 movie.. after which.. everyone went home.. haha.. all got home cooked food... -_-'" while i have to starve myself.. haha.. still haven eat yet.. smetimes it's just nice to have home cooked food isnt it.. dunno since.. a long time i had it.. err.. was last last wk? :) hahaha... lalalala...~ but one mystery remains.. hahaa.. how cme i still so fat?!? hhahaa... must be the KFCs!!! n the singaporeans!!! all their KIASUISM dat hai me

Sort sort..

2005-08-01T21:05:00.000+08:00

Had a long day today.. Frm early morn, woke up at 10+, den went for a jog as i promised myself... hahaa.. been a long time since my last jog.. been so busy.. ahhahaah.. yeah pretty obvious i'm finding excuses eh.. after which went to buy newspaper n went back hme.. flipped e papers.. for jobs.. hahaa.. just updating myself.. which jobs are more in demand now.. n update myself abt e news happening ard me.. den on e PC n work on e new layout of my blog.. hahaa.. hmm.. still unsure which layout to work on.. damn.. daat's e main problem w my horoscope!! hehe.. blame everything but myself ... den went to take a nap... hahahaa lagi good life eh...

but it arent going to long sia.. after ORD.. damn. feels like hanging in e mid-air.. w/o any directions to go.. yeah had my plans already.. but still pretty much unsure abt it. N my parents werent really showing any supports to it.. but fuck care lar.. anyways i think i'm just going ahead w my life.. e earth's arent going to stop rotating w/o me.. haha.

Woke up during e aft.. online for a while to notice dat.. i actually had so much contacts on my msn.. haha.. but a handful of dem dat i seldom talk w/.. just see dem online.. n offline.. w/o stuff!? Weird rite..e feeling.. coz like.. in general lar.. we know each other.. n used to talk abt everything under e sun.. but.. now everyone's just moved on w/ their lifes.. n became so "stranger" haha.. so near n yet so far.. hahaa.. just feel weird lar..

Left home at 4 plus.. to National Library. went dere to continue my own studies.. hehe.. just hoping dat i could noe more abt wat i'm studying n thus make a choice abt my plan. Hard to find smeone to discuss w. me sia.. all are.. "its ur life lar.. u go think carefully abt it lor.." duhz.. how sia.. i noe nuts abt it n wat can i think.. hahaa.. anyways.. after which met leen for dinner n brought up e issue to her.. supporting she was.. haha.. n gave me sme ideas.. thanks ar! hehe. After which went back home liao lor.. n rot n rot till now...

Feel like going out lei.. for a drive out again.. just to sort out watever's in my mind.. anyones?! hehe...

Just army.

2005-08-01T03:15:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. back frm a drive-out w/ hui. Time checked 3.15am. A middle-aged guy at tis time still having no intention of sleeping.. haha. Just didn have the mood for tat now.. At least for now.. Dat's y i'm writing this.. thinking after writing, mayb i'll go sleep.. hahaha.. Geez.. my dad's up.. smeone of his age, sleep less.. Does it always work dat way?? As in as a human gets older, the rest he needs for his day just gets lesser.. Isnt it suppose to be the other way round?! Strange.. Just sucks right.

Life for me now... been nth but routines.. Just as expected frm NS. I mean cme on.. how can one gain anything frm NS?! .... ..... Err... (trying beri hard to find sth...) okay!! here's sth.. PIMPLES?!? Hehee... haha.. no lar.. k k serious.. how abt Foot Rot?! hahaha.. k k.. err.. it's getting not funny.. lalala~ well at least i got to know many friends here. Sth i didn expect. Hahaa.. coz b4 i was enlisted.. after getting the enlistment letter.. things i heard.. frm older friends dat been thru NS n my brothers(both)... all told me dat.. it's hard to know friends in NS coz everyone's for himself.. even if u did, it's just gonna be short... So didn expect much lar.

But still nobody can resist the cute yandao me!! hahahaa.. got to know pretty much friends leh.. mayb coz i not "tiao ti" bah.. hahaha.. i'm too easy-going... hahaha.. YEAH RITE!! <- i know dat's wat u guys must be thinking!! hahaa... but nvm.. i'm just so easy going.. shall forgive u this time... just dun let me see u on e street ever again.. haha kidding. No threats.. Frm the BMT buddies frm my bunk.. all librans.. dat shared thru tears n hugs.. together... all the sufferings.. haha.. n e torturing of smelling everybody's shit as a Toilet KING(sme name dey gave me) ... hahaha imagine.. every morning.. having to smell everybody's bombing in the toilet.. KAOZ!! but hey i did a great job making the toilet like home.. hehe.. i would even dare to lick it.. but luckily no one dare me lar... ahhahaa.... n e memories of RT.. haha.. Then went to SI. Where i got to know my buddy.. hahaa.. whom i only talked when he online.. ahhahaa.. n smetimes once in a while go out lar.. haa coz just too lazy to ask each other out.. bo bian lei... he GUARDS de wor... me only.. only.. Arty supporting signaller.. kaoz.. Small fry.. then to unit life.. where i just get fatter n fatter eating n sleeping.. hahahaa... n my brother, mr hui.. hahahaa.. whom i always mentioned.. hahaa.. yes the guy w/ e big ego, n e rest of the guys. hmm.. just being honest lar.. haah nth much to write abt dem.. hehe.. Dunno why just cant click.. no feel ar.. mayb coz everyone's had their back to look out for.. n i'm looking out for mine too?! No one's just out for everyone.. just for themselves?! haha.. sad to say n hear. yeah... or mayb we just didn been thru much together..

Anyways.. bhahaha.. still a long way b4 i ORD lar.. ahhaaaa.a.. so no need to start feeling so shit lar.. hahahaaha... getting late sia.. going sleep liao lar.. ciaoz

Craps n craps..

2005-07-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

Drenched... i'm totally drenched today.. all thanks to ARMY. God noes i might fell sick e very next moment.. like NOW?!? And who's going to pay for my bills?? myself!! who's going to suffer?? myself!! n who's going to take care of me?? definately not ARMY!! Kaoz.. so this furthur prove myself one point dat i always believe in.. hahaha... CAN HIDE JUST HIDE.. DUN BE GARANG.. hahaa... Zun bo!! Haha anyways.. was pretty tired.. Coz of the laying of taupoline.. Thinking dat it cant be worse, Bravo BSM was actually e one coordinating it!!! FUCK.. dat fat ass just cant get any blood flowing thru his brain.. dat's y he's thinking w his arse.. ahaha.. He kaoz.. merely had nth but yelling.. Good for nth BUM.. Cant imagine if he's gonna take over Staff Yeo as a HQ BSM.. Liew.. made us do extra work.. smemore in e rain.. kaoz.. heavy lei.. i weakling lai de.. u let me work in e rain.. i SUE u den u NOE. KNNBCCB.. Then was another fat ass.. Harris.. stands for hairy shit ass... fuck i hate it lor.. esp when he thinks he knows wat he's doing n big fuck order ppl ard.. den he was yelling at me, beng n hui.. to move.. when he could simply move his ass to get the work done.. so i simply yell him back.. haha.. so shiok.. n see him stunned.. yeah dunno why but my heart has been telling me.. i've been waiting for that moment. OH YEAH...

One more thing.. hahaha hit hui w/ the director.. oh yeah.. STRIKE!!! *Kong*... hehe.. aiyah wasnt on purpose lar.. but his head just came for the director i'm carrying mah.. so bo bian.. too bad lor.. hehee... Then also dere was a bunch of babe(bar-be) imitating Xunwei.. hahah... well at first was a bit irritaing lar.. coz xunwei's no matter what still is our side one mah.. but.. well sorry lor.. it's just too funny dat i fell on my knees.. hahahaa.... fuck.. hahaha still can laugh abt it when i think abt it now.. hahahha

HAha... went to a place i nvr tot i would step in.. yesterday nite w hui.. hahaha.. shall not tell yet.. read on.. hehe.. yesterday... hmm.. oh was Sunday. Was fucking free on dat day.. so was the van.. n had totally no idea what to do with it.. Coz was always no idea where to go even w/ e van... So lost.. n i dun really like e feeling.. n didn really like asking ppl out to acc me.. But still went on to ask hui out lar.. haha.. so we went to Sim Lim to get my stuff.. den to jurong for dinner... sme stupid dinner dat i get so full.. hahahaha.. becoz of errr... nvm lar.. it's me lar.. i deserve it... i deserve it.. can only accept it wholeheartedly.. coz i jian ming mah.. ask hui to make e decision on e dishes.. haha.. bo bian lor.. Lan lan suck thumb. hahaha..

anyways.. had a filing dinner.. den we went to sme place... A hint.. : it has many indians.. haha n is e only shopping centre dat's open 24 hr in spore!! cool isnt it... but sure it ha a smell.. haha e moment i stepped into e building.. i got weak on my knees.. hahah had dizzy spells.. thanks to e "aroma therapy" hahaha... but it sure has lots of stuff... so many things dat i wanted to buy... but was just too stingy to spent on... but sth for sure.. if i'm working now, it's a definate dat i'll spend.. coz i did always have a limit to watever i still remain in my bank.. hehe of coz i wont tell lar.. hahahaa neli neli bu bu... hehe.. but of coz if anyone wants to give any of wat i want for my bdae is a definate welcome lar... i did welcome it w a big big hug.. n both hands... want kiss also can.. hahahahahaa.... hahahaha.. but of coz i hope i can choose watever lar... haha k lar i think dat's all folks.. haha

Almost..

2005-07-23T04:01:00.000+08:00

For once.. i almost made it.. now i'm back. For those who dun understand wat i'm talking abt.. just ignore this post.. fuck.. e hell w what's going thru my mind now.. just need a place to settle n speak things out.. to get things..complete..?? I think i need serious revamp on my brain haha.. '

Anyways, things are better now. I hope it just remains....

Merlions...

2005-07-21T04:28:00.000+08:00

haha... now e time's 4.28am. dated 21/07. Just reached home after sending every drunkard home.. yeah DRUNKARD i meant. Currently i guess everyone of dem will be snoring their way to their dreamland except me.. ME e only standing one.. hehe.. now typing my blog n laughing at e losers in my evil mind hehe... it's e 1st time i see so many MERLIONS in singapore!! cm on lar.. one merlion in spore is enough u noe..? hehe...

Well we were at Dbl O's.. as expected wat else can we do dere.. but chiong.. yeah a stupid thing i agree... but well i wont deny dat i had fun earlier on.. hahaha... mayb cause was glad dat everyone's enjoying themselves bah.. or i too enjoyed myself.hahahaha... dancing like idiots on e dancefloor.. but hell i've to say this.. since this issue comes to my mind... ATTENTION: i dun wish to say this but i just have to voice it out.. e ladies dat chiong.. kaoz.. are really loose.. dun wish to use e word horny bitches but dey are just behaving like one or worst still sluts... which gave e guys easy on them... kaoz.. i can tell u this.. if i happened to see any of my friends in dere behaving like HB, i'm gonna go upfront give dem a tight slap n drag her out of e club... before any mishaps happen.. haha.. hmm this is irony.. if e gals wont dere.. hmm.. dere wont be much fun either.. hhahaa.. LAME isnt it.. just guys.. LAME.. hha

anyways.. back to e story.. hmm.. was initially dun want to dance.. just hoped to smoke thru by just standing or sitting at one corner.. hhaa but e guys keep pulling me into e pool.. so bo bian lor.. just gotta show dem my stuff... hehee... sme of e music sucks though.. haha.. den after a while say 2plus(was dere at 11plus) sme ppl lar.. i wont say who(to protect e person)... cannot take it.. ahahaha.. den.. blah blah.. hahah wont say much ar... MERLION lor.. wahh.. merlion is such a nice structure.. it's located at singapore river.. n smetimes mhd sultan.. hiak hiak... ahh shall not talk abt it lar..

So how did we go abt getting dere... hmm... lets say we met at city hall control at 7. Me was e organiser... but was supposed to be supporting the PA at 6.30 at padang.. den was thinking lan lan.. worst cme to worst.. dun go.. dey happy can liao.. hahha... but lucky lar.. when i reached dere at 5plus.. on my way go buy cake.. staff sit called n said my help's not needed.. hehe.. yeahh!! SAVED frm xunwei. Lalala.. so went buy e cake frm prima deli.. fruit plan.. haha remember dat ass saying he liked e cake.. so buy lor n put it at qlong's place(coz having dinner dere).. den go arcade while waiting for e rest to be at city hall at 7. den cool enough n surprisingly no one's late.. hahahaa.. so we carried on w e plan.. to qlong's place had sme not really can fill stomach dishes.. haha but luckily got e cake lar.. hahaaa... haha.. so after e dinner waited for qlong to finish his work n join us for later events.. sigh was initially ktv ones... den stupid samuel n beng.. just cant sing.. hahhaa.... AS IF i can.. hahaa.. so bo bian got to go along w dem.. so went chiong lor.. n it's ladies night!! n one good thing i forgot to mention earlier.. dey didn check my IC!! hahahaa...

Was out w/ hui e nite before 20th.. haha.. pretty honoured. Well... went back camp to get sme stuff.. saw sam e poor COS.. haha.. n e stupid DOO dat's super garang.. den was supposed to get sme drink at e upp seletar dere... but was LOST... e wheel holder lost his way.. hahaa.. so bo bian sat down at another store for our kopi.. haha.. NEW SPOT.. haha.. e place's prata was very crispy n was full of ppl.. plus my drink teh tarik was nice.. haha not bad. After drinks, passed him e present dat i've scrimp n saved just to get a better model n design dat he did like, den went bukit timah nature reserve hahaa.. go dere let mosquito bite.. hehe.. haha.. den down to pasir ris... lucky i got e van pumped.. haha

Hahaa.. all in all had lotsa fun on both e days.. hope e fart face did e same.. hahah.. ciaoz.. gtg.. tired shit

TMD

2005-07-19T00:28:00.000+08:00

TMD, guess what, the very 1st thing i got back hme, i was questioned by my arse bro "Are you e one dat put a scratch on e van?" Fuck.. for what i noe, e scratch has been dere even before e very 1st time i laid my hands on e van.. Really annoyed. I almost yelled at him.. but luckily i caught my cool fast.. LUCKY him.. This isnt the 1st time he's pointing fingers at wat i didn do.. esp abt e van.. fuck - eversince e accident tat i didn caused. but fair enough, he had no idea dat i wasnt e one dat caused e accident.. so it's only understandable of where his accusations came frm. So for now.. watever he says DEAF EARS..lalala.. hhaa.. dat's e only way i can do..

Hmm.. now wat?? so.. life's been e same.. Everything's e same.. same routine - padang n padang .. boring army life.. damn sian didn got any marksman for e 2nd yr shoot again.. dere goes my $200 bucks.. duhz.. What to do? I'm just plain lousy.. haha n so is my detail.. although felt sad in e beginning, but.. well it isnt dat bad afterall no one in our unit acheived any marksman.. N it's counted as my last ORD shoot!! YEAH!!.. n i guess it's e last time i'm going to shoot any range except for IMT for my reservist? other den this shit, everything's e same.. except.. except... hehe.. i've changed!! yeah! got to become a better person!! yeah yeah really happy... although e change's only known to myself, damn i'm just FUCKING PROUD to be the way it is.. yeah n it makes me.. so happy..

Spent a hell lots of money this wkend... Gone ktv, LAN, buffets..movies...arcades.. duhz.. man i'm spending a lot lately.. Cannot lar.. i must start saving le.. Or else all e money i've saved my lifetime turning into dust if i'm leaving as it's state now.. duhz.. SEE what has NS done? shit lar.. expecting us to survive w/ e little $500 plus dey squeezing out for us... shit lor... Pathetic losers... treating us like Bangalahs... tmd..

Haha.. well anyways catched.. Fantastic 4.. was.. alright lar.. worth only for a $7 show... n caught CRASH... quite nice.. i liked this show.. quite meaningful.. WATCH IT.. it simply explains how ppl see things... like racism.. gave me a thought dat.. things will be much better if u took a step back to see things.. P.S: if u guys wan to watch e show.. pls skip these spoilers..

Character 1: A black..Didnt wish to save his brother frm e dark.. hehe.. probably thinking dat he's beyond hope, he left him to die despite his mother wishing him to look n help his brother.. n looks down on his own race too..?? which in turn his brother was actually a good guy..
Character 2: A white.. Appears to be someone who doesnt support e idea of racism.. but in turn he did. He judged a black(A) by his torn dressing.. n deduced dat A is trying to grab for a gun when A reached his hands into his pocket.. n killed A.. sadly..
Character 3: Hmm.. a poor arabian or wat shit race man.. who thinks dat everyone's out to harm him.. n was always on his defensive. Had a gun for defense? shot a innocent little gal when he tried to killed her father.. thinking dat his father rob n smashed his store.. luckily e gal survived.. Miracle..?! No.. dere was more den tat..
Character 4: A white lady.. despise blacks.. n only came to notice dat all her friends are fake when she most needed help.. only e black helped her..
Character 5: black. steals n robs frm whites.. thinks dat he's right to do dat.. esp when he has a gun w him.. One day he stole frm e same race.. n only came to realise dat he's wrong to think dat of a white..
Character 6: white. Despise blacks. Hate dem.. n uses athourity against dem. molested a black woman. but turned well when he rescue e same black woman frm a car accident..

Aiyah.. just watch dat show.. if u trust my taste..

2005-07-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

Today's a long long day. Spent most of my time at home. 1st half of the day packing n cleaning my stuff... 2nd half.. went out dinner w/ a friend dat just came back frm overseas. Wouldn say i'm close to her or wat.. seldom contact her but just had e spiritual closeness feel w/ her. hhahah.. After e dinner went back hme.. n sat in front of e tv staring n munching.. geez... thinking of driving out later... hahaha... N that simply concludes my life.. Simply simple n bore.. NO LIFE sia!!

Tml still gotta report back to camp. Sian.. was supposed to be a off-day but got to attend sme range shit.. For wat?? Yeah.. for wat.... nobody noes.. it's just e army shit dey come out w/.. It's not as if during war ur enemy's going to sit down dere n let u shoot n u are not going to get sme hole or sandbag for u to support n shoot him either.. Stupid..

Sick of things

2005-07-09T01:57:00.000+08:00

Did a mood analysis test using the colorgenics. Wow.. really quite accurate for me. Give it a try.

Life for some time now has been somewhat depressing and you feel 'under the weather'. You are looking for a means by which you can escape from all the pressures of everyday life. But you must remember that the 'Past does not equal 'Tomorrow'. You are seeking a way to escape from all the trials and tribulations that oppress you at this time, but at least you haven't given up - if one pattern of behavior doesn't seem to work then you'll change it for another.
You are in need of rest, some peace and quiet. You feel the need to be close to that someone special, that someone who can give you that special consideration and unquestioning affection that you seek. If you don't find that 'special someone' and resolve your problems very soon, you are liable to become extremely introverted and cut yourself off from society.
You give the impression that you are a self-sufficient individual, pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure. But this is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional person, one that may make hasty decisions and perhaps repent at leisure. It is time now perhaps to break the bond of detachment and become the real 'you' - the you that you would like to be.
You are feeling helpless. The fact that you are unable to control events that are going on around you is subjecting you to considerable stress. This can, if not relieved, cause muscle spasms or hypertension. It would seem that you are, for whatever the reason, being subjected to intolerable pressures. The complete environment would appear to be hostile. It would also seem that you are being driven against your will. You feel - and perhaps quite rightly so - that unreasonable demands are made of you but more to the point you feel as if you are powerless to control the situation or protect yourself in any way. At this time you feel utterly helpless.
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions are really beyond your capabilities. This has resulted in experiencing considerable anxiety and stress. You are looking for confirmation from your nearest and dearest that you have the ability and strength to fulfill all of your needs and to be completely self-sufficient. When matters don't go right for you - you tend to become inhibited and blame others for your inadequacy. You feel that there must be a way out from all the trials and tribulations that you have been experiencing of late and you are right - there is a solution - so don't give in, keep searching.

The past few days been really tired. Tired of entertaining, tired of smiling, tired of NDPs n all. How i wish i could really take a relaxing break n sit or lie down in a corner w/o having to worry what's going to happen or what i should do the next second.. Friends been asking me out.. but i'm either too tired, or i'm just too busy. Too tired of entertaining ppl n interacting.. dun like e idea of getting myself into troubles or any form of unhappiness.

Anyways.. recently e only pastime or e only thing i enjoyed were the time i went swimming n went on a night photo taking session. Swimming, one of e sport i enjoy most. But i only enjoy a relax swim. Wont wish to torture myself by swimming to the extend tat i have to suffer frm muscle ache or pant like a dog after e swim.. prefer doing things on my own pace. Swimming also gave me a clear mind.. Nice.... ohhh... yeahh...

went e photo taking w hui. haha took photos of e scenery... lights n ppl.. to an amt of more den 140 photos.. but only 6 were our photos.. hahaha stupid.. went to many places sia.. err.. kranji.. pierce... aiya a lot lar.. lazy to type.. dunno how to spell also.. hehe.. but a pity.. wanted to visit e railway again.. but.. hmmm.. it's a cursed place.. everytime go dere ar... confirm hor.. nth good.. always sth happen.. shit lor.. gives e creeps...

Hahaha... so much for a memo to remind myself.. e one i wrote in Thoughts of life.. haha.. anyways.. shall take a peep at it now.. haha.. ciaoz

Padang padang n padang..

2005-07-04T02:52:00.000+08:00

This padang shit is starting to make me feel crappy man.. Esp when i was informed to go down tml(my only off day) this morning.. while i was still lying on my bed.. enjoyin e moments of peacefulness.. staring at e ceiling.. n relaxing my fatigue body like i have control of the time in my hands.. It's a long time since i had this feeling.. after going into army, life's been such routine n bore.. every morn wake up for breakfast, report to work, sleep, n break for lunch blah blah.. BAhhh!!! Enough of dreaming.. anyways.. back to works in Padang.. i've been to padang basically almost every wkdays n sats lei.. can you imagine dat?!?! Den always have to stay in e heaty sauna underneath e stage doing stuff ppl dun see.. haiz.. if only others noe dat we dun have such good time too.. :P

Yesterday was a major corked up man... for every rehearsals.. everything we done for e screen was almost near to perfect... but it just got to cork up when e actual comes.. was at padang as early as 9am. to trial n test out on e engine again to ensure everything's smooth.. so we tried out for a few times.. everything sui sui sia... until e major starts at 7plus.. where all e stars like Kim Ng, Sharon Au, Adrain Pang n Vernetta Lopez 's here.. we just corked up. haha wat e fuck.. n e usual fucker CO's just dere standing at e stage yelling n yelling at what we are doing.. Cant he for a moment use his eyes n see... n just do wat he can do to help den just yelling?!!?! dat's e problem w regulars.. esp officers rank. arghh... couldn care less.. was having more attention to e stars.. haha.. ohh.. chio bus-es.. hahhaha was so close up w/ dem.. All was nice n friendly except Vernetta.. So dao.. kaoz.. as if she's sme super hollywood star.. she cant even be compared to Bollywood man.. so i was waving to her.. trying to catch her attention n she looked at me n looked away.. idiot..!!! i invisible man ar!! kaoz..dun have e courtesy to wave or smile back ar!! So i yelled back at her.. hahah dunno if she heard.. haha.. so unlike Adrain pang.. haha so friendly.. smiled at me.. n gave me e 2 thumbs up action.. hahaha joker lei... After e whole thing's done.. Kim Heng suggested go pub.. haha.. my 1st reaction was.. huh.. not again.. hahhaa.. coz wasnt really into these.. more to kopi tiam lar.. haha.. so dunno whether to go or not.. anyways in e end i didn go lar.. hahaa... only heng, beng n samuel went.. was a bit tired n dun wish to spend so much on these entertainment... just makes me wonder just how rich is kim heng..?!! as to go clubbbing almost every wk like dat.. kaoz..

After going home.. haha..went out w/ hui for a bowling game.. which i scored so badly.. haha long time since i had a game. sigh.. now i'm back to square one again.. loousy.. coz currently suffering
frm muscle sore.. esp my tigh n arm.. hahaha... dunno y.. think i just strained it.. for not doing anything??!?!

Geez.. dun really have much collection on what to write.. Nth much special happened too.. except had sme dispute w/ my family sme days ago over sme car issues.. duhz.. anyways things are much solved now. Haha.. oh yeah.. n my new van's here!! i mean e family van!! yeah yeah.. finally. Hmm.. had my 1st test out on e 1st day e van's here.. which is i dunno when lar.. haha.. anyways.. it's a Toyota Hiace..great horsepower n smooth. E interior's much of a car's. So pretty like it..anyways e 1st try out was short.. only drove ard for sme time.. den asked leen out... to test test too.. haha.. after which had e Parkway Parade western food dere.. haha specially like e western dere.. coz cheap n big serving.. (2.15pm)

(2.58am) e 2nd drive was today.. hehe... i mean yesterday.. aft.. out on 3 plus w/ hui.. to test test. haha.. den vroomm vroom.. wanted to pump in sme diesel.. but after going to e petrol station, den only i found out dat i've no idea where e trap to open e gas was.. hahaa.. stupid.. den only drove off.. to sme quiet nobody place to check it out.. hahahaa. Everything's fine. e whole trip's fine except dat.. sme asshole was just too afraid to drive it.. ahha whicch i later got pretty pissed coz dat's e least i expected.. n e aim for e day was to let him test it out... haha but still he later took over e wheel after much "persuasion". hahaha. Went to e abandoned railway track in Clementi.. man.. it's really a view.. been dere for a few times but nvr really did went up e railway.. was always below it admiring coz it's always dark at night n dat's e only time i can get my vehicle. when everyone's asleep... so was always standing dere so near but yet so far. n today, i finally had e wish done..! yeahh... pretty achieving.. too bad didn have e camera dere.. Missed it sia. After which went to get our dinner.. n went to sme stupid fishing jetty in Kranji.. which i dread not going again.. hgahahah... smelly.. duhz.. so went to e kranji world war 2 park instead. Sat down dere while enjoying e sea breeze n looking at e faraway neighbouring country w/ e city lights.. wow.. wat a sight.. too bad didn have e camera again!!...

Watched Initial D last monday... was a pretty nice show.. Nice stunts n all.. except e male lead.. which sux hell.. his acting really cannot make it lor.. esp e part where he starts e cry.. it looks fucking funny lor.. looks as if he's too happy dat he cried.. dunnno y e fuck e producers chose dat Arse of all ppl.. not good looking nor act well.. he just falls terribly in both of e citeria.. duhz.. anyways.. after e show we went out one night.. for a Initial D run down.. haha.. haha.. at e Neo Tiew rd.. haha.. cool.. nice hairclip turns.. n all.. was for e mood e whole night... it just cant be put to words.. i had e 1st round.. n hui had e 2nd.. though i drove faster at e turns, but hui was still better.. hahaa.. He followed e stunt sia.. in e movies.. haha.. one side of e car tilt to e grass while e other still on e road.. n made e drastic turn.. freaking turned to jelly legs on e co-driver seat.. .. dots...

Road Rage..

2005-06-25T02:03:00.000+08:00

Haha.. hmm.. as e title suggested, it shall be wat i'm touching on this wk. Haha.a.. hmm.. the whole wk, i've only been in camp on tues.. n half of friday. Me as a part of e stage crew(haha.. sounds nice right) was granted to stay out everyday.. n need not report back to camp... n only did need to report to Padang field at 6plus. pm. woo hoo!! Coolz eh.. haha.. really a damn good deal it was. So as expected lor.. i could only wake up every morning at 11 plus 12.. have my lunch cum breakfast, catch sme simpsons episode.. do sme stuff... n ciaoz.. report to padang.. if only these is to go on for the rest of the wks.. till National day.. Haha.. hmm...

Works in padang.. arent much.. really.. e least u can expect.. Haha. Wellz.. too bad e bastard arent dere to share it w/ me.. hahahaa... Life back in camp on tues was really bad.. e moment i step into e bunk.. haha.. awesomely quiet it was.. so so quiet dat i could listen to e cricket laughing.. geez..am i e only one feeling so?? y e fuck arent anyone talking.. geeez... god.. lucky i dun have to stay dere for long...

Anyways.. so shall carry on.. so every night, i did got e chance to drive out.. yeah!! only if my bro's not using e van... sigh... now grumbling if only i own a car.. i dun expect much.. oh god.. pls grant me my wish.. n tml i wake up one van is at my doorstep.. oh ya cannot... i live in HDB.. err.. at my void deck.. oh.. pls.. HAhaa... k lar.. time to be back to reality.

Now now.. a brief summary abt my Road Rage.. finally eh.. after so much crap. Once was on my way home.. after drive out w/ hui.. haha.. Was rushing home.. wanted to see how long i take to reach home frm sengkang.. wanna break my time record mah.. so was driving.. lalala... den on a road, on e other lane was a white van.. it's too driving at a very high speed.. kindda as expected mah.. for night traffic.. at 3-4plus..? So me.. haha. have this stupid idea of winning him.. so i drove so fast i took over him.. n cut his lane.. haha.. den think he also buay song.. so he did e same.. hahaa.. so i took e 3rd lane.. while he's on e 2nd. No one else was ard.. hahaa.. no more vehicles except e two of us. So e two of us was driving at our top speed.. until we meet a turn.. hahaha.. a filter lane where e both of us wanted to take.. n i rammed my van n he did.. Wooo.. i luv e trill.. LUVE it..!! den a split of moment.. he won me.. hahaa.. sian. he took e turn earlier den i did.. n won.. sian. wanted to chase him for more but a traffic light stopped me.. sian..

Haha.. am still on my way back.. n was still so ON ar.. my engine.. my spirit's still damn high.. so when i reached a long stretch of straight road, i did ram my vehicle again.. n dere.. it was, a bike w/ a rider n it's co rider.. hahah.a.. blocking my way lor.. so i rammed so hard... n took over dem n blocked their way in front.. n ram my vehicle.. to give out sme soot...hahhaha.. pretty gangster lar.. but couldn care less.. was so high.. den dey also.. drove to e side of my vehicle.. stared at me.. haha.. but i "bo hiu" dem lar.. act cool.. hehe.. dey were just mid twenties guys.. didn think much abt wat dey think too.. tot was nth.. so just drove my own.. n back home. Making my way to e multi storey carpark, i took a glance at e mirror n see dem tailing behind my back.. but dey didn make e turn into e carpark..After i parked my van, i took a glance down frm e top n saw dem waiting at e entrance of e carpark.. sitting down talking to each other..hhaa.. was thinking.. oh no.. die die.. two versus one.. dey want to kill me ar..oh no.. hahaa.. so i bravely walked down.. to e entrance of e carpark... took a deep breathe n looked at dem.. n dey saw me... our eyes met... n fell in luv.. hahah.. no lar.. our eyes met for 2 sec.. and and.... nth happened.. hahhaha..... phew.. cold sweat sia.. Hahaaa.. damn sounds like a loser sia.. think dey just happened to stay ard my neighbourhood i guess... kaoz.. scared nth out of me.. liew..

Another incident.. happened on thurs night. haha was preparing to drive off when i saw a plastic bag.. lying on e co driver seat.. so nvr think much again.. haha.. i simply dumped it a e back of e van. Fast forward >>>>>> >>> >> >> >> >> >>> >>> n i reached home at 4plus.. gotta put e things back to where dey were.. so i took e same plastic bag frm e back of e van. n damn.. it felt real hot.. so i took a look at wat's inside e bag... hhaa.. oh no.. dere's a bag of water w/ fish inside.. dun ask me wat fish it is.. i have no idea.. u noe.. e bag.. where e pet shop put e fish u wanted to buy inside?? yeah yeah.. a bag where dere's water n air.. hahaha.. n fish of coz... man i'm bad in description.. anyways.. so i took out e bag.. n felt e water.. man it was hot.. n e fish inside's alreadi... slanting.. n wasn moving.. but i dunno if it's dead lar... well his eyes are still open.. hahahaa.... den i had this stupid idea... i untied e bag.. n poured away all e water n e bag.. n filled it w/ fresh water i could find in my van... haha..at least e water isnt hot.. so.. in hope dat e fish could survive.. so i waited for a sec.. it's still not moving!!.. so i tried blowing air inside e bag.. n tied it up again.. n shake e bag.. haha.. thinking dat mayb a air in e bag can get into e water n e fish can live again.. hahahahha.. call me stupid lar.. but it makes sense wat.. haha.. except dat e air would be co2 den o2.. ahahaa.. but haha.. still stood dere motionless.. oh no.. hahaa.. n wat i did?? hhaha.. i placed it back on e co driver seat n walked off.. ... i dunno wat to do leh... i killed a fish.. sigh.. zui nie..zui nie.. n it's late.. gotta prepare my stuff.. back to camp. coz i have COS duty e next morn.. so i stood awake lor.. until i booked in for my duty... hmm.. k la.. shall touch on dat again.. getting late.. alreadi 3 now.. tml still need to go padang for e stupid rehearsal.. w/o an asshole.. life's so much quieter now.. too quiet.

Sianz..

2005-06-21T01:23:00.000+08:00

Man, cant imagine i'm going back to camp tml.. going to continue all the shit work dey queued for us for the rest of the days till e end of NDP. Duhz.. really sucky eh.. hmm.. so wat i've been up to lately.. today, woke up surprisingly early at 11plus by myself w/o any disturbance.. n had a filling breakfast cum lunch. had a dumpling.. n a packet of wonton noodles.. *Burppz...*.. kaoz.. this combination really smells.. haha.. Excuse me!! Then made my bastard dog bathe.. haha.. blah blah blah... n watch Simpsons' Seasons 15. Took a hell lot time d/ling dem. N could finish it within 2days.. duhz.. Lame eh.. n i'm deleting dem later.. be right back..

Duhz.. back.. was watching amityville horror.. haha.. geez.. really got e cold sweats out of me.. haha.. although it's just another ghost story, this time it's based on a true one. But they elaborated it.. to make it more scary. Scary it is.. but it has a lame story.. The whole family know dat the house is haunted frm e 1st day.. but dey just cant be bothered to do anything.. n would rather stay in the house to get freak out everyday.. haha.. stupid right.. n even did nth when their cute pretty babysitter gets freaked... dat's when e creepy part comes.. u know it's dere but u just cant do anything.. even if it affects u having sex w/ ur wife??!! stupid ang mos..

Anyways.. also caught Mr n Mrs Smith.. nice movie w/ SEXy lady.. n bradd pitt. Yeah bradd pitt it is.. nvr would expect any good show out of it.. esp when sme himbo's in it.. ahaha.. but it's nice. as in all e gun shooting scences.. n moves.. dat's wat really impress me.. looking frm e trailer, i tot it would be sme action movie.. but turns out to be a movie where couples quarrel.. n shoot at each other.. haaha. but kind of reflects reality eh.. as in spouses.. hate each other so much dat dey could point gun at each other.. n dat honesty is e only key to these gaps n misunderstanding between them.. quite true eh.. (12.56pm)

(1.23am)Then just came back frm City Hall.. was there to catch Batman Begins. haha.. not bad show lar.. for $7 lor.. but really dun enjoy e sound effects.. it's deafening for me... definately. Was dere w/ hui.. hahaha... for his last 2nd meal.. before his.. teeth got plucked out.. n couldn enjoy any good food for at least a wk.. Awww... a shame huh.. while me still enjoy myself eating all e nice nice chicken feet.. blah blah.. hahahhaa... he better not be reading this.. haha. Well.. but surely gonna miss having this bastard around this wk.. hmm.. late le.. tired.. gotta wake up early for camp.. sian.. not like sme lucky cunning soul.. who ecape frm bookin in early hehehe.. kk.. ciaoz...

NDPs....

2005-06-19T01:32:00.000+08:00

Lalala... hmm.. just had a bathe. Smelling so nice.. esp my hair. hahaha... coz used my bro's gf's shampoo.. finished using my shampoo.. so no choice mah.. hehe.. who ask her to come stay overnight ar.. OPPS!!.. haha... Gu Nan Gua Nu in my empty grandparent's bedroom... .... No comments.. haha used to it liao lar.. i dun mind being an uncle at an age of 22.

This whole wk been really busy preparing e stuff for NDP. So damn tiring.. actually not lar.. not tiring.. is more of my eye are tired ar.. becoz of e glaring sunlight.. i'm still e usual fit hor.. hehe.. but fatter fit.. Quite like e fun n feeling of anticipating in the big parade. Got e feel sia.. doing things together.. suffering together.. standing in the sun together.. blah blah blah... plus today when the whole NDP's on a run thru.. COOLZ.... I'M SO FUCKING PROUD.. i'm in it.. hhahaha.. for a moment forgot all e shagness n hotness.. for a moment only lar.. haha.. but very soon come back lar... despite everyday go down to padang field, it still beats staying in office.. sleeping n staring at e four walls... at least i'm contributing sme effort.. effort dat can be seen ar.. haha.

Haha.. shit lar.. this wk.. when was it huh.. oh yesterday nite. After the night in Padang.. e few of us went down to Marina to have dinner.. Had this not bad chicken chop rice.. really nice in the foodcourt. Anyways.. haha... den me n hui wanted sme after meal desserts.. so we went to e shop n queued.. i bought tao suan.. n hui bought black porridge.. haha.. den when we got the desserts and is paying for dem... this gal n her friend who queued behind me.. ordered tao suan also.. ahaha.. den auntie say "oh no more tao suan... this guy(me) got the last bowl.... so u(me) want to give e gal e tao suan??" hahha... my 1st reaction was "huh?? my tao suan?? give u?? "den i took a glance at e gal... hmm not too bad looking lar.. but only a glance... n e next moment.. hui asked me.. eh.. u wan give her not? haha... n e gal said.."huh no need lar..." .... hahaha... i dunno if she really meant it lar.. but i'm beri straight forward one lar.. u wan just say wan.. dun wan.. den okay lor it's mine.. haha.. so.. i walked off w/ my tao suan.. n happily sat back on my seat to have my tao suan... hahhaa... so warm n nice... yummy... but couldn enjoy myself.. coz hui was.. suaning me all e way.. duhz

2005-06-11T00:56:00.000+08:00

Today's a tiring day.. Had to go for the ndp rehearsal which took up one whole saturday.. duhz.. den tml still need to go for another of e rehearsals.. AHHH!!.. my whole wkend's burnt.. So .. err.. dunno how to say lar.. fucked up lor.. well wat to do.. human are selfish.. i perfectly understand dat.. haha..6more mths.. n i'm out of this place. Come on!! Give it to me.. Torture me more.. before i go.. do watever u guys are best at... HahaAA.. Crazy..

Rotting day

2005-06-06T18:11:00.000+08:00

Geez.. today.. slept until late 12pm.. had a late night yesterday.. went blading w/ hui again.. haha but this time round, we took it to a higher challenge.. we went to.......... wahahahhaaa... East Coast Park.. hahaha.. but sadly we only have one blade.. so.. we brought along my bike.. haha.. 1st round i was cycling n he was blading.. n then we changed over when we reached e other end of e park. Great it was... at least it's better den blading ard in a multi storey carpark.. haha.. definately better... it makes e hell difference when u are out in e park.. COOL is e only word. e most important thing is.... i nvr fell?!!! hahahahaa... err.. compared to e other loser.. hahhah.. wahhaha... but he blades better den me lar.. no doubt. but still i'm proud dat i nvr fall.. hahaa.. yeah... hip hip hurray!!

Den sat.. e whole signal platoon's down in kranji camp.. Doing e shit ndp rehearsals.. a cork up day i would say.. 1st a number of us were late for the rehearsal.. n got a scolding frm our head for dat... but it has no affects on me.. anyway.. saw the motivators performing.. geez... sme of dem do look good.. hahaha... err... reminding myself of all these are just ruining my mood.. hahahaa.. so guess i'll skip it.. hahah.. den after all.. went to this Jap restaurant to have this steamboat at somerset. Wat was the name again? Komoto i guess.. was dere on e night before w/ hui to check out e price.. haha..Overall wasnt dat bad.. at least i like their attitude. Dey serve us w/ a smiling face. oh was dere to celebrate hock beng n terence's bdae.. Actually was quite surprising dat e waitress would actually go thru e trouble to play a bdae song n diming e lights when we are cutting e cake.. dat's like too much for a MAINLANDEr to do.. haha

Den wednesday was our ORD night.. more of for the gunners. but we are included because we belong to the same mono intake.. Alright lar.. not too bad.. but the topless dance wasnt as expected.. hahaha.. nth also.. n e gals dancing were like twice my size.. like a king kong dancing lei imagine... hahaha...quite a turn off eh.. e food were much better.. haha.. wat's disappointing was.. thinking dat i finally have a chance to win a prize in the lucky draw.. n i'm finally going to get this 29" tv(which is 5" more den i expected)... .... ..... .... i walked home empty handed.. oh.. but i did took a pic w/ mark lee.. ahahaha...seems like he wasnt dat irritable after all..

den den... hmm wat else.. oh went out w/ kok on monday to catch Madagascar.. a cartoon lar.. but it's a cartoon more for kids den adults.. haha mature adults like me.. hahaha... e jokes weren dat funny den watching the trailer.. guess e trailer sort of killed the jokes instead of promoting dem.. hahaa... n it's really a super short movie.. only 1.5hrs... duhz..

Super cork,,

2005-06-04T04:25:00.000+08:00

A damn sian week lar.. basically felt pretty low abt everything.. frm the army shit... to family.. n even to my friends.. oh n myself too.. Am going to complain abt stuff.. so pls note. What u are abt to read might lead u to serious depression.. n all stuff written r all just mere coincidence if sama sama... hahahaa...

Army.. talking abt the unit i'm in now, despite i'll be ord-ing in a few mths time, i still yet have the sense of belonging to this shit. Basically, dislike the life i lead dere.. frm the way how things work... not talking only abt the unit.. even in my platoon itself, sucks hell. Dun like the way my head manage stuff n pass down instructions. Aiya.. think i left a bad impression on him.. anyway.. i did to a lot i guess.. dun care much too... To the ppl i met dere? Haha.. more of.. i just finish serving n fuck off types.. didn really think e ppl i met can last.. it's either i dun like e way it is... or i'm just this fuck up person.. make ur choice ppl... hahahaa...

bahh.. didn want to concentrate on writing these shit... nth worth keeping it as part of my memories... getting sleepy too.. shall knock off.. zzzZZZzzz.. continue if got chance

Sick sicko..

2005-05-28T03:35:00.000+08:00

Geez...damn sian lor.. got really sick yesterday.. yeah. Caught a fever.. dunno ar.. dunno whether it's i got if frm my beloved friend, or i'm just plain weak.. Hahaha... errhmm.. i personally will doubt it's the latter lar.. hehe...

yaya.. anyways.. e usual, did nth much in e army... well wat can one expect from army?? except getting urself injured n stupid?? or shld i say retard.. it's wat all the senior specs are right?? hahaha... oh ya.. e thought of senior specs remind me of two ppl i would like to mention.. e ppl who showed me wat e hell kind of ppl exist in the small nice country called Singapore..

1.Warrant Pink. She's one bossy woman to work under with. Lucky shit i'm not. but just few occasions i've worked w/ her gave me a whole hell man.. All i can say, shé's one hell bitch. Alright a small summary to those who are interested.. see... she's in a division level.. n she's a warrant officer. Me, i'm merely a coporal in a lowel level den she is.. dunno wat level i am in lar.. so much for e Army shit.. cant be bothered. So it's like every now n den.. every forthnight, i would hav to go down to places to support ppl w/ my PA skills.. hehe.. bahhh.. this is getting crappy.. anyway.. dere was once.. me n my friends were using the TRS(some walkie talkie- if u are a layman.. hahah). By right.. everyone w/ the walkie talkie would be able to hear everyone's conversation if u used it. But me n my friend were using the TRS.. n doing private talks... den she knew abt it.. n werent happy. I dunno why e fuck she is lar. was totally clueless.. she stopped me.. n was e hell pissing off... haha can see frm her faace lar.. e shit face.. like she's hasnt had sex for a billion yrs.. e 1st thing she yelled "So.. after Staff Shit left.. u are the one calling the shots now huh..?? who do u think u are?? what's ur rank? LCP or CPL??" and before i get my chance to speak up, she blast again.. like a woman having her periods "u noe i've a sergeant here, so anything, u go thru him... dun make decisions urself.. n dun private talk.." ..So i was like giving her e face... "yaya.. anything else??" n when she wanted to continue herself, bahaha.. i just held my 'talk to my hand' sign n walked off.. haha cant be bothered to hear her blabbering.. n just continued w/ my work.. i'm pretty much useless den huh... yeah tot so.. shld hav talked back.. damn wasted my chance..

2. Senior Fat Blob.. Nvr did liked his face e first time i saw him... got this cocky look hanging on his face everytime.. n walked like sme big fat shit who did had such big balls. for his info... it's ugly.. if he think it's cool... damn stupid. Anyways nvr did bother much abt him as long as he doesnt interfere me until this tues, when i'm the COS. And lucky enough he's the BOS. Anyways it wasnt pleasant.. cant be bothered to keep dat in my blog.. it's ugly.. so... haha.

Well lucky enough.. although army sucks till now in my life, meeting these ppl ard, it still carries memories.. good memories dat is... the friends i got to know in BMT, my buddy in SI, n ppl in the unit now.. esp hui ar...haha wahh.. this guy really worth knowing.. n nvr regretted knowing.. like yesterday, when i was so sick.. haha dat latter really took good care of me... so gan dong sia.. really.. man it felt so... err... dunno wat to say lar.. it cant be expressed thru words... it's scar-ed in my heart.. little acts like pouring hot water...serving medicine.. taking off my shoes(this nvr happened..)... haha... reminds me of Maria.. ahahah.. it''s heart warming lar.. though might be sme simple stuff but really meant a lot..But haha dunno ar.. might have somehow made him angry, when i was reluctant to go down to the medical centre.. n was stubborn to get sme rest when i shld.. well if u r reading this, sorry.. i know of ur concern.. Am really sorry.. hahahaa... i was just stubborn. hahah k lar dun write so much lar.. all dat arsehole's gonna be so blushy n proud of himself... yeah right.. but still when i thank him, he said it's just a normal, n would do it for anyone.... guess it's just came normal frm him.. so.. hahaha no need to specially thank him for any shit fuck i guess...

Then today, did nth much.. but slept thru the morning until 11plus when i was woked up by the word ER by BSO... woo hooo... finally.. then chop chop curry poke.. we booked out during lunch. YEAHH!... went back home to get some rest... den woke up at 7plus n went out for a movie "my boyfriend is type-b"... hahah total crap man... it protrayed a bad image on guys with bloodtype B... wat e hell... i'm blood type B!! shit ar.. making me look so selfish n shit.. hahaha.. but e hell it's funny though.. i've done sme research on blood type char.. here goes... check out the links..

http://www.japantimes.co.jp/cgi-bin/getarticle.pl5?fl20010916a3.htm
http://www.bloodgivers.com/character.asp <-- i find this more accurate..

Anyway back to the movie,... hmm.. it's a nice movie lar... but pretty much not worth 9.50. no movie is ever worth $9.50.. so singaporeans.. pls wake up ur fucking ideas n get a life instead of blindly watching movies during the wkends... it's EX lei... pls give a tot to ppl like me... NSF.. who has a low pathetic pay every mth.. Get a life... haha get a Home.. hahah get a Classified.. haahahh... funny horz... hhahahhaa Get a straits Times

KOKA...

2005-05-26T01:19:00.000+08:00

see....see.... today's wednesday night. N i'm updating this blog while lying on my bed.. Hhaha... aiyah enough of beating around e bush lar... in short i just wan to show off dat i'm slacking at home enjoying n relaxing home now during the wkdays... haha er... now come to think abt it.. it's not funny lei.. n nth to show off abt.. hahaha.. Lame.. n lamer.. i am getting..

Haha.. just finish this bowl of KOKA noodles i cooked.. Hmm.. taste really not bad. The laksa soup base of the noodles's spicy n shiok enough to get me sweating dat i've got to go take a bathe again.... wat's special abt it is dat it even provides a packet of coconut shreds... in one of the seasonings.. cool eh... bad thing's dat it doesnt hav "tao pok" in it... arbo will be perfect liao lor.. Haha.. yeah yeah call me the instant noodles king if u wan to .... If u dare say u can win me, take a look at my hair 1st k?? ahhahaa..

actually been quite lazy to update this blog ar.. haha but bo bian lar.. coz i've got one die hard fan to sastify w/.... who kkeep rushing me to update my blog.. so.. lan lan suck thumb lor.. ahahaha... yeah right.. nth much happenings this few wks... except dat.. i've tremendously improved my bowling.. yeah!!! hahaha.. frm a avg.. lousy to 100 plus plus lar.. shall not say how many pts lar.. in case.. hahha.. n gotten more n more sporty ar... hehehe... back to playing my badminton.. woo hoo.. quite enjoy the game i had w/ hui.. although it's just a friendly game.. haha... hahah fun lah fun lar... woo hoo!

Hahaa.. k la gonna make this entry short.. coz gotta sleep.. tml hav to wake up early to take bus down to kranji camp.. to do shit work... sian ar.. fuck.. 5plus must wake up liao.. dat's y i stayed out today.. haha.. n caught a movie... "Are we dere yet" hahaha... funny show lor.. wasn expecting e show to be this good.. tot it's just some lame show again... hahaa.. really funny ar... laugh until my stomach pain... hahhaha... e hell.. hahhaaha..... zzz..ZZZzzzz......

To who ever's reading this now... - sucker

2005-05-22T04:54:00.000+08:00

hmm.. check out the time i wrote for the post... yeah i know it's late. It's always been so late i'd go to sleep these past few wks.. yeah oh ya.. n i'm utterly dissapointed in everyone n myself.. esp to those who are reading this now.. (err dun think dere's one though.. except.. myself.. Hahaa....).. shame on u guys.. sigh so damn sad dat no one actually wrote me an email on wat dey would think abt the topic i brought up "A gal's thinking?".. fuckers... so as an punishment, i shall not update u guys on wat's happening the past wk... wahahaha.. speaking honest, i dun remember much also.. haha so.. ya u guys know wat i'm trying to say dun u? hehe... no post today.. a punishment to all.... it's punishment day.. wahahhaa... hiak hiak hiak

A gal's thinking??

2005-05-10T00:28:00.000+08:00

Arrr.. so boring and sian.. nth to do online.. damn... fuck.. No life sia.. nvr did anything much today.. except going blading.. haha not really blading lar.. more of falling n learning.. hehe. In hopes of mastering blading like my bro.. wahh.. haha.. pretty cool to see him blade like he has been moving on the wheels e day he's born.. COOLL... sigh.. nth to write lei.. lalallala..hmmm.. hmm... oh here's sth to share.. hahha... know is pretty lame. But somehow. i think i've got to let myself heard. At least heard by myself. My friends sort of notice that i've a gal's thinking toward sme stuff.. which i definately dont agree on.. come on lah wat guy could take e "qi" when someone tell him to his face dat he's thinking like a gal... Fuck.. i doubt any guy could. Quoting an example..

A and B are close friends. B and Y are just friends. One day, B needs help. The
1st person he turns to is Y instead of A.

Haha.. alright given this senario.. i would personally feel weird lar. Taking into the shoes of A, the 1st thinking dat come to my mind would be.. B is my close friend, how come he doesnt come to me when he needs help? Taking into the shoes of Y, the same ques lor. A is B's close friend. how come B doesn look for A for help n ask me? and Y will have this many many question marks..????? ?? ?? ??? ???? ??? ??? ?? ??? ?? ?? ??? and by the way, i'm Y.. haha.

P.S. to anyone who's reading this, pls let me know ur thinking.. esp in a GUY's stand?? As in if this thing is to ever happen to you.. be it you are A or Y, would u give thoughts to it?? or just think simply "bo chup"? since i dun hav this GUY thinking.., i would really appreciate to know ur thinkings.. thanks!! Drop me an email at scanzel@yahoo.com but if u guys think dat it's lame.. u all can choose to fuck care it lar.. coz i also agree dat it's lame to write a post on this.. haha just a test lar.. to see if i''m normal since i'm fucking free and boring now.. haaa.. if possible.. Sian sian sian.. sigh.. Oh yeah.. think i go drive out... hehe.. wheeling time.. Ciaoz.. Sign out

Top Fun..!! "Huan Le Tian Fung"...LAME!!

2005-05-08T05:59:00.000+08:00

woww.. the look at e time now.. Damn late lo... think its abt time i get to sleep.. gotta wake up early to prepare to go for the stupid PA system fuck later tis aft... duhzz.. well anyway i'm not going to let this ruin my day... NEVER.. wahahaha.. u shall not get me so easily... wah hahaa....*evil smile* Oh yeah.. before i carry on, HAppY MOTHER's DAY!! Woohoo.. Thanks to all mothers who are so mother to us.. errr...err..haha.. Aiyah happy mother day lar..

Quite happy today.. coz i enjoyed myself.. n most importantly, my mum's back!! haha.. the forever maid in our family.. hehe.. just kiddin'.. well maid as in she's always been the one who has been settling all housework and logistic stuff for us.. But nevertheless she offered us this love tat despite how we yelled at her or miscared for her feelings, she still stood by us.. n gave us the concern whenever we needed it.. and would always spare a thought for us in no matter wat fuck shit she do... this special connection between us is sth dat's so undescribable.. sth dat no one can ever replace.. not even my future spouse.... This love i called motherly love. A tribute to all mums in the world.. HAPPY MOTHER's Day.. u all did a great job. Hahah well well enough of all the mushy mushy.. she's finally back frm thailand. Missed her so..

So we took her out for dinner.. however despite suffering from all the jet lag n shit, she still tagged along w/ us.. we r out to celebrate mother's day. Actually it's just a very simple celeration.. just a meal.. n out shopping..

After which joined hui w/ blading.. hahaha... mastering e techniques.. hhaha sort of the simple oness... like... braking n turning??? hahahaa.... just dat is enough to get us worn out.. WEAK eh..? Actually i'm not tired at all.. not e bit.. haha.. but e other guy was.. not to mention his name.. although it's fucking obvious lar.. hahah.. Cant blame him also lar.. he cycled ALL THE WAY frm his house to mine... ..... .... .... .... ... ......... .... .... ..... hahaHaha bahh.. had so much fun still.. hehe.. then after which gone for late supper.. or shld i call it early breakfast.. haha.. b4 sending him back home... on my van of coz.. cause.. dat ass was too tired to cycle home.. haha... haha anyway i'm obliged to send him home.. dat's wat "ErrHmmm!!"...a gentleman like me should do mah!! haha..

Pardon me..

2005-05-03T11:29:00.000+08:00

Guys guys listen up, i've got sth to tell u all.. Dear fans and admirers of my blog, i hereby apologise to u guys for this late posts for e past week. I know it must be tough on u guys to wait for me to update my blog.. sigh sorry to have let u all wat until ur necks r so fucking long... hai hai... so sorry. hahahahha~.. yeah right. Seriously lar.. both the pcs at home are down. Dat's y i "lun luo" to coming to camp to use their fucking slow computers.. haha..which is forever "not responding".. Kana Lan.. SEE?? See the sacrifices i made for u fans n admirers?? But.. it's alright, i dun mind taking all these sacrifices. For u guys.. hahaha... touch bo... hahahaha...

Anyways, i'm now in Officer mess lar.. doing sme shit work dat requires my high knowledge of computers.. hahaha.. :P which even jin hui can do.. haha.. u all can expect the level of knowledge required bah.. Well, anyway jin hui claiming dat he's too tired after staring at the monitor for 10secs, he's currently "resting his eyes"... ...... ..... leaving me to no choice but to update my blog.. hahaha... =P

The past wk.. hmm.. been pretty much enjoyable ar.. not bad. Picked up a new hobby?? dunno if i can classify dat as a hobby or just a 3sec thing.. So shall just wait n see bah. This new thing i touched on's called BOWLING.. haha.. hey dun laugh lor. Dun think dat it's just a stupid sport dat any kid can do w/.. wait till u see me.. even me.. hav difficulty in hitting even one pin down sometimes.. haha.. or i'm just lame lousy(but dun think so lar). Dat's why i lik this game so much.. cause it's challenging.. N i LUV challenges... hehe.

After last post of complaining n complaining abt NS, i've decided to take my life to a higher scale... to "CHAO KENG" - play smart.. in NS. hahah.. dat's why i've only been in camp for 3 days last wk.. hehe.. not too bad for a start eh.. haha. So was on Dental appointment last friday. Dental appt to Nee Soon camp w/ hui. Went dere in the morning.. in hoping to get a clean white teeth out of the dental room, my... my... my teeth was still fucking the same colour.. haha.. tot dat i could hav got polishing n scaling of all my teeth for free?! Was damn disappointed lor.. coz the doc only did scale sme parts of my teeth.. n merely polished the front 4 of my teeth.. the ones i use to show my glamourous SMILE~.. Disappointed sia.. sigh. As for hui.. haha.. he's is worst ar.. think he condemned the dentists dere liao.. shall keep it mum lar. But no doubt lor.. hui's teeth were much neater den mine.. if i hav teeth like his, i would hav got a DARLIE commercial.. esp w/ my good looks.. hahaha.. which a pity.. dat guy dun have lar.. haaha talk cork lar.

Den was bowling which i still suck at.. but finally broke my record.. n got hundred plus.. CHEERS!! hahaha... after which was movies.. err.. Divergence.. a HK movie. now e critics.. the movie.. on the whole wasnt dat bad.. but part of the show was ruined by Aaron kwok's lousy acting.. pardon me for being so straight.. but it's really LAN!! touching scenes dat he acted in smehow potrayed a comedy out of it.. sigh.. i know it's mean lar.. but if u really cant act so well.. like tony leung did,.. pls dun waste my money lar... pls.. still i gave the show 3.5 stars for the story n hard work e other artists put in to accomodate w/ aaron.. hahahah.... n CREEPS.. err.. foes.. pls go watch e show.. it's nice.

Home's much quieter w/o my mum.. for the wkends. kindda missed her n wondering how's she's doing.. but kind of enjoy the freedom i have now.. haha.. contradicting eh.. but anyways.. Mother's Day coming... hmm.. still wondering wat to get for my mum.. .....

Went out w/ melvin n hui on sunday. Was to celebrate melvin's bdae?? haha.. which i dun think we did.. merely came out to acc him.. anyways.. it arent a bad outing though.. haha. Shhh.. went for dinner den shortly bowling again.. dots.. haha.. den back home. Correction, melvin went back home. Me n hui were still hungry becoz of e early dinner.. or coz we are lame getting fat.. haahaa.. den drove out to hav e porridge we both yearn for.. n... back to.. my new hobby.. hahahahah~...

Shit army

2005-04-26T00:27:00.000+08:00

Phew... had a long day today. 1st early in the morning, went ice skating in Jurong, which later i found that i've no talent in coz i was too afraid of falling and making a fool out of myself in the skating pool in front of all the professional skaters including an asshole.. called Jinhui. Hahahaha... no doubt, he's now better than me. But honestly it was a too expensive sport to begin w/. Esp when we only got $500plus to spend for the rest of the month. Sigh.. the thought of army makes me sick man.. SHIT lor.. really hav to agree w/ hui ar(coz i seldom did.. hehe.. kiddin'). Everyweek n everyday we book into the camp, we basically do nothing but area cleaning and staring at blanks, the four walls and each other for the rest of the time.. u cant imagine how small my peanut brain is now... u know what, smetimes i really want to take an x-ray on my brain to see if it's shrinking.... hmm.. let me guess.. i dun think it's even working.. haha.. yeah yeah i know what u guys are thinking... it nvr did work right?? nb... CB..

Anyway back to today.. hmm.. den after e skating went bowling which i also sucks at.. yeah kindda wondering if there's anything i'm good at... ahahaa.... NOT I BULLSHIT lor.. it's really i've nothing i'm good at.. SHIT lar.. dun talk abt it liao lar... Sian lor.. haha.. But still i enjoyed the day. So this past week i've watched 3 movies. which i'll give review on now.. 1st. The interpreter. This movie.. no comments. Cause i'm too tired that i slept thru it. But was highly recommended by hui. 2nd. The infection. A stupid cork show which has no endings. the ending really sucks... sucks so much tat u wont even get the whole picture after the show end... It's just a piece of shit.. Dat i dun even know the movie end.. until the credits are out.. cause i'm FUCKING WAITING FOR THE ENDING!!.. by the way.. forgot to write.. went to watch w/ my bmt friends... hahaha... kok.. haha cannot make it lar.. becoming more n more like sister den buddy.. sigh... wake up ur idea dude...3rd... Wet dreams. A korean sex comedy. Pretty lame jokes dey tell.. but overall.. wasnt too bad lar.. for $6.50 show. But really not worth $8.50...

Oh ya.. ppl.. for those who seldom read newspaper like me, the movie tix are going to increase by a dollar starting frm may1... haha.. so ppl pls go ahead to complain in any forum.. or even write to the government to tell dem to eat shit.. thanks! btw.. shun bian ask dem to release us frm the army shit.. 2 yrs of shit army is fucking long... - anomymous

.... ... ..... COS Duty

2005-04-19T21:56:00.000+08:00

Damn sian.. A nights off tuesday night, and i'm in this pathetic camp alone. haha. The lone guy. Sigh.. Bo bian. I got no "ren yuan" mah, so no one to acc me. Pathetic fuck. Except for shuan, tze hong n wen kang etc. The rest sigh.. wasnt friend enough lar. Haha.. yeah right. At least not so bad, i had the whole spec mess by myself and was told to lock it up myself. So here i am!! Haha.. on the bright side, it wasnt that bad after all eh? Hhaha... Please agree w/ me.. Cant you see i'm trying very hard to be optimistic abt this situation?? Cme on give me a chance.. FUCKers. Dun you guys heard abt the yellow ribbon project? Include me in it. P lus plus now my hair look like i've just been released frm e prison too.. $20bucks for it. Didnt dare to tell my mum abt the price when she asked. Hhaha.. merely told her it was above $10. :P Hmm.. Alrite if you guys notice i've changed sth abt my paragraphing. Wondering if it looks better.. Think otherwise lei.. hehe..... .... ... ..... ..... .... ....

Happier Life

2005-04-17T22:43:00.000+08:00

Sniff sniff... I'm so SICK!! fuck lor.. so irritating. It's bad enough that i'm staying home for a Sunday and now i'm sick. It would be classified as a NO LIFE freak for me. Haha.. Err.. i mean if it was in the past. The present me?? yeah.. really got things thought out straight. REALLY okay!! No more bullshitting. Am going to treat my family n friends much nicer frm this very second on.. But hey.. dun test my patience okay!?

Okay back to being sick. No idea where i get the flu germs from. Was having running nose this morning.. n been rubbing off the mucus flowing down the "tap" eversince i woke up. Yeah so you can expect how red n big my nose is now.. hahah.. thinkin it's just a sainus(sp?) i nvr took much notice to it.. until the germ evolved into fever. Damn sick.. my body's feels so sore.. no mood for anything. If a naked woman is to stand in front of me now, haha dun think i'll get any reaction too.. hahaha... not dat i'm impotent okay!? is i'm sick ar. Gonna gulp more water down my throat. Be right back.. DUHZ... kana scolded by my mum.. haha.. coz drank lots of cold water. Guys.. haha.. need u all to "ping ping li". Dun think dere's anything wrong drinking cold water when you get fever right? Is there?? I got logic one mah. For those fuckers who dun stand on my side, You see if you get fever and u drink cold water, u're able to cool down body temperature mah. Then only u will feel much better. CORRECT?? BAHH.. anyways.. whether i'm right or wrong, i'm going to stick to my own logic. wahhahaa... :p I've to clarify, i'm not stubborn.. i'm following my principle.. okay? hehe.

Hmm.. let me see.. nvr did any updates abt last wk.. haha.. anyways cant remember much ar. Oh ya.. only remember one. I DIDNT GET ANY MARKSMAN THIS YEAR. haha.. no big deal. only 200 mah.. no big deal one... NO BIG DEAL!!! NOTHING.. IT'S FINE!! REALLY!! $200 ONLY MAH!! SMALL CASH. CHEAP MONEY. nothing la. it's nothing. Just feel tat CAPS express myself better. hahaha... So wat happen lei.. tis week.. errr.... hmm.. dunno lei. Everything just feel much happier after i'm enlightened. Haha.. yeah talking abt enlightened, was out w/ hui yesterday nite after our NDP PA stuff. Sigh a major cork up at the PA stuff. Duhz.. dun wish to dwell on it. Everything just wasnt smooth at 1st but went well.. So went home.. den drove out to have supper w/ e latter. Went to jurong lor. haha.. had e nice nice filling porridge(I'm lovin' it) and had a talk. ahaha.. dunno why.. after the talk, i feel so much enlightened by e latter.. hahaa... feel i understand him more also lar.. hahaa... e main point is i felt really happier after the talk. the latter's a really good listener n talker.

Then today, other then being sick n dwelling at home, went to PP to meet up w/ leen. Yeah.. been a long time since we last met up or chat. So had dinner(the only meal i had for e day) w/ her.. n blah lor.. hahah.. She's getting more n more glamourous.. haha.. if dat's e word to use.. hehe.. haha she better be not reading this.. or she's going to fly..~

Something triggered me

2005-04-15T20:06:00.000+08:00

*YawnZ* just woke up from my evening nap..hehe see how "tiring" army life can be?? LAME.. Hahaha...well as per usual, it's another book out friday. Yeah.. so as expected i'm now sitting in front of my bro's pc(mine's down). But somehow things felt different. Actually felt great booking out back home. Been a long time since i felt being home's a blessing. It's a blessing to have my parents with me and showering love and concern to me. Earlier today, an officer's filial piety touched me deeply and triggered some of the feelings i had long buried deep inside my heart. Filial piety it is. Something i've failed as a son. Listening to his trembling voice talking about his weak n sick mother almost caused me a tear but i had it controlled rolling it in my eyes...

Lalalala~

2005-04-04T11:46:00.000+08:00

Lalalala~ haha. now in spec mess. Taking a break frm e sai kang appointed. Damn sian. Early of the week and i'm given this shit. Good thing's at least the platoon is down. Except for the usual asshole(not to be named to protect his reputation- although he doesn have a nice one.hehe. here's sme hint. XW). Sian hui's not around no one to talk cork or be angry at. Anyways the following wk's going to be a packed one. w/ IMT n Range coming up.. Sigh. Range. Guess i'm not getting any marksmanship this year. All thanks to.. anyways will try to get lor. Just do my best. $200 here i come!! Hehe.. as if.

So hmm... last wk. Nth much happening as usual. Except i received e summon i've been awaiting for. Haha. A fine of $200 bucks. That's why is in need for the reward from Range. Calculating 24 points given per year, i've already demerited 8 + the current 12 points. Damn.. I dun wan to kill my license wor. Hmm.. my mum volunteered to take the 12points for me, but i rejected. Just want to be responsible for what i've done. Haha.. regretting now. Sigh was so 'man' then. Shit me!

Skipped ACCT lesson on wed. Correction. Shld be late not skipped. Haha. Majority of us wanted to skip the lesson. Coz it's just on revision. Cme on lar. Waste of time only. So all we wanted was a break from all the shit. So wanted to sleep thru e whole day. hehe at least that's my thinking. But was waken by sgt fong n sme guy. Nagging n nagging us to go. Sigh so dragged our feets there. By the time we were there, we were already late by 1hr plus. And was only in the field say for 15mins?? Haha. This n that. Thinking when everything's come to a smooth, we were summoned to meet Big Asshole - BSO after our friday ACCT lesson(which we attended). Haha. Dun mistaken. He's a nice guy. But just wasnt sastified. He heard news of us trying to skip the lesson on wed. And was rather pissed off n disappointed i guess. So he wanted to see us lor. Blah blah blah went thru my ears thru my brain den out of my ears again. Haha. Anyways we were each awarded w/ an extra duty for that. Fair enough. He didn attend sme of the lessons n he was awarded w/ nothing. Shit.

Sigh nights out days. Were the usual shitty. All thanks to me. Me n my temper. Come on. You gotta control yourself dude.. Ohmm... Ohmmm..... Had a long talk w/ hui the very night i go ki siao. Sigh some memories i thought i could have long forgotten came flowing back the night. Nvr like the idea of sharing my family skelotons w/ my friends. But some how it came easy on him.

Then went on Sat night. A drive out lor. The usual. Haha. 1st went jurong to have one of the nicest popiah. Hmm.. actually was pretty tempted by Hui's hokkien mee.. Haha. Luckily he's evil plots didnt suceed. Haha. Then shortly drove around. Around Singapore. Haha pretty much from one end to another. Then to the Initial D route i would call it. a place near the lim chu kang cemetry. You will be surprised w/ the scenery you can see across to our neighbouring country. But quite a nightspot i would say. Other then the lightings of the busy night and the vast sea view, all you get are moquito bites. Haha. Was there to challenge the roads. Hehe.. anyways, on our way back home, on a quite long endless road where only few cars will go pass, we happened to notice a stationary van off road on the opp direction. Hui nvr took much notice as he's driving.. haha n he's a cork. But i saw lor. The van was in a damn wrecked condition and there's the lights were still on. Meaning it's a accident. In short, the uncle was seriously injured. He's legs were trapped by the dashboard that were pushed n crushed forward. Pretty wrecked lar. I got limited vocab k.. So cant describe so well. So we called the police lor. We were the only ppl there. Shortly 5mins later, another bunch of people came for more help. Helpful singaporeans. To be continued..

Singaporeans..

2005-03-27T21:39:00.000+08:00

If you drop your shoe for some reason into the track, you DO NOT jump into the track to pick them up. Understand children? It is but a SHOE. Stupid just plain stupidity. I know it's bad talking abt a deceased but sorry i just dun understand. Why would he ever do that. Why would his fiancee ever encourage him to do so?!

This is no freak accident nor any accident. It's a suicide. 1st thing first. How did e shoe's tat tied to his foot ever come out? Even if it does how did it get to the train track? Didn your mums taught u guys not to play on e mrt station? 2nd. Okay Mayb the shoe flew on it's own to the track.. Weee..~ . But why would someone w/ sme common sense jump off to the track to retrieve a shoe?! Alrite.. mayb e shoe's some sentimental memory. Fair enough. 3rd. Is his fiancee just as lame? Maybe he convinced his fiancee tat he's some superhero n he could get the shoe n be back by her side harmless. Comeon.. u think the sign dat says "DANGER" on e mrt track's for show? Fair enough mayb she's just as lame. 4th.Even if he does.. dun we have this mrt tracker that tells when the train's coming.. in how many minutes?? k maybe he didn see it. 5th. When he wanted to get out of the track, why arent there anyone else but her fiancee tried to rescue him?? He's no YOKOZUNA or sme fat ass. All he needs just 2-3 mature men to rescue him. Judging frm e time of death, it's considered peak period. Sure dere's someone else standing aside doing nth but watching n eating popcorns(sounds like watching a movie).. All i deduce frm this news, selfish singaporeans. They are just too used to being called around n do things. So much so that they dun have a mind of their own now.. KAM LAN. And as for e deceased, i wouldn blame anything on them. Sure if they were given a 2nd chance, they would do the same thing again.. or would dey?? (they are mud afterall..) haha just kiddin.. NOT... wahaha.. still i show sympathy to e deceased n his family. Anyways i know this has got no nothing to do with me. Blah blah blah... Just trying to show n get my point across. It's my blog your talking abt. I say what i want. :P haha...

Hmm.. so i spent my whole morning reading this news.. haha..SLOW rite.. i hate reading chinese newspaper. It gives me headache.. all e words.. so small n all cramped together. Now i see why old ppl reading w/ magnifying glass. Hmm.. shall get one in the future... haha. Sian ar... bookin in later... SIAN 1/2. All thanks to sme Retard Swine Man in short RSM. Really hav no idea why he got all e fucking strength n free time to check on our area cleaning. YEAH area cleaning... get this rite. Worst still he's not frm our unit. So last wk we have to spend our whole day doing spring cleaning for our bunk n staircase. LAME. but i dun mind actually.. hahaa... at least i know i'm living in a clean environment. Just dun make it a often thing. Plus now i have a clean toilet to pee n shit n bathe in.. Oh man god bless e TOILET. Sme morons pls stop peeing n shitting like an untrained dog. Even dogs know its territory to shit n pee in i dun get it why humans dun. KAOZ.. imbeciles..

Had a short wk last wk. Nth much to remember. Except abt the area cleaning thing. Oh ya talking abt area cleaning. Mr Guo Xunwei. I dun care if u are reading this or not.. if you do, i really hope tis can get it to ur mind.. if u dont... den leave it be lor.. ahahaha... BAHH... nvm.. guess i'll let it go. *Taking a deep breathe*.. haha learning how to control my temper. Haha.. lame rite.. why would one need to do such a thing.. hmm... i dunno..mayb for a better self n to be a better friend? it feels good when one is forgiven in my heart. It's so much better than taking it to myself.. n bottling it up.. thinking nth happened. n nth will. It just sucks. So.. if you are interested, pls make a call to 99545938. Our customer service will be most willingly to give you ur advice. Dun hide anymore.. hahah... Someone pls be stupid enough to call this. Mayb i can for once see my blog in the newspaper.. haha.. den i'll be so fucking proud tat smeone's reading my blog.

Then was out on thurs night for hmm... Fist of Fury. Sme HK movie by stephen fung n twinz!! hhaha... man dey are cute.. KAwaii... my dear charlene... hahah.. too engrossed w/ e two beauties dat i couldn give a damn abt e storyline.. hahaha.. talk cork la. E story's normal.. wat's nice abt is is e moves lor.. i like e fighting part.. it makes it looks as if after i graduate frm ACCT, i'll be able to fight like dem.. haaha.. really lei.. nice moves.. pretty faces... not bad de wor..

Then friday. Was hme until aft. Pretty bored n sian ar.. no one asked me out also.. Dun like e idea of always me asking ppl out.. so was out w/ ben n e guys e moment dey asked me out.. hahaha.. Just hanging ard... in e town. Went to some "cha guan" and hang ard dere for 3hrs plus.. hahaa... 3hrs plus leh.. longer den a movie.. haha u can imagine my butt getting cramped after all those hrs. Then walked ard lor.. wanted to catch a movie. But e guys no money. Pretty fine w/ dat.. It's not always e need to catch a movie when outside.. hahaa.. Den went on to playing billard instead. Haha.. although not my cup of tea lah.. but dun mind sitting ard to watch dem play lar.. can ka jiao dem also mah.. free also.. hahaa.. no harm.

Then e nite.. went out w/ hui. Went to CCSS. haha.. it brings so much memories.. n i suggested to climb in. Haha.. nvr tot hui would agree upon it so fast lei... hhaah really pretty surprised dat he would do tis w/me also. haha.. anyways.. really enjoyed lor. Haha... almost kana busted by e security.. dunno wat to say lar.. so touch sia.. weep weep.. see i'm crying.. hahahaaa talk cork. Appreciate lar... sia la.. next time we shall do sth more daring... how abt it sia.. dat's my dare devil mah.. ahaha... remember e forum i joined... hmm... shall go w/ e muds once in a while... hehe how abt dat.. hmmhmm... den went bukit batok n let Zun test test drive.. hahaha... karankabok... haha.. a bit headache at 1st ar.. but wat can i say, PCSS-ians learn fast.. we are smart ppl okay!!.. den went to usual n had a light supper dere..sent Zun hme n head to changi beach.. n sme wind blew blew n back home.. Sigh..sigh.. wanted to stay longer..

Then Sat ar.. hmm.. was supposed to go cycling w/ cat shit ar... but e usual plans always dun go e way u wanted them to. Rain came dat aft... den couldn be bothered to wait at hme for e latter too.. always cant settled on one thing. Sian ar.. Pretty pissed off when i'm settled on one decision n a sudden change to another. So i myself just sticked to e original plan... n cycled to East coast. haha.. e rain den got bigger... n bigger.. haahaha... den bo bian lor.. went to one of my old "friend" working place.. to find him n get clean up.. ahaha... Just me lar... if i have a plan n i'm settled on it.. any change in it.. i'd feel weird. Having e feeling of just going ahead w/ e original plan. Then was dere lor.. till nite... thinkin nth to do also mah... so stayed on n helped out. n head back at 12plus. Then home.. nth to do. Drove out lor.. sian wanted sme companion but lazy to ask.. dunno if anyone's free or not also.. So just head on lor... drive around aimlessly.. hahah wasting all e petrol.. hahaa... but i enjoy lar.. den if getting tired n want to rest.. just grab a drink frm 7-eleven n go to sme nearby reservoir n layback n enjoy e scenery. Arbo head down to sme kopitiam n watch tv w/ e uncles. then only got back hme at 3plus4. Man i luv tis lifestyle..Haha.. n back to sleep.. until tis morn lor. read e newspaper abt e MRT guy again. N spent my day rotting at home...

Minutes to spare..

2005-03-21T05:05:00.000+08:00

Bahaha.. now e time's 5plus in e morning.. Just came back frm a drive out w/ hui. Booking in ard 50mins later.. Arent think i'm going to touch my bed for e day.. oh btw.. Greetings! n A very good Morning ppl..!! Haha yeah i know it's too early for even breakfast.. but it's just me lar(btw i had my breakfast alreadi..haha had a cheesy prata.. man i luv cheese.. i'll eat anything w/ a cheese.. except shit lar of coz.).. i like to do what i wan to do.. n i always do things my way.. Well at least u get to see a more standard post compared to my previous post mah.. So so.. hmm.. what shld i touch on.. Very well.. lets begin frm 13th March.

What can i say.. its a Sunday.. n i have to help out in sme crap NDP rehearsal in Kranji camp. Helping out in e PA system. Damn low dat day ar.. cme on.. it's a Sunday..duh.. for goodness sake.. i cant think of any reasons y sme civilians would waste their Sunday doing all these NDP rehearsals.. thinking of as if e country done sth good for dem to repay. Stupidity is e word i find on their forehead.. Esp e muds.. hahaah.. dun ask y i have so much against muds. You wont want to know.. ahaha.. Anyways.. e day's arent fufiling at all.. dun feel e pride for doing such sacrifice for e country.. or even e Army.. HELLO!! I'm forcing myself..n dragging my feet to get myself there. Good thing abt it was dat e whole rehearsal lasts only for 4hrs.. n i get an exchange for a one day off!! Weee... haha..Erhemm!! But hor.. smeone lar.. didn go for e fucking shit.. also get a day off lor.. wah lau... So FAIR sia.. ahaha.. kiddin'.. Oh before i forget.. sth BIG BIG happen e very morning of e Sunday.. Hahahaa... Everything's a flash ar.. Cant n dun wan to remember much ar.. all i know n can say is.. i did everything in a fit of anger.. so let bygones be bygones.. Shall not let it affect my happy mood now..

Then was out on Monday w/ hui to catch Hitch.. haha.. yeah dunno y also.. suddenly find myself so lonely n so stuck w/ e latter.. Hahah.. kiddin.. anyways its a nice show lar.. fucking funny lor.. den met up w/ qlong, heng n e rest... dey were out for nites out.. so met dem for dinner.. n shortly back home.. haha.. -_-"' Then e rest of e week... nth but shit n shit n lots of shit.. not for me.. haha.. but for e ndp helpers.. me still a slacker like before :P check tis out friends...

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Anyways.. aiyah mahuan.. running late liao.. forgot wat happen liao lar.. dunno wat else to write.. hmm.. hmm.... so i just slide my way thru e rest of e wk lor.. then came fri.. remaining of us minus e ndps' were told to go to Khatib camp to support in sme fucking swim meet.. Haha.. funny lor.. imagine NS guys pretty nth much to do but go to swimming complex to do cheerleading.. kaoz.. imagine NS guys in mini skirts n pongpong jumping n screeching ard.... hmm.. pretty kinky eh.. hahhaa.. FUCK it's so... nice~.. hahahahhaha.. just kidding. Anyway we ended up in Changi Naval Base lar.. N met ZH dere.. ahaha damn long nvr see him liao.. Surprised he still remember an asshole like me.. wahahaa... Then e nite drove out again.. u might hav guessed whom i'm w/ again.. haha..my bro haha.. vrroom vrroom.. e usual drove out for supper.. talk cork until ard 4plus i guess.. only managed to reach hme ard 5plus.. n managed to lie on e bed b4 my mum wake up.. SPARED frm e nags.. haha phew.. then slept n slept like a pig until late aft.. woke up.. n start designing my new blog.. haha... hmm.. thinking of getting a new look for it.. e current one looks a bit kiddy sia.. so not like me.. want sth more personal.. haha.. or shld i use e word more mature.. hehe.. well well.. e clocks ticking.. running late.. gotta type fast fast.. lalalalaa..... e 1st time in 2yrs in NS my brain's spinning fast.. squeezing everything out... lalalal..~....

oh ya so was designing e webby until 4plus met up w/ ben.. went to tis thai massage palour in chinatown.. haha.. sorry guys to disappoint u all... i dun ask for special.. haha.. so wont have anything to elaborate on lar.. so sad.. awww... anyways.. after e massaging.. which was pretty worth e $30 odd bucks, we met up w/ e rest of e grp ar.. nvr know of e arrangement beforehand.. so was pretty pissed ar.. but still it's not dat bad. e guys are practically still e same.. so we did wat we used to do.. smetimes i really miss e days.. e days where noone would care abt us.. we just do wat we want to do... no donts but do's.. anyway those were e days lar... so really it's a bless to be out of it too.. but smehow my current life.. hmm.. it's missing sth.. sme colors... it's too plain n ordinary.. too norm.. plus i'm pretty much opened n heard when i'm w/ e guys.. baahh.. forget abt e past man.. so.. hmm.. shortly after all e activities.. went over to one of e guy's place.. haha.. a richy guy.. i luv going to ppl's place.. it just tells so much.. n i luv to see e deco of ppl's place.. it gave me ideas... so where am i.. oh e grp was at his hse.. exploring sth new.. ahaha... liked new stuff.. blah blah blah.. so was only back hme at ard 12plus 1.. pretty seh den.. but still drove out.. need to get things tot out.. so went to my secret place.. haha.. SHH... n was dere.. n after which got hme at 2plus. n was back on my blog.. pretty nth much to do on e net..

Came today... liked i've mentioned e very 1st part was out w/ hui lor.. drove out.. haha.. damn.. i need to go to e toilet... peeing needed... Ciaoz.. shall be back again..~

Screwed..

2005-03-19T03:30:00.000+08:00

No mood for anything now... check my tots of life..

God Bless Minasan..

2005-03-07T23:10:00.001+08:00

God Bless Minasan(everyone).. God pls pls bless me!! although i'm not ur believer.. but pls.. for now forgive watever i've done n bless me.. i dun care which god u are lar.. watever as long as u bless me... I've been blasting n hugging to e toilet e whole day since yesterday nite.. blasting aka diarheoa lar.. haha.. been blasting so much dat i cant feel my butt.. it's numb!! damn fucking tired.. it felt as if i've been fucked a billion times.. hahaha.. yeah pls pardon me for my crudeness.. i've learnt dat frm my friend.. not to mention who.. hehe.. anyway back to my shitting.. haha.. feeling so dehydrated now.. give me a sec.. i go get water.. BACK!! CB must be e Fisherman's FrXXXds dat i've overdosed myself w/.. dunno if it's true or not lar.. but frm hui lar.. he say dat e lozenges contains a small amount of laxative.. So if u consumed too much, u will kana diarheoa lor.. haha.. how i wished i've longed believed him.. hope its not too late?? hahaa.. all e sudden my asshole become tis automatic coffee maker.. sia la.. anyone for coffee?? it's warm.. but smehow sme of e "coffee powder" has yet dissolved lar... eeeks... dat sounds disgusting.. hahahaa.. but dunno why leh.. on e other hand, i smehow enjoyed it.. haha.. not dat i enjoyed e stuff going thru my asshole non stop.. haha dun think dirty hor.. hehe.. it's just dat smehow it sort of cleared my bowels.. in other words.. i've lost weight.. wahaaa.haha.. now my tummy looked smaller.. can do sit up liao.. haha.. 1,2,3,4.... 100 sit up also no kick sia.. *sniff sniff*.. smelling my fingers.. hmm.. recalling... did i washed my hands just now?? hmm.. *sniff sniff*.... wooooo.... damn HIGH sia..!! haha...

So wat happened last wk?? hmm....ehh.... ar....haha dun really remember leh.. like dat lor.. e usual everyday stayed in camp do nth.. but slack ard.. haha.. Army life's just so slack.. So HELLO!!! Tax payers,Civilians n Gals!! wake up ur idea.. if u guys think dat army life's as tough as it describes in e tv advertisement,... hahaha....den i got nth to say lor.. but u guys r dumb enough to believe it.. giving wat crap abt protecting our country, our homeland... n our family... wah lau eh.. cme on lar.. if u guys wan to increase e taxes or wat hor.. pls stop using e army as an excuse lar.. e truth is.. u tax payers are actually paying us army personnels e money to stay in camp to eat n sleep throughout our army life.. n of coz paying sme idiots who signed on to get paid while playing mahjong.. pretty lame rite.. Anyways came monday lar... e day where we finally moved our butt.. haha we were told to move ops boxes out of containers dat were shipped back to Spore.. haha so everyone's doing their own part lor.. den u guys must be thinking i'll be slacking ard in one corner again rite?!!? no lor... in fact i was so garang.. u all wouldn hav guessed... i blocked an oncoming rolling concertina wire w/ my bare hands... fucking BAREHANDS leh!!.. hahaha.. n got myself a deep cut.. but i nvr shed a tear.. sia la.. garang rite?! hahaha.. actually not lar.. dunno y lar.. dat day had sme misunderstandin w/ an idiot lor..dat got me so pissed off n when i'm pissed off, i'm usually not thinking... hahaha so i blocked e stuff w/ my barehands.. GARANG bo...hahha..

Den had my ACCT lessons on tues, wed n fri..err.. dun really noe wat does ACCT stands for lar.. cant be bothered also lar.. it's just sme lesson where u go ard slamming ur partner lor.. hahaha... dunno y leh.. i enjoyed myself.. i dunno abt my partner lar.. but all i noe is.. it wouldn be unusual if i happen to break his hands or leg one day.. haha.. coz i'm tis cork fellow who just couldn care much.. ahahah... so i shall let my partner remained unnamed to protect his reputation.. hhaaahha.. on e overall it's a form of good exercise lor.. where we learn how to counter moves.. haha.. machiam bruce lee like dat leh.. not bad de wor... Still e only bad thing is... we have to have our head gear on during e session.. as a safety precaution.. haha.. imagine..e head gear.. not only has it been passed down frm batches after batches.. currently, its still shared among hundreds of ppl.. liew.. damn err... imagine e sweat.. n everything... wooo.. HIGH i tell u... high.. n it causes breakouts on my flawless skin.. hahaah.. damn it.. sigh..dere goes my beautiful skin.. hahahahaha.... Thurs.. had my SOC.. wasnt quite prepared for it coz it came so suddenly.. like my diarheoa.. if i try farting.. god noes.. e coffee making session will come so suddenly.. like a river flow... hahaa.. ok.. back to my SOC.. tis time round had more ACTIGEN-E in e morning.. damn it.. i die die must pass tis SOC.. i told myself.. cant let myself down.. i'll try everything to pass tis.. imagine lar.. i've alreadi stoop so low dat i would even listen to sme crap theory abt milo gives u wings... ahahah...jkin lar.. dun play play hor.. e ACTIGEN-E actually works!! hahaa.. i've got my personal best at 9:02!! hahaha...i guessed.. but dunno if got magic pen or not lar.. if got.. i wouldn feel as much happy lor.. honestly.. kns.. but wasnt happy abt my performance too.. coz i didn really complete e whole obstacle.. coz fell off e swing trainer half way thru.. cannot take it lar.. my wound opened again.. but managed to finish all other obstacles.. w/ my manly tolerance.. hahaha... wahhh... where's my applause?? hahaha... must show encouragement mah... hehe..

Then fri book out liao went out w/ hui ar... need to make full use of my time.. coz having my COS duty on saturday.. haha damn touch sia.. e latter burned a cd dat i wanted.. haha which i'm currently listening to now... anyways was out to catch Prestinct 13. a fully action packed show lor.. very very packed ar.... haha but not my show ar...e whole scene just happened in e fucking police station.. ahaha.. but still will give it a 3star lor.. for effort.. ahaha.. den came Sat lor.. e fucking cork up day for me.. was informed of dat there will be a power cut off frm 1-6pm.. damn.. imagine lar...5 hrs of no air con.. no entertainment... no nth.. w/ u alone in e stuffy room...haha machiam playing Survivor wor.. wah lan eh... buay tahan lor.. hahaaa.. so left me w/ no choice but to go back bunk n sleep lor.. hehe.. excuses... n just when i tot nth could be worse.. misfortunate stuff befalls on edwin.. wanted to be there... nah shall not elaborate abt it.. rather private.. hehe.. shh.. unless u r close to me.. anyways was worried sick e whole day dat i even tot of AWOL lor.. hahaha.. lame rite.. couldn get stuff out of my mind..lucky i'm calm enough.. hehe n got hui ard ar to entertain me.. although e fucker was out enjoying himself lar.. ahhaaha.. kidding lar.. Really GOD BLESS EVERYONE lor...

Sunday damn tiring.. was disturbed of my sleep by shaun.. hahaha.. was sleeping in e bunk ar.. he woke me up..coz he's e next day COS.. hahaha supposingly to take over me.. but i'm sleeping my way in e bunk.. anyways.. woke up liao.. nvr go hme str8.. went to find my friend.. den evening went out w/ hui.. gone VROOM VROOM.. haha.. gone out to seek nice nightspots.. haha.. went to mount faber.. wahh.. damn we found a new spot.. w/ really nice scenery n all..n e ambience's dere.. damn "NAP" ar.. hahaha can see couples make out also.. haha.. opps.. dun mean to leh.. den e usual stuff lar.. talk cork sing song.. talked things out straight.. eat supper n went to our lau di fang.. ahahhaha... tis time round mama.. it has nth to do w/ hui.. is i force him to go one... ahahah.. watever.. btw added sme tots to my blog.. go check it out.

It's FREAKING HOT!!

2005-02-26T05:54:00.000+08:00

CB... e weather in Spore's getting uncontrollably hot!! Just had my bathe not long ago.. n now i'm still sweating.. even in air con room.. damn.. tis aircon sure needs sme servicing... haha... tis kind of $$ cant save one leh.. Anyways.. been a long long time since i've last updated my blog.. N noe dat u guys must have missed me so much?!.. hahaha.. as if dere's many ppl reading tis.. only gave tis webby blog to my close friends.. ppl dat i can trust lar.. but wat dey do to my url.. i dunno lar.. n i dun care.. just dun let me hear anything abt it..

hmm.. now listening to David Tao's new album - Tai Ping Sheng Shi.. haha.. like wat hui said.. it's good..not really nice frm e start.. but e more u listen to it, it just gets better.. I nvr liked noisy music.. but these, i'll give it a go.. haha Sigh sigh.. dun talk abt e cd liao lar... kip sim sia.. heart pain ar.. kaoz.. now i noe wat is hao xin mei hao bao lor.. dog bite lu dongbin ar.. so much for being so kind.. sme kind of brother ar... donovan.. andy.. puix3.. brother?? fucker lar.. brother... hahahah... kidding lar.. cannot take joke den dun read lor.. haha..

Things back in camp r totally diff now.. e whole battalion's on e low period now.. meaning more work for HQ lor.. more shit work.. esp when e NDP's coming ard e corner n our unit's involved.. basically now.. e signal platoon been separated into 2main grps.. one follows BSM's orders n go outcamp to help out in NDP shit work... e other stay in camp.. n basically do nth.. hehe... guess u guys would have guessed which i belong to lar.. ahaha.. standard one leh.. e slack grp lar of coz.. haha.. den monday supposingly everyone's supposed to be involved in supporting our unit in e Arty road relay shit lar..but hui's on guard.. only left me,shaun,alex n e new guy who cant stop talking... while e rest are on off.. den alex intro me to this really GREAT deal lar.. saying we just hav to help BSM w/ sme simple shit n we can escape e road relay thing n slack out while e rest outcamp.. so we went down at say 12.30.. coz remember clearly dat my aft nap is disturbed by alex.. ahhahaha god noes... we were doing e shit until 12plus one in e night.. doing e sawing.. sanding.. n writing... n for ur information we were only half way thru to wat we are supposed to do... not dat we slack or wat leh.. is.. it really requires a lot of manwork.. den by den e nite.. i'm already deadbeat... immediately went to sleep after e shit.. thinkin it's finally over n dat bsm will find smeone else to replace us.., haha.. NO WAY!! ahah.. we r to continue e shit e following day.. to finish all e planks.. damn it.. BAHH... i'll stop talkin abt e shit...

so tis n dat.. e NDP grp went to CCK sec to help out in e rehearsals.. while we e slacker grp stay in camp to sleep.. n rest.. ehhehe.. so shiok.. w/o BSO.. w/o HOHOHO... n w/o YEEKS... life's nvr been better.. hahaha lalalal~... anything else..? hmm... oh ya.. den yesterday finally our turn to go outcamp.. hahaa.. MZ, hui n me went CCK sec to set up e PA system.. haha.. wahh.. see many sec gals.. sme really pretty.. esp one.. angelic face.. sia.. but HEY dey r too small for me... so was dere to set up e PA system.. n after dat..slack one corner.. haha.. so was dere until 5plus6 lor.. while e rest in camp got to book out early at 3plus... kns... so FAIR lor.. sigh.. haha but nvm lar.. dey suffered more.. so i got nth to say lar.. den after which went out w/ hui in e eve for "A series of unfortunate events" sme show by jim carrey.. quite a disappointing show lar.. not as expected lor..dat's all i can say.. its more of a story based movie lor.. had sme man to man talk w/ hui haha... talk cork lar... n got to noe e latter better lor.. n talked abt my past history.. haha nvr liked talking abt dat.. esp e skeletons.. but smehow it just came easy on him.. haaha... den only got hme ard 4 plus.. n woke up tis mornin say.. 10plus 11... coz got a ktv session w/ rene n ling.. haha.. was too tired to sing ar.. so only sang a few songs.. but.. BUT... wahahaha.. these few songs are good enough to have their ears clean up.. hahaa.. rene said my singing improved wor.. wahaha... so happy... although i noe it might not be true lar.. but i still very happy leh.. hahaaha.. shortly after went for dinner.. den dey went back hme.. haha n i went to leen's place.. was dere to update tis... hahah tooo bored to stay at hme... haha.. so went dere to talk cork sing song lor... nvr stayed long ar.. coz not fang bian ar.. not nice for her parents too.. So back hme lor... again.. so sian.. no tv shows on both e spore channels.. how i wish i've got SCV or watsoever... at least sth to entertain tis lone soul.. weep weep.. haha... Sian ar... Spore just sucks.. internet nth to surf... cant d/l tis n dat... tv.. no shows.. all damn fuck up... go out.. no place to go.. all e same.. kaoz.. haha.. i'm just living in tis 5class jail.. BAHH enough of e complaining.. so was online lar... bo bian nth to do.. so rather spend my time on tis... or porn hahahaha... fucker rite.. haha anyways was online updating e blog ar... n was tempting for supper.. haha.. my appetite is growing..!!! help me!! hahaa.. so much for my new yr resolutions.. damnn!! so went out w/ hui for e hunting.. standard places we go.. hmm... guess it's time i go search for new locations.. shall check dat out later.. nah.. think i'll check now before my STM's back..

Long long ago...

2005-02-08T18:41:00.000+08:00

Long long ago.. in e eastern part of e globe, there's this little country called New Zealand... haha bahh.. i sucks in writing.. anyway Yeahhh!! I'm back frm New Zealand.. Landed on tis homeground on tis wed(2/2).. Geez.. to be honest.. i missed everything abt Spore.. my family.. my friends... everything.. except for e weather.. Freaking hot weather.. Summer for e whole yr.. Sian..

e 1st day of departure.. met hui n went to e airport together.. cant remember much.. except dat.. e usual cork me.. actually forgot to bring e digi cam i borrowed along to new zealand.. damn it!!! Corkster me..!! i actually left it on my bed... kaoz... To think dat i'll be missing all e nice scenery w/ me inside.. damn low sia... last minute also hard to get a instant camera.. sigh sigh.. so off we went.. to New Zealand on a 9hrs direct flight.. nvr like flying.. bo liao.. seat dere like statue for 9hrs?? i can nvr seat still.. so always walk up n down e aeroplane for toilet.. cme on.. dat's e only place i can go.. So just gotta *REN!!!* hmm.. after e flight.. ohh yeah..!!! Nth can describe tis feeling guys... e feeling of e cold air.. blowing towards u... Haha.. my face feels so clear.. hahaa.. dat's e most i can describe abt e air dere... Den after which we took a 7hrs coach ride to e Waiouru camp.. throughout e bus ride.. nice scenery all e way... e greenery... e blue sea w/ e sun shining thru e clear water.. damn.. a pity i'm dere for training..

Shortly we arrived e camp.. eh wrong.. shld be Longly we arrived at e camp.. haha.. e bunk's machiam hotel lik dat.. so nice.. plus.. clean big toilets.. n free washing machine n dryer.. kaoz.. i cant ask for much.. Lived e bunk w/... err.. Melvin.. n ShuKiong n one driver.. haah forgot his name wor.. oh ya Jiarong... not bad lar my bunk mates.. haha.. bo bian lar.. cant change.. hehe... hav to live w/ dem sigh sigh.. hahahaha.. hmm.. wat else to write.. after settling down, dere's nth much to do.. but sleep lor.. haha.. only slept at 1am.. coz... e time dere 1am is Spore's 6.00pm..haha a major diff of 5hrs.. so even at 1am.. i cant sleep well too..

Everyday.. morning woke up at 5.45am.. for breakfast.. haha.. e meals dere are damn filling... n nice... esp e dinner.. haha.. got desserts smemore wor.. n e desserts are really nice.. man.. i'll kill to live in e camp.. haha.. got a shop called HOT SHOTS also..dere got rent vcds n dvds... porn also got.. liew.. wasted i dun hav tv n dvd player.. haha.. things dere are naturally more ex compared to spore.. except for their beer.. haha cheaper den their normal coke lor.. CORK rite.. lucky i dun lik fizzy drinks.. hmm wat else.. so lik dat lor.. go for Exercise.. as 84!! haha.. e best appointment in Signals.. hahahaa... u can ask ard.. haha.. :P. So exercise.. nth much to write lar... except for e cold weather.. especially at Paradise Valley.. u guys wont noe where.. haha so cant be bothered.. haha.. everything went smoothly until... e last day.. was playing n fighting w/ melvin.. when e whole bottle of moisturizer in my pocket broke n moisturized my pocket.. damn.. ahah it really looked lik i cum on my pants.. hehe.. too bad i dun hav camera ar.. or i sure take a photo of myself.. Everyday outfield.. got to see e sunrise n sunsets.. but... ARGHH!!! no camera.. oh ya must thank Samuel for his gloves.. haha.. or i can say byebye to my hand liao.. too cold.. haha sure kana frostbite in e morn... e fun part in e mornin.. everyone talks w/ Smokin'.. aka we talk got smoke cme out.. haha

hmm... dunno wat to write sia.. e best scenery in NZ think will be e ever snowing mountain... it's peak is forever snowing.. so nice.. luckily i always bug my friends to take photo of me.. ehehe.. not making use of dem ar.. but it's bad to have only u in e camera rite.. ahha so must shoot sme friends too mah... hiak hiak well think i skip e outfield part..

few days back in camp before R&R.. spend a lot of time washing clothes.. haha.. my clothes i wear one day,.. wash liao.. n wash one underwear everyday.. hahaahhaha.. shiok.. free washing machine n dryer leh.. dun use lugi.. R&R 1st day... boring.. bring us to drop dead places.. like.. dunno wat sulphur thing which we nvr even got down to see e sulphur... n e sheep farm.. where dey show us how dey strip e sheeps till naked.. yeah yeah so nice... puix3!!! i think e nicest part is e place where we took a cable up to sme hill.. n had luge rides dere... kaoz.. damn fun n shiok.. refer here -> luge rides lucky we listen to alex's advice to play e advanced or intermediate route.. haha so fun... trilling sia.. not lik sme guys took e scenic ride.. haha where everything so slow.. dat dey can park their luge n take a look at e scenery... while envy us take e other two routes.. hahahaa.. so sad... awww....

shortly after e educational tour.. we head to our hotel... so "lucky" to sleep w/ ah heng.. haha.. damn... always hav to listen to tis old headed guy teach me do stuff.. n listen to all his "da dao li".. pls let me off... haha.. smetimes really cant stand him sia.. so scared of breakin e rules... blah blah blah... after we settled our stuff in e hotel.. we took e coach down to auckland city n had our chinese dinner dere.. at sme seafood restuarant.. not bad la e food.. can make it lar.. n was set free... yeah!! 1st place e guys tot of... stripbar.. haha so low class.. hahaha... i tot of stripclub.. nicer.. haha.. more high class.. no one noes e way.. so after e dinner we took a 1.2km road march.. haha i think more den dat lar.. took a long long way when we finally saw our friends dat went to r&r earlier den us... n dey took us to e stripclub.. hehe.. but becoz of e stupid road march, my face's all sulken.. so damn no mood for e stripclub.. anyways.. dere's nth dere.. went in.. see a lot of pigs dance.. hahaa.. except sme real chio ones... but dun really turn me on lor.. it's like so lame.. haha.. until dunno who lar.. qlong or bryan ask e stripgal to tease me.. hahaa.. so paisay.. so i wont elaborate on tis lor.. NVR.. haha

Day2.. hmm.. woke up early to hav breakfast.. den.. after which took e coach back down town.. n do our shopping at victoria market... den go search for my porn mag... hahhaha... eh... cant remember wat i did.. hmm.. go skycity.. gamble.. hahaa.. only play jackpot lar.. e cheapest liao.. hahaa.. haha.. blah blah blah... write until beri long liao lar.. tired... going for my reunion dinner soon... hehe.... ciaoz.. will update more on r&r later...

Fly aways..~

2005-01-12T15:34:00.000+08:00

Fly aways..~ soon enough in a few more couple of hrs, i'll be off this homeland n be heading to NZ for overseas training.. damn.. until now, i'm still not in e mood for it.. E feeling i had e other time for Thailand was totally different frm now. Then i was feeling more enthu abt e trip. But no longer.. Hahaha dunno why leh.. i'm such a weirdo.

Hmm... lets see.. when was my last post.. my last post was 2nd Jan.. but after dat.. e stuff... dun really remember much though.. dat's e prob w/ me... short term memory leh.. all i can remember's dat.. i'm so god damn lucky to be chosen for e RP for friday.. e day where most of my friends will be having ER.. n i'll be sending dem off by e gate.. while doing duty.. wat e hell.. haha.. i even told e RP to let me do e last shift.. so dat i can see dem off.. sigh.. btw.. haha e duty's arent tough too.. heheh... was dere doing my 1st shift frm 8.30 till 10.. den.. slept frm 10 till 4.30 for my next duty.. ahhahaha.. god damn 7hrs of sleep... dat i didn even wake up for my lunch.. haha so dat's abt it.. for e RP.. den met up w/ my poly friends on e sat.. before i fly off.. n to make up for sina's bdae.. haha.. really got to apologise for dat... almost most of us didn turn up for her chalet... damn.. anyway.. it's a last yr thing.. so lets drop it.. anyway.. met up for dinner, loither ard.. n sat down to talk cork n catch up w/ each other.. e normal stuff lor.. got home soon after dat.. n drove out.. haha.. w/ hui for supper n spreeing.. again back to our fav spot.. hahaah.. den ate teochew porridge.. real nice.. light n delicious.. talk cork again lar.. hahaa.. den go smeplace i dunno where... w/ real nice scenery.. well i'm a road idiot.. haha.. den back hme.. just nice enough for my parents to wake up. Den sunday.. out w/ my friends to catch Meet e Fockers.. damn.. cork.. really like comedy's by... e lead.. forgot wat name lar.. err.. think it's ben stiller.. yeah.. he's a good actor.. a comedian.. den only booked in on e Monday to send off our kitbag.. n off we go out of camp.. e guys suggested KTV n movies.. haah.. me.. wasnt really in e mood den lar.. so didn really wan to go.. ahaha.. but still went lar.. dun ask y.. went dere... sing song.. den movies.. watched.. Seed of Chucky.. haha a damn fucking lame show.. it's like suppose to be a horror.. god noes.. becomes a comedy instead.. damn funny still.. den shortly after dinner dey suggested drinking.. hahaha.. damn.. yeah damn.. dun like to drink ar... hahaha.. coz i'm not a good drinker.. dun like to drink unless i'm feeling low.. so.. hahaha.. fleed off.. hahahaaa... real bad.. sorry ar.. tot of many pts before leaving too.. coz my dress code arent suitable either n would be rather a burden ba.. haha..so left lor.. hmm.. den wat.... Yesterday... went Sima Lu temple pray pray..it's really a jiff.. coz hui got to rush hme to for his PC. so jiff jiff lor.. settle lunch n all liao hme.. n for e pc.. den out for Ocean's twelve.. a damn disappointing show.. totally cant fight w/ 11.. haha time's running out.. gotta leave tis pc at 4. haha so cut short.. after movie.. hme den drive out.. for e last nite.. so must enjoy to e last bit... so went down to e "Initial D" route.. haha.. damn shiok sia.. altough not at top speed but it alreadi got e kick.. haha.. k la gtg. liao.. byebye.. GOD BLESS

Happy happy new year + me

2005-01-02T19:16:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. funny.. Came online to update this blog.. but end up listening to my songs. and d/ling dem into my mp3 player. So only left this little time for it. hmm... it's a new yr. So guess i'll just leave wat happen in e past be in e past ba.. ahaha.. so wont be updating anything tis time. :P hahaha.. except e things happen on 1st Jan lar.. hmm.. 1st Jan ar.. nth much lar.. was at Clarke Quay drinking w/ my friend... on e new yr eve lar.. den stayed dere for quite a long time.. coz both are drunk den cant drive.. so bo bian wait for one of us to be sober before we continue driving. Den i drove her hme n took a cab back hme.. den e nite was Zunshan's bdae bbq. so went dere lor.. had e bbq.. which was not filing.. hehe.. luckily i ate before going.. hahaa.. expected lar.. den dun really like bbqing also.. Sian lor.. over dere was called e pimp.. ahaha.. diot.. stupid melvin.. bo bian lar.. jealous is like dat.. so wont blame him.. haha.. really enjoyed lar.. coz got e chance to catchup w/ my sec friends again.. den after which back hme. Den my dad ask me to help him park his car in e carpark. So took e opportunity to drive out again lor.. hahaa.. hiak hiak.. Den drove hui to 85 for supper.. haha.. he also didn had a filing in e bbq... not bad e food dere.. YUmmy~.. den drove around.. spreeing... e same stuff lor.. Not missing our fav spot Changi V... haha... k la gtg. ciaoz.~

Oh ya oh ya.. as for e new yr resolutions.. Hope to toned up my body.. Be a more optimistic person(which also means have to act stupid lor) haha... err...watelse.. Save more $$.. Try to salvage things in my family.. Go overseas tis yr.. hahaa.. best is can take flight one.. (the above excluding going New Zealand)

Thoughts out straight~!!

2004-12-12T14:04:00.001+08:00

Finally... had my thoughts out straight..!! Hehe.. Wrote a compo in my book of thoughts. This whole week.. had my local battalion exercise. E 1st of the upcoming 3. Everything's a breeze except e new stuff dat came in for my ops grp. Frm now on.. we hav to do action front... meaning.. camouflaging of e vehicle, selfscript, knee deep trench etc.. Things dat we have to do everytime we reach a new deployment ground. Being 84, e vehicle mechanic aka gunfitter grp, our vehicle, a 7 ton can nvr rest n stay in e deployment ground for long.. as we hav to go around repairing vehicles n guns.. unlike e other grps. So our camouflaging skill were taken to a higher level.. We have to do a garage style camou meaning one dat can allow our vehicle to move in n out of the camou net.. Things r much stricter these time round as we will be evaluated. So.. me being e only signaller... of coz feel damn low lor... but luckily e ppl ard in 84 arent dat bad.. haha.. except for one lor.. barbie.. :X.. excuse me.. haha.. So days past fast... nvr expected to shit outfield.. haha.. nvr wanted.. had wanted to "lun" until back to camp.. but melvin chio me.. so just go lor.. ahhaa... Ouu.. dat's great.. a great feeling when u finally let go 2days loads... haha.. 2 big lumps n one small lump.. funny thing's we both got bitten by sme insects on our left butt.. such coincidence.. hahahaha.. blah blah... throughout e whole ex.. i had only little comms.. being they prefer to make use of GSM instead of comms.. haha.. fuck care la... less job means better life to me. But felt so useless.. hahaha...

No words to describe e feeling back in camp.. a sense of belonging n relieve.. But felt damn low as sme family prob's affecting me.. So like dat lor.. E whole of fri.. was quiet n low.. didn feel like talking nor thinking.. so just did wat i think i wan to do w/o considering anyone.. heck care lor.. yeah just simply. Then e very nite.. went out w/ qlong n hui.. for a movie again.. err.... National treasure. Nice show.. short simple n nice lor.. clean cut. but only 3.5stars for it.. ahah.. Then sat... err.. felt super super low lar.. n felt like drinking.. so went to angie's hse for a drink.. haha.. n a puff of 3.. hehe.. dunno lar.. just felt so low.. n got drunk until e next morning... haha.. N of coz not forgetting hui n qlong lar.. Nice friends to have. hehe.. sorry ar.. Geez.. sian booking in in a jiff.. tml got btn ex again... duhz... pray hard dat melvin's going ba.. or i'll feel damn bored.. haha... Ciaoz..

Hell Coming... RUNN!!! n Awol?!?

2004-12-05T16:59:00.000+08:00

sigh sigh... next wk btn exercise. Damn.. it's going to be a long week i guess.. All e deployments... action fronts... etc. But e only comforting thing's dat i'm with 84. Haha.. which is a good thing lar.. Cause going to lead a happy do nth life over there.. Hehe.. It's really nth compared to e rest of my friends. Really nth.. Nvr expect dat too... :P hmm.. but i have a not so good boss. MTO. Haha.. he.. he's good to me.. n took care of me.. but when problem comes.. ha.. he will turn e arrow to u... n u will be so lost. dat's e scary part.. u nvr noe when he's really good to u.. arr.. i'm losing my senses..

Hmm.. anyways.. for e whole past wk... did nth much. haha e usual spent most of e time slacking in e office. Oh yeah.. had my SOC tis fri. Damn.. i failed.. by e miserable 15secs. SHIT lar!!! FUCK e whole world.. hahaa.. just ranting.. Woke up early to have milo.. ahaha actigen-E taught by Hui.. haha... think it really helps lar.. anyways not really disappointed. on e bright side, at least i managed to improve n could have passed my 1st yr w/ this timing.. So alrite lar.. haha must always think on e bright side.. e most next time try harder ba. Then immediately after e SOC took a bathe, sme area cleaning den book out... YEAH!! haha... free.. NAH... haha.. had to go for e Signal Cohesion. held by ourselves.. our own signal platoon. haha... hav to put up a smiling front.. haha or shld i say fake front. haha... but just dun like it lar... so e whole day like putting tis unfriendly face in e KTV.. hahaha.... dun like e feeling lar... but felt better after e KTV. where e grp of us sat together n had our sushi buffet.. sme time at last.. sme time to loosen myself.. hahaa... or watever lar... dunno how to say leh.. anyways it's really cheap ba.. only ard 20bucks per person.. den can order anything...alrite lor.. but nth compared to maru maru lar.. haha e ambience sucks.. it's in a food court.. ahha... LAME.

Then after e filing meal, went for movies(w/ hui,qlong,samuel n beng).. err...w/o a paddle.. ahaha.. not bad wor.. haha quite funny lar.. but stupid plot lor..overall only 3stars. only a simple minded movie which u need not think n crack ur mind abt... but it's just wat i need den. haha.. Then sat went to give tuition lor... on my way back hme.. i dozed off on e bus n missed my stop.. n went all e way to parkway parade... damn... time wasting..

Oh yah.. today earned myself 2 customers.. hehe... one super rich guy who dun study.. haha.. wan me to do assignment for him.. for $20.. damn.. it's just a 5mins work.. doing a simple webpage.. haha.. not so bad.. e other.. still considering whether wan to hire me to do his webby.. hahaa..... may god bless me.. hahahaa... money pls come.. $$$$$...$$$$$....

Me myself n my temper

2004-11-23T11:33:00.000+08:00

Arghh.. am very vexed w/ sme family matters recently. Haha.. but will try very hard to prevent it frm affecting myself. Been getting rather tempermental nowadays. So this libra here is still trying to strike a balance for himself. So friends n family, pls tolerate for a while. Hehe.. anyways.. So this wk.. hmm.. wat did i do this wk..??

Oh yeah.. a rather major shift in the signal appointments.. Many of our mates gonna taken away frm their original appt and allocated a new one.. Me,.. e usual "lucky" one is also taken into consideration.. DAMN!! My original appt's rearlink, can be considered as a useless post ba.. Not really important unless there's any major injury or stuff dat need to be reported to the base. But it wont be needed in Thunderwarrior(our next exercise).. so i'll be a extra lar.. Me n kin foong to be exact. But he n jeffrey(another signaller) being attached to another unit will not be needed to help out in the exercise as they will be busy w/ other stuff. Jeffrey's the S4 signaller. And so e post's empty for e moment. Bahhh.. lazy to explain lar.. in short.. now it's either me or samuel to be e S4 signaller. Our BSO wanted e both of us to come out w/ our own choice n tell him leh.. but.. hahaha.. me.. just dun lik e feeling of "killing each other".. So.. guess i'll just let e matter come to rest n let fate decide everything? haha.. dat's just me. Anyways there's nth much i can do.

Things in S1 cell.. been fucked up. haha.. i'm getting more n more irritated by e one n only bastard there. oh ya n of coz e machine gun dere... which is.. e egg tart and e mdm lar... fuckers. just by listenin to them can make me feel irritated... Never felt so irritated b4... Really.. Anyways.. been slacking dere.. reporting late... coming down late.. disappearing acts w/ logan during e office hrs.. etc.. The only good thing i can think of's just dat tis untolerable's feelings going to end in just a few more days.. OH YEAH~...

So.. hmm.. fri catched "Saw" w/ hui.. a rather disturbing show.. It's abt a physco who goes ard making ppl make their decision to whether they wan to die or survive. But if they want to survive, they will have to play sme crazy n challenging games w/ him. If they won, they will live their lives... Simple story.. but honestly i think it shldn be only rated as NC16. It's not scary nor frightening.. it's only disturbing.. dunno how to explain it.. ur heart just feel tensed up watching the show.. Still i luv it.. ahhaa.. 4 stars!! Sat.. went out w/ my god sis.. haha.. long time nvr see her.. still e same old her.. no changes.. except for her hairstyle. haha.. But still like e old times, we talked n talked non stop.. N she treated me to pizza hut.. not bad.. ate to my hearts content. How i wish i can get back to my poly days.. life were much fully utilised? if dat's e word.. n i'm always e carefree go lucky guy back den.. Sigh.. haha.. anyways i wish lar.. but wishes dun come true.

Sunday.. did nth much.. helped out w/ work for my bro.. e air con thing lar.. again.. den nite went ktv w/ qlong n hui lor.. well.. everything's going smoothly n i'm getting in e mood for singing when smeone called me... my dxx.. had a quarrel w/ him over sme stuff.. n throughout e whole nite.. no mood liao.. dampened my spirits lor.. n i dampened qlong n hui's.. haha.. sorry guys. :P bahh.. but feeling much better now..

Yest... brought my mum to e doc.. n went dinner w/ my friends.. yeah it's xue's bdae on e 24th but celebrate it earlier.. So e usual stuff ate our dinner.. sat down n talk cork. wanted to get to e movies or hav a drink or so.. but e gals lar... damn.. time wasters.. shop n shop until it's 11plus den say it's late.. hahaa wan go hme.. kns leh... shittters.. hahaha.. anyways dey need their sleep for today's work too.. so dun blame dem lar.. just wan myself to be heard.. haha. k lar.. bookin in in a jiff... ciaoz..

Boring day..(continued)

2004-11-19T13:59:00.000+08:00

err.. was really lag w/ e stuff happening ard me.. duhz..well.. caught a few movies e past wk.. "Taxi", "Everybody has secrets", "Shutter" and "The forgotten"... of all.. my fav.. think will be Taxi and Shutter has secrets lar.. Not dat dey are damn nice.. but of these four. The two are the better ones ba. E worst will be "The forgotten". Pretty lame lar.. e show. It's trailer is like totally diff frm the movie itself. Kindda very not as expected story line. A lamer one den expected. :) Best will be Taxi lar.. haha.. really nice lor.. hilarious. HAha.. although i dunno e stars lar but real nice lor... can see beautiful ppl n cars..

Boring Day..

2004-11-16T19:22:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. where to start frm. Me now in spec mess. haha.. doing COS duty ar.. but feeling bored so came down to update my webby. Damn it saw Sgt Bryan, who's e BOS of e day.. but couldn give a damn.. just "i cant see u".. Hahaha.. anyways e past wk.. were e one of e packest wk den.. Went to bintan w/ my buddies.. hehe nice.. Really luv e scenery n e bikini babes dere. RELAXING.. really got my mind off stuff man.. Hmmm.. forgot wat i wanted to say.. haha.. err.. eh... ar... Bikini babes.. den.. oh ya.. dunno how to describe lar.. e feeling's just so heavenly.. imagine.. after a long day of shopping.. u go for a full body massage.. dat's really soothing n relaxes ur nerves n muscles.. den.. u got for a dinner w/ such nice ambience by e sea... man.. It's just heavenly.. esp w/ bikini babes ard.. hahah.. wanted to write more abt e trip but.. lets keep sme stuff in e bottom of my heart.. Ks? hehe

oh ya.. took leave on e wed n fri.. meaning i left camp on tues eve back to hme.. den.. was expecting for a superx2 long wkend coz thurs was a public holiday.. but on e very tues nite.. my friend called up n asked me if i could help him do his duty coz he got sme family prob.. so w/o thinking just okay lor.. anyways i got nth to do.. haha.. yeah i noe he might be lying abt e craps.. but.. i just wanted to trust him ba.. i cant stop him if he's really lying.. dere's nth i can do i just did my part as a friend... to be continued..